died
me? I never died, said he;
I never die, said he.
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somebody death is the state of non-being

that which no longer exists

does pain that no longer exists still feel bad? does pleasure that has passed still feel good?
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god i tie died some towels once 010206
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tra-la-la that would be "dyed" not "died". =) 010207
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Chrity go to:
i_have_words
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snow_angel I was dead long before I killed myself 010430
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Dafremen Apparently because he left and they jumped and yer dope sick and noone understands you even though you shared so many memories together?

sigh(Another "life is rotten" "Oh WHOOOA is me" case. How many will there be? When will they stop the incessant grovelling at the altars of their desire to be in complete control of their lives? Don't they know that NO ONE is, no one can be? Don't they know that life is a white water raft ride and if you want control perhaps you should get back in line at Disneyworld's Whitewater Rampage?)



I wish teen angst would die a quick then quickly forgotten death.

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snow_angel wish this was just teen angst and I wish i didnt lose all respect for you, wish you werent so easy to understand, wish i could just let you know that I dont even want to see you or hear you I hope you know that my love for you has died. 010511
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Dafremen Tell me it's not teen angst in 10 years ok deary? When you have a leg to stand on.

As for your respect for me or lack thereof...what you have or do not have respect for is nothing more than a collection of writings. If you feel that having respect or lack of respect for those writings is absolutely necessary...by all means knock yourself out. Try not to confuse ME with what I write. That's absolute nonsense. My blathers no more represent the whole that is ME than one of my dismembered arms would. You can do whatever you like, of course...just be forewarned that when people try to anthropomorphize what I write into me...
I tend to have a little more fun with that than I probably should.

Anyhow..do go on.
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Dafremen P.S. If you were talking to the object of your depressions...disregard my previous blather. I apparently misunderstood. Otherwise... 010703
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melissah I died a million deaths trying to find the truth within me. 020802
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philly sabbie- i remember when i died.... it was so dark and i was so alone. 021118
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Jeca even a dismembered arm would tell a lot about you dafremen-- from scars, calluses, and tan to the very dirt under your fingernails, it would tell how that arm had served you, what it had been doing, where it had been, whether it had seen much of the outdoors... point is, the arm is still a PART of you, as are your writings, no matter how you yourself precieve them. deny what you will, you cannot keep YOU out of what you use or create. 021119
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lucid A man three weeks ago, after a year of battling cancer, recieved a clean bill of health from his doctor. One week later him and his wife celebrated their 50th anniversary. Last week he was out racking his leaves and a drunk driver hit and killed him. 021120
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depeche bird blasphemous_rumours 021120
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eddie monster cool screen name
depeche bird
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eddie monster birdman? 021122
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je5icafletcher john's dad died last night. i don't know what to say. it makes me angry because he was one of the best men i ever met. he was so honest and kind. why has he been taken away from three kids who love him and need him desperately? how is that fair? it will be wierd to see him that way when i go to the funeral. i won't look. i'll just kiss john and let him know that i love him and ... crap. what do you say? WHY DID HE DIE???? A HEART ATTACK SHOULDN'T HAPPEN TO A HEALTHY NONSMOKER OUT OF NO WHERE. I'M SOOO MAD. 030228
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drunkeemonkee died is such a formal word...it sounds so final. but after all, do we know its a finality even thought its a fatality? 030602
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electric shes dying
she died
shes dead

it shouldve been me

with all my anger
and all my arrogance
and all my impurities

i shouldve died
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Death of a Rose Disco died. Don't ressurect it. Death is unfair, but of course, it couldn't and shouldn't be any other way. If death were fair, then make me dead. 031009
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nick waking up in the hospital.

why do I feel so good?
did someone say I almost died?
sleep again.
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ferret fuck man, you died 031011
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nick thank you ferret 031019
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tinkerbel Kelly was lost to the river, she never returned yesterday. That same river has kept another friend, her bed will never be warm again. I will never swim in that river, no one can make me. That river has stolen the life from my days.
Kelly died yesterday.
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tinkerbel its been 2 days already, she's never coming back 041130
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Piso Mojado im so sorry for your loss, tinkerbel

if you want to talk or write or rant or reach out or anything at all, i am here. my email is dktergonzo@aol.com. i lost my stepmom 6 months ago- and though i know i cannot know exactly what you are going through or what you are feeling or how much you love her- i do know (and still feel) pain, loss, grief.

sarah
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tinkerbel river you think you know
of pain and loss
and then you hear her scream
from every distant dream
all we tried to do was get across
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rock on never experienced true pain forced upon me
only pain of which i created
i wonder if its the same feeling
mother sparrow watches in the saftey of a tree while her flightless defenceless child is approached by the wolf
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sab died_pretty
with little to no black sand.


well, the jury's still out on that one.
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*Amy* Last time I thought I was dying seems now a great moment I was passing by. It makes me want to turn back time and be there again. Seems I`m dying again after that death, after all the other deaths, how many of them `ve passed? when will this hole in my heart be mended? how many time have I done this to my self? 050621
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her royal highness the quirk a part of me died that night. and i don't know if i can ever get that back. that feeling that i was loveable, that feeling that i could conquer everything, that assurance that things were going to be okay. i used to feel hope. and now i don't know how to feel. i'm too scared to feel. 050621
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