emotional_off_switch insignificant it's almost funny that i remember getting berated for the time i wished i had one of these after getting tired of tripping over the occasional unskipped detail and yet you wonder too how i could ever perceive that out of whomever i've always felt like i was the least, even up against the ones who are already elsewhere and i'm not supposed to resent that? 030809 ... delial You're speaking of my own heart. I'm wanting one of these right now. Though try as I might, I have yet to locate one anywhere in or on me. Let me know if you find or discover how to install one. 030809 ... ashmanzhou mine is a deadman switch locked to on jammed in place it felt me die unlike reality it cant feel me live i claw and rend and throw my weight behind it but it doesnt budge so restless i wait and hurtle alone ticking away to thun'drous disaster i thouest could not feel how would thy know thy feeling be not external nocturnal feeling inside thou dreams internal soules burning with streams of vacuous fire that thou doth despise hate it feel hate feel anger feel choler'd rage or feel not at all and wither away 030810 ... madness you can resent me all you want, but piss the fuck off about it, because i don't need it, and i don't deserve it/ 030810 ... eye well neither did i then, goddamnit neither did i. 030810 ... jane they tell you it's healthy but sometimes you just get tired 030811 ... my little secret You're so lost and scared. All alone and angry. You're jealous and confused. You're filled up with strong emotion. It becomes unbearable... You can't cry no tears will fall you can't scream or shout or hit something. There is noone to talk to. You close your eyes and clear out your mind. You sleep and refuse to wake up. 030811 ... voodoo i somehow seem to have one of these, though i can't figure out how to control it. mad at you want to show see you only smiles mad at me... 030812 ... misstree eeh. all this crap doesn't matter anyway. very scary thing to be able to say, at times. 030812 ... shivers im sure theres some prescription drug out there that could do the job i mean, if they can make crying impossible whether u want to or not... the rest should be easy 030812 ... bloody trail flip it back, flip it back when you don't love you don't live, hurt heals but alone is forever 030828 ... misstree alone is only until the cycle takes the next dance step. 030828 ... Death of a Rose tugs on tool belt and plugs the amplifier in, shit, doesn't work 031013 ... Lemon_Soda What we feel is the sane response to the experiences we have. It is our choice how we percieve our reality. Therefore, it is our choice how we feel. Negative emotions that you do not enjoy first appear because they are your initial reaction to a specific set of experiences. This is your true starting opinion on the information you have. Whether these feelings persist or not is determined on how you chose to change or keep the same the way you view the situation. Mopers mope because they want to. Giggly smiley faces do such because they chose to be. Up tight politicians are so because that's the way they believe they should. Remember, under this philosophy, every meal is a feast should you chose to let it be. 031013 ... ferret i've got one, but i don't want to use it until i have to 031013 ... pipedream its flipped itself, and i just don't feel anything right now. just numbness, and its scary because i am never, ever numb. it feels blank. will this go away? 031013 ... TK whats scarry is when you can't switch the emotions back on. as for your question, I don't know 031013 ... clarey I have one of those. But I can't control it. I know I'm going to stop functioning when it flips. It's the worst thing that can happen to those who love you- you can't love them back & they can see in your eyes that don't. But still I don't feel. Then it all comes flooding back & I remember how much it hurts xx 031123 ... Staind_And_Souless I never want to find mine. Life would be no fun. 041119 ... villain daydream once you find it you'll be sorry, no matter how badly you believe you want it -- the thing with them is they are so hard to turn back on when all you want to do is FEEL 041119 ... BitterSweetDream It's all in the mask 041119 ... wingedSerpent turning it back on after all those years was just one of innumerable mistakes i've made 041119 ... Syrope just reading the scripts that i'm most afraid of, i start crying. this has potential to be really devastating. 041119 ... monee i will not cry i will not 041219 ... nr i've been thinking lately that you have a strange sort of ability to turn emotions on and off, or maybe you just have to repress things. you can be empathetic and understanding and vulnerable, but often it seems like you can't handle feeling those qualities. sometimes you want things; something things are too much for you. and then i read this about people born during your birth week: "They also tend to get emotionally blocked from time to time. In this state they may describe an inability to feel, a removal from the sensitive, empathic parts of themselves. This experience, unsually manifesting as depression, can prove upsetting and frightening, particularly in adolescence and early adulthood. Obviously, they must walk a fine line to keep their psychological stability intact. On the one hand they need security in their surroundings and dependability in their relationships. Yet on the other hand they bore easily, and hanker for excitement, change and instability, which they often cannot handle, so that they go over the edge." ahhh, the fun of birth time studying. i don't know if i'd ever felt as excited to be with anyone as i did with you. but there are parts of you i'm not sure are good for me. i hope you don't go over the edge; even better if you manage not to while not being overwhelmed by your own emotions.. 190821 what's it to you? who go blather from