enbroma puredream Who are you? 040615 ... puredream why would I think "posts" were for me? when are posts ever for anyone? I just liked reading you... 040615 ... ethereal Your words get under my skin. Harumph. 040623 ... puredream Blather must be way too much a part of me because today I was talking to Borealis (Ashley) about how much you (Embroma) drive me nuts. Everything you say applies so much, or it's exactly what I want to hear/read. I can't explain I guess. But everything you write in a day will correspond exactly with something I've done, said or thought in that day. I don't know how you do it, and I must be completely psychotic but you do. Your words truly get under my skin. She didn't get it, I guess I'm bad at explaining. I guess it's just me. 040623 ... puredream I am very sorry about that. No unnerving intended. But I guess when you finally feel invisible is exactly when you're noticed. 040623 ... puredream What does your name mean to you? Playfully yes? Spanish... Is it significant? Like most names are... 040623 ... puredream *ponders* 040623 ... puredream Some of it is. When I don't think and just write. Other times... I get lost in it really, maybe that's where beauty stems, getting lost? 040623 ... puredream when did you first come to blather? 040623 ... puredream I think today or potentially yesterday you wrote under words_that_have_lost_their_meaning you wrote Pure. You got me there AGAIN! Pure dream... It has to do with my wanting of a certain pureness... a set out goal and lifestyle for myself. I way of living and of thinking. Of loving, of thinking, of breathing, of everything. A pure way of life. The way I see it to be pure. It is a dream... to be pure. Maybe even a goal. I don't know. But for now, it's pure dream. 040623 ... puredream I used to write as ethereal, and occasionally she sneaks out, but I honestly believe they're two different personalities. Is that strange? 040623 ... puredream But it is. 040623 ... puredream What do the stars mean for you? 040623 ... puredream More so, who do you see in the stars? 040623 ... puredream What about Ashley, sorry? 040623 ... puredream She's Borealis. 040623 ... puredream together we're Borealis_and_Ethereal confusing. 040623 ... puredream oh no wait, that was Borealis_Ethereal I think. OH I am making such a mess... 040623 ... puredream I couldn't answer that question. Perhaps that is why I asked it. 040623 ... puredream Thank you. I no longer fear you. 040623 ... Borealis as I understood it, my dear.. like two conjoining philosophies, or the two sides to a circle..a ring that breaks off and is completed by the other side...the negative and positive..the up and the down..the sky and earth..water and rain..metaphysical and physical.. where one lets off, the other continues..and where that one halts..the other joins.. two sides to one thought...thats why you went crazy.. as I understood it..from my reading..which was rushed, I'll admit 040623 ... puredream a circle hey? 040623 ... puredream The whole idea of being spoken to through someone else's words without them having any notion of it? It's frightening. You have absolutely no idea how close your words hit. I was scared because I knew them so well. 040623 ... puredream *know 040623 ... puredream Very true. 040623 ... puredream I am usually so confused by my own words. I don't remember writing half of them. I could probably point out what I see to you, but I'd like to know, have you deduced anything thus far? 040623 ... puredream my heart screams everytime I breathe these fallen letters broken words forgotten pastimes... memories locked in time you molded yourself a key it fit. it just fits. where will I go with all these places to turn? but I keep tripping, once again over your remembered words sensical words connecting words. conected. 040624 ... puredream I saw a star I think it was you Falling to Earth Closer, and true Intentional connections Tearing apart What's for real? Down further unto my heart... Follow, follow the little children Don't be silly, girl What a minute now No more moments of twirl Scared silly Flowering close by Dreaming of yesterwhen Teach me to fly 040625 ... puredream there's a secret and she's in the stars I've seen you put her there I'm curious Only because I read And go deeper See things That I already knew were there In the stars, she's sitting Waiting? Does she haunt? 040626 ... puredream fear emanates behind closed doors for the blind leading the morose and the hungry eating nothing nothing of light nothing of tomorrow nothing that's pure everything that's lost lost? lost. lost. moved to yesterday the mayhaps of forgotten the whodunit of remember sometimes there's a wonder a wonder of you all the wonders shiny and new which one, is true? fuck I love you. all the versions, all the mishaps all the burning fucked up messes set out in plain view. 040627 ... puredream the thoughts the echo within my head, resounding bound to me both bound to you fear, not fear fear itself fear it is not a fear of you but a fear of all these words echoed once again again within the tight walls the confines of my mind the thoughts i fear the thoughts the memories the pain the happiness all these which you provoke within my mind all falling closer to me heart beating silently crying falsely crying not at all and breathing just a little yes i fear i fear what you make me feel 040628 ... puredream don't stop the madness 040628 ... puredream would you hold_my_hand? dream awhile with me? breathe awhile with me? dream dream dream or so it may seem 040629 ... puredream i present you a door three options prevail step through walk away or merely watch through the little window at the top 040629 ... puredream the the palm of my hand and the centre of my eye 040630 ... eb ::creak:: 040630 ... puredream You read too much into me, and I assuming too much read sometimes too much and altogether too little into you. We are clueless in our attempts to communicate and understand. Frivolous. Undermining? I think we each see a little part of something that isn't there. Or maybe it is, we just confuse it for something else. Confuse. There is no shame in my saying that you confuse me. I reread and reread your messages, and come to no conclusions. And nothing in similarity. Must all things be elusive? Mind, straight-forward doesn't always cut it. I tend to agree. What do you want from me? 040803 ... Doar . 040803 ... puredream how did you disappear? 040804 ... puredream how did you disappear? 040804 ... maybe quantum_teleportation? 040809 ... auburn trying to piece together your past three years later makes one feel a little schizophrenic. 071018 ... fiano ohhhh.... get an effing GRIP ! - WAKE UP IN THE MORNING, get up shake the shit off and move forward, "i'm not well, i'm not well" oh just fucking ignore her, she wants attention. .you are so fucking crap. 071018 ... minnesota_chris if you are fucking crap, you may in fact be doing something wrong. 071018 ... fiano yeah, like ignore someone and use them when necessary. 071019 ... minnesota_chris well, probably everyone is guilty of that and what the hell is an enbroma anyways? 071019 what's it to you? who go blather from