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Keep smiling you fucking idiot... 030428 ... stork daddy] the bad news is...i'm an idiot. the good news is...so's everyone else. 030428 ... pipedream it's the season changing, so i'm going into wonky mood...now i know, now i can be normal again, and stop freaking out my friends. yay. 030428 ... ClairE Lately all I do is struggle valiantly. I look to the changing seasons for guidance. I banish negative thoughts from my head, and deeds from my heart. I try to relax, and think of love, and the ocean, and summer, and childhood. I try to let the onset of a bad mood pass. Sometimes, you just gotta whine a bit. 030516 ... ferret ugh, i've been in a bad mood for the past week. School sucks, my mom sucks, all my friends suck ( i need some new ones) (hard to find good ones in STUPID DAVIS!!!!!!!!!!!!) davis sucks, of all the places in california i live in davis, 300 billion miles away from everything good, my mom sucks, people suck, society sucks, and i'm so bored that i think i'm depressed because of it. 030517 ... sylphides by failing to keep a straight face when i'm arguing with you.. damn that cat for jumping on my head and clawing my hair. 030518 ... x you just have to punch them a few times 030518 ... nick cruel jane... just plain cruel 031025 ... niska i've just come to realixe why i'm in a bad mood - be it a week before my period, or an issue at work, it doesn't matter. understanding you frustrations doesn't stop them from being apparent, but it helps to identify a course of action in getting past them. if they consume you, you get nothing else accomplished. 031025 ... pipedream i can swim without floats. i can swim with the sharks. i can swim with the perfidous eddies tugging at my ankles i can swim with my lungs screaming for just one breath i can swim with my limbs aching to stop. i can swim, and if i can't swim i can float but i won't drown. i won't i can't drown. 031026 ... Toxic_Kisses I could feel it crreping up on me a few days b4 I got sick and yet (like always) some how I thought if I ignored it and smiled till my face broke and laugh till I was horce that some how that would be the an-ta-dote to scare away these feelings that have enveloped me, but then I got sick and now I've been left @ home alone too long and it's to late to reverce the effects, the unexplaneable need I feel to constantly cry and yet when I try and endulge this sadness w/n me no tears come, it hurts so bad to feel this sadness and not be able to do anything about it, and then theirs the depression, everythings horrible, everything, nol onger am I able to find the gleaming light of positive in every situation, only negativeaty exzists for me now, and if it wernt bad enough that everything outside of me is horindious it feels like everything w/n me is worce, even my smallest flaws suddinly seem to be under a microscope for me to studdy and disect witch then makes my other flaws seem googolly biger in my eyes, I feel like such a horrible awfull waist of space, I feel like any one who listens t me is inevitably waisting their time when they could be doing far more important things I'm just a waist of your time, don't listen to me I have nothing of importance to say *points* look three more of my flaws, whineing and lack of confadence, and we musent for get MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEME, its all always about ME... and bc of this I am going to remove myself from blather untill this passes (I don't know how long that will be (lucky you!)) I know I dislike reading depressed whiny MEMEMEME blaths and the last thing I wanna do is add anymore to blather. 031026 ... blown cherry so what if it's all memememe? That tends to be a big part of depression, with the blame being dispersed between mememe and youyouyou. It's a hard battle on your own. Really hard. And can be really fucking scary too. But on_my_own is the only choice for me right now, since my so called best friend got up and said they couldn't cope with me any more. So I'll cry and cry and cry and then go have a shower, cause I don't know how else to cope with this awful being alone_in_the_night. 031027 ... niska i think it's funny i thought it was a week before my period... ...that never came 031205 ... x whisky whiskey 031206 ... preetus "bad day at the office, honey?" "uh, tell me about it. how'd you know?" "you look like a bedraggled rat, and unless i am mistaken, that is a leech attached to your butt." "It's not a leech. give me coffee. coffee makes everything better." 031207 ... Doar bringing my weapons of mass destruction. i don't play nicely when the fight is on. 031207 ... pvcpillow being intentionally fluffy *bang* 031207 ... Death of a Rose i have been shot! mother, father, care not that i die from intentional bullets, let me gush forth this dying heart, and stare at her with the smoking gun. 031208 ... u24 no tears.. just smiles.. :D 031208 ... Piso Mojado time in central america is running short. back home to LA in 8 days- unbelievable. im scared shitless that im going to fall back into the daily patterns of ennui and fear that helped me spiral down before. will i be able to float through this time of transition and indecision? 031208 ... Jane Doe they're becoming more frequent... I don't like winter.. 031209 ... x reckless behavior is always tempting but i find it's best to get done what i need to do quickly and then put myself to sleep until the next day 031210 ... misstree rantrantrant rantrant rantrant rant. rantrant! rant. *sigh* harrumph. grumble grumble. bitchmoan grumble. rrah. distraction? distraction. hrrrmmmmm... *mindless entertainment* sleep calls. tomorrow is new. 031210 what's it to you? who go blather from