lying_in_bed andrea it’s amazing how incredible & irrational one’s own personal, private fears are that keep them, me, from obtaining all they’ve, I’ve dreamt of for instance, this trouble with attachment & being abandoned has kept me from being in a relationship that is pure & true & right & fulfilling. this great fear of mine just may serve to render me alone for the rest of my life. through the past 5 relationships & close calls I’ve had with love, it has only served to bring me & them heartache. and I know the danger of this, I’m just unable to find a way to get around it. copyright 2000 000522 ... moonshine Love..is popular and frequently commended as if, even when the word is used as a Euphemism, It were most enjoyable. But what do those know of love who do not know that it is a cross? Surely, the Buddha was right that love is the fountainhead of hurt and misery , of suffering and despair. He also taught that life and love were not worthwhile. But to take this cross upon oneself with open eyes, that is nobility, that is devotion, that makes life worthwhile." --Walter Kaufmann 000522 ... lotusflower "i'm lying on my bed, the blanket is warm, this body will never be safe from harm..." -jeff buckley (mojo pin) 000523 ... The Lyrical Gangster i lie awake in my room just thinking about you. i lie awake in my room just thinking about you. i lie awake in my room just thinking about you...and i wonder if you even care anymore 000604 ... typhoid no, i didnt! 000605 ... emily ...this morning i woke up and the sky was overcast...and all i wanted to do was lay in bed all day and watch movies...but sadly, i had to go to work... 000608 ... b..dm.d overcast... it was raining when the carpool came to get me. i would have preferred to stay in bed and let it rain all day but this is Arizona, and after, all most rains in this part of town never last more than five minutes 000608 ... confabulation when I'm lying in your bed and I want you to hold me you don't. you turn away and go to sleep leave me cold by the window. I stare outside and wonder why you abandon me this way. in my dreams he holds me close arms wrapped around me so tightly. wants to keep me warm and safe protect me. the only man thats done that for me was him not you not you it was the guy you've learned to despise he did it right he made me feel right you do it wrong i feel so wrong. i only want him i just want that night i want it right i want it back i want to keep your best friend forever. 010718 ... Aimee ... just like brian wilson did. 010718 ... Dafremen Praise Gawd..I say... Praise Gawd each day... He helped me to overcome... I remember once I couldn't get out of bed...so I sing and say..Hey! Lying in bed got nuttin to do. Noone to rub my head Strumming my guitar, my only friend It's gunna last me til the end Don't wanna lie in bed, Wanna get out instead I want to feel free with activity Above my bed was a face I saw Looking at me so passionately Well in his eyes I saw the truth The truth of a rastamon The truth of an eyre mon Well I've got lots and lots of company..yea Alotta good vibes flowing around me Nurses comin and wondering... Oh Gawd... Is this REALLY Ziggy Marley? Rastafari know. I and I give praises I and I thank Jah for....his aid If it were not for him What would I..what COULD I have done? And so I say amen... Don't wanna lie in bed Wanna get out instead I wanna feel free with activity - from "Lyin in Bed" by Ziggy Marley & the Melody Makers From the "Time Has Come" album. 010719 ... flippo In my birthday suit. Sucking up the florescent rays. 010719 ... the one i see you laying in my bed and i dream for just one moment that you are there to feel conforted, to smell me on the pillow, as if i make you happy. i stumbled over drunkly and make a bed on the floor for jasinda. I crawl over you carefully and just pull my hat over my eyes and hope that i dont still smell like his cologne, but almost hope i do. Maybe then you would realize how much you should want me, how good you should treat me cuz i could have anyone. but as i ponder choices you start to wake up. so i play along and pretend to be asleep. you cant see my eyes so youll never know. But then you reach over, and pet my hair lovingly, and i hear you laugh softly, seeming happy to see me home. Now i wonder and i sit wanting you to still be here, laying in my bed. Why cant i remember all the horrible times. 011004 ... distorted tendencies I'm lying in bed, a curvy nude, with a hand behind my head, fingers extended to play with the loosely curled hair. Another hand down near my waist my heart beating calmly against the pressure applied. Dark eyes staring at the light streaks made by passing cars mixed with moonlight against my darkened walls, in my dark room. And I wonder what you're thinking about this moment, this night. And what you're doing this moment, this night. All I'm doing is thinking of you, your voice, your smile, the glimmer in your eyes when you look at me, and the softness of your skin, because I want nothing more than for you to be lying in bed next to me. 011005 ... silentbob having dreams that i was awake and that minutes passed by me like hours, waking up to led_zeppelin 011006 ... unhinged with my clothes on, waking up to the realization that i fell asleep not caring. drug-induced apathy, heartache, lime green wool sweaters. it's all the same. 011006 ... hostile towards my alarm clock im lying in bed perfecly content, so warm, and what do i hear? BEEEEEP BEEEEP BEEEEP BEEEEP BEEEP BEEEEEEP BEEEEP BEEEEP BEEEEP BEEEEEP BEEEEP BEEEEP BEEEEEEP. god damnit 011015 ... sphinxradio i left the christmas lights on last night and three nights before that, too i sort of left them on for you but also, just to be safe, because no grendels come when there's still light 011203 ... ClairE your chest is what i cling to. 011203 ... ItGirl when my demons attack. when my defenses are down. all the thoughts i ruthlessly banished to dark nether regions of my mind resurface with a vengenace. they laugh at me and point out my mistakes. they show me all the wrongs i have done, any insecurity or regret... my single regret... my greatest demon. 030719 ... ashmanzhou you feel yourself is not you become not for we all are true we are you society does make a person what who and themselves be for we are nothing if not something a spawn of societys hate demons therefore are THEM the THEM that is there to cure the emptiness of sociey hate them fight them for they are not yourself they are outside you 030719 ... share this lonely view and wishing you were next to me, so that you could be the last sight in my eyes when the waves_of_sleep wash over me 030719 ... Bizzar My own bed. Not yours. Maybe its all in my head, but its so much harder to fall asleep when not comforted by the sounds of your breathing. And now its even worse then ever, because as I fall into a restless sleep, far away from you, all I do is wonder where you are, and what you could be doing with your new freedom. 030720 what's it to you? who go blather from