empty_handed unhinged i got nothing 090223 ... Lemon_Soda You've got music. 090223 ... jane just because you can't see it doesn't mean it's not there 090223 ... unhinged just because you feel it doesn't mean it's there (i need to feel it i've been living on fumes for too long) 090223 ... unhinged at the risk of submitting to a cliche, i don't have music. music has me. 090223 ... unhinged (with all the music in the world, i'm still going to sleep alone tonight) 090223 ... Lemon_Soda A nice warm body to snuggle is lovely, and when one has so much love to give it helps to have someone to give it to, but I hope you don't think you need someone else to be a complete you. 090224 ... critic when did you turn into Dr. Phil? 090224 ... Lemon_Soda When I feel I have something to write, I write it. And I never said I was Dr. Phil. You a fan of his? Or did what I write hit home and you lashed out? 090224 ... Lemon_Soda Besides, if I think I can help unhinged I've got to try. I empathize with her writing alot. 090224 ... unhinged see, i'm fiercely independent. i know when to walk away. well....when it comes to romantic entanglements anyways. i will not change who i am to make someone else happy. do anything yes; change how i think, what i do of my own will, no. i have developed myself mostly alone, and i like most of the way i am. the part of myself i don't like is the angry bitter part. which i need people in my life that will let me care and help and love them to fix. to not be abandoned when something better comes along, to get a phone call to see what's up instead of always being the one that dials the phone....i guess to just feel wanted and needed. cause i don't like to be needy; when i feel myself being needy i isolate myself from the world. so yes, there is a hole in me. an incompleteness. the need to be chosen instead of always being the one that chooses. just some goddamn affection. the lack makes a big hole in me. i am not complete alone. no one is really. i can't hug myself. believe me, i've tried. ( balasana ) 090224 ... critic i wasn't lashing out. your insecurity took it as such. you just happened to sound like a rather obnoxious televised advice-giver. 090224 ... Lemon_Soda Um, no. When you choose a name like critic it means your criticizing. And since it came out of nowhere, that would be lashing out. Even if that wasn't your intention, its plain to infer. Though, you are right about me. I'm insecure about alot of things and that effects my thinking. Darn it, I must be human. 090224 ... amy assumption maker you so Libra. I sometimes fantasize that you have pluto in Libra conjunct your Sun. and maybe you do. to the depths of your being, you seem to reach out, and you do so out of a justice in the world, and a need for reciprocity. not a bad value to own, and of course one that is not always fulfilled. you are authentic, and that is something to be treasured and divvied out to whoever needs it. "i need to be needed". but ARE you a Moon in Cappy. Peter Gabriel is. Are you a Moon in Cancer, sensitive to life's viscissitudes? Are you a Moon in Pisces, smart as hell to what life can bring, but always feeling put upon and overwhelmed? i find myself at a crossroads, where i could go into one profession or the other, and find that my own Moon in Cappy needs to be needed, I will be good at taking care, being there to pick up a few pieces for family members or strangers, or become a useless authority in one way or another. are you like this? (maybe it's that late Libra thing, I believe you are held to the Libran restrictions. the Libra to end all Libras. could be a big burden indeed. but would have to be a big gift, too, obviously) and maybe, like me, Lemon_soda hasn't really ever watched Dr Phil. I mean I know who he is, and I know what he says, vaguely, but I've never seen it... I kind of like that He's-not-that-into-you guy better, but that doesn't mean that guy has better advice, and besides i think he's off the air. 090224 ... unhinged my moon is in pisces. which from all i've heard and read, is not a particularly happy combination. but i am so fucking smart and sensitive, that someone will be lucky and amazed on a regular basis, as soon as i find them. 090224 ... unhinged come on now, don't fight. i don't like the fighting. it hurts me. 090224 ... amy yep, Pisces. knew it. my mom is a Sun in Pisces, moon in Libra, and she's not the happiest camper either. she has a great appreciation for beauty, though and can be quite joyful, but it's usually very brief. 090224 ... critic "When you choose a name like critic it means your criticizing." really? so when you choose a name like Lemon_Soda, it MEANS you are carbonated and citrusy? i guess i overestimated your intelligence! 090224 ... unhinged hey fucker, don't pick fights over inane bullshit. people get butthurt around here because tone of voice is...nonexistent. if you want to pick a fight, do it on a page that i'm not interested in. or a designated fighting page for that matter. we have all had syntax arguments. seriously, if you want to argue, argue something productive like the cure for cancer or a way to alleviate oil dependency or global warming. i myself was not particularly offended by ls's comments. besides, unsolicited advice is one of the things blather does best. if you don't want a response, write in a diary. but yeah, don't pollute my environment with immature bickering. 090224 ... Lemon_Soda My apologies to both unhinged and critic. 090224 ... unhinged no apology needed. i live in a cold city in more ways than one. i just need more love around here since it's the only place i seem to get any. 090224 ... unhinged never underestimate the appetite of hungry college boys urban_bodhisattva 090418 ... unhinged i didn't realize how much i had been depending on you for my happiness til you were gone. one day i called you and you were in brooklyn. the next day i called you and you said you weren't sure when you were coming back. suddenly, i am in my dark hole again. doing little things to remind myself of you, wondering, worrying what you are up to. i am inclined to make you a present while you are gone. then that naggy voice that usually follows right after my authentic one starts saying 'but what if it freaks him out and he stops talking to you again?' *sigh* i sat alone in the wine bar after work and all the couples irritated, saddened me. cause once again i'm empty handed but my hand is itching to hold something. 100701 what's it to you? who go blather from