loveache Aimee God. I don't know if I've ever loved someone this much before. I can't even explain it. He's so beautiful that there are days I'm almost scared to touch him because he'll disappear if I do. Kind of like a bubble... poof! it's gone. Astoundingly, he loves me just as much as I love him. I can't believe it. Isn't he supposed to think I'm just some immature freshman? Isn't he supposed to think.. christ not her again.. ever time that i call? I'm not one to regret my past.. I stay with the whole Hakuna Matata deal... it's a lot easier than dealing with the pain.. but now.. I wish to God I hadn't lost my virginity before him. I wish I hadn't given myself lovelessly to others.. but that's my past and I accept it.. because every morning I wake up in his arms at 5am just to make sure he's still there and every morning I fall back asleep listening to his steady breathing and his heartbeat. He holds me through the night. No matter what I always fall asleep before him.. maybe it's just that I'm exhausted or maybe it's because I'm so contented right there that I don't want to be anywhere else. I would be so happy if I could just spend my every moment of my day with him.. talking, listening, sleeping, whatnot, just as long as he's there. I've watched him sleep almost every day this week. God. What perfection. To me he is an adonis.. I don't want anyone else, just him. I'm dying to show him off to my family, my friends and almost anyone I meet. I want everyone to know that I'm in love with him. I want everyone to know that I love everything about him. I want everyone to know that I want to marry him one day down the road... God I am so in love with him there are times that I swear I'm going to cry. 010925 ... lost i know how ya feel.... well sort of i always think they love me back just to find out that they dont. 010925 ... Logan It's all because she knows...she knows how I feel...she knows that she is the one I want above all others...it's the feeling I have that she won't just use me as all the rest...the fact that she genuinely loves me...genuinely cares with every passing glance into her eyes...genuinely loves beyond a definition thought up to a platonic standard...there is no standard to how much I love her, just an everlasting warmth that I can only hope to impress upon her...a need to feel her next to me...a need to hear her voice and feel her breath...a need for her...and I have her...and I don't know how I got so lucky...I just know I am and I will give her the rest of my life if she will only have it...because I love her more than anything, and am hers always. 010925 ... sillysheryl god I haven't felt that way about someone in over a year every fucking single day I wonder if I ever will again and every day is one day closer to the realization that the answer is no no, no, no I repeat that to myself I cry and I wonder what has become of me who am I and I when I catch myself hoping I repeat I repeat I repeat 010925 ... kingsuperspecial hey, don't get me started. I just got done twisting myself into knots before SOMEBODY (?) helped me see how ridiculous I was being. Now, who could that have been? hmmm... it was some secret wife of mine. 010926 ... Sonya These things you say...you say them to dead air. These words of love, of devotion, I cannot hear them now. I love you, but perhaps it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter when the words aren't there. When I can't hear the words, what does it matter? When I can't hear your voice, what does it matter? When my heart can't beat, what does it matter? When I can't see your eyes, what does it matter? When I forget that you care, does that make me wrong? I've been blessed and plagued by a love I still don't understand. A love for you. A love of you. A love between us. Time is a torturing flame without you. I wait and wait and still wait...but no words from you. I've found you, but I've also lost you. What does it matter? I shall fade away some day. And on that last day, I'll remember how I loved you more than my own frail life. I don't want to feel regret, but it creeps in every now and then. This ache of love, it leaves me crying every night, and every day, and every time I need a hug and you're away... 011009 ... curious How are things with your beau, Aimee? 011009 ... Aimee wonderous.... it's amazing how it gets better and better with each passing moment... I'm never letting go of him... I couldn't bear to.. he's the best thing that could have happened to me and I don't think i've ever been this happy in all my life... 011009 ... sad AWESOME. but, you make me jealous. :(!!!!!!!!! 011009 ... the one the way i hope and wait to see his face, I just cant wait till he comes home. How he knows just what i want him to do and doesnt hesitate to do it. He saves me from going insane, asks me if i want him to do it for me, knowing i do. Calls me for the first time when im breaking down and only want to hear him say that he cares, and even though thats not what he says, he saves me. always saves me. he smiles and I am flying on this huge air ride. Noones smile has ever meant this much. Nothing has ever made my heart sore so high. Those butterflies everyone is always talking about...Ive only gotten them with you . And when i feel like ive lost his love, he shows me that hes still in with me till the end. hes still thinking about cuddling up next to me. Hes still letting me sleep in his bed. I want to tell him how much i care. How much i feel when he breaths. Like his whole energy is floating into me. Ive never been like this before, And i dont know how to handle this feeling. Can i be in love with him? Can i really know already that he is the one i want to be with forever.? And my heart aches. 011213 ... ClairE Heh. No thanks, I'm full. 011213 what's it to you? who go blather from