i_so_miss_you Mahayana weve only nearly departed for about a handfull of secs. yet it already hurts & pains me so [oh pain, whoa longing] 020222 ... yummychuckle totally miss you and I thought thought thought you didnt think of me or miss me or would ever ever ever want me back but maybe you do? I can't just assume you haven't changed your mind...but its nice to think that POSSIBLY you still *want* me and it hurts so good. too far away!!!!ARGH! you are so great and so far away. Damn distance.time.physics.school. well anyway. *kisses* to Logan. 020222 ... blown cherry When I left you, was it yesterday, or the day before? i can't remember, but you led me to the freeway, my car following yours, then at the roundabout I turned left and you turned back. Within seconds I was in tears, sobbing uncontrollably. I haven't felt like that leaving you in such a long time. I drove all the way up mount Ousley trying to see through blurry eyes with tears running freely down my face. 020223 ... lady lunchbox you've spoiled me so... all because you sleep in my (our?) bed every nite. i can't dream without you. i miss you. please hurry home. 020223 ... silent storm all the time 020224 ... Mahayana right nOw ::im missing you:: missing yOu like the miss miss's ing [even when we are conversating] [im missing you] 020225 ... someone with green eyes Totally 020227 ... carpe articulus sometimes i miss her so much that i cry myself to sleep. although it was i that ended the relationship, it was the only thing i could do. i did it for us. i did it for her. i cared for her so much that i had to let her go. she needs to experience the world as she wants to without me holding her back. 020227 ... distorted tendencies Not what you've become. I cry, i wish you could see how i love you and how no one else does... you are so blind. 020227 ... Mahayana that i dont want to do anything else [i_so_miss_you 2 the state of breathing becomes such labor] 020313 ... Mahayana [natures work :: fate :: mystery of motion :: patience :: if we understood all we should admire all :: status quo :: the eternal struggle :: subsistence:: all purposeful] i so miss you yet i trust in the ways of 'things playing out' & there must be a reason why we have to live apart for the allocated time i so miss you yet i trust that this is just another facet of the plan 020522 ... blue star I want to cry every time I think about you. I want to become you. I want to live with you forever. I hurt. 020522 ... Arwyn I've been crying myself to sleep at night, and today I finally got to talk to you... first time in almost 3 days... *sighs* I'm sorry I was crying when you called me. I just can't stand missing you this much. I'm sorry I'm not keeping my head about this, I want to be able to accept this, but I've never gone more than 10 days without seeing you for the last 8 months, I got so used to being with you. Only 41 more days... and yet that sounds like an eternity. It's bad enough having to miss you constantly, but having people remind me that you're not here by saying "where's logan" is just too painful somedays. 020522 ... bethany is it possible to miss some one you have never eve met, seen? That big finagler in the sky tries other puzzle peices so you know that there is going to be the right one, right? Puzzling. so if you've felt almost right then isn't that person dually missed as they will be completely right and never make you miss again. 020522 ... time2moveon? well everyone is eloquently missing people i almost wish it were me so we could get together and live happily ever after. [dont think that realistic] you lucky you had someone to miss. im still looking for that first someone to love and be in love with. [i thot i was but he has disappeared, i guess it wasnt 2 way] i still looking to love like i never was hurt. lament no more. lotta love out there. somewhere. 020523 ... blue star bethany~ listen to john_mayer - love_song_for_no_one It's just what you're thinkin about. 020523 ... bethany he's out there she's out there, they're just learning what to contrast you againt...but i'm not so tired of being alone, i am relishish my time alone but i do wish they'ed hurry up and get here still 020523 ... silent storm falling asleep with your arm around me rolling over in the middle of the night to hold you makling love to you, kissing you, holding your hand our walks at night sitting on a bench under a tree with you and just talking that bench under the weeping willow by the lake sneaking into the shower with you kicking your ass at my racing game getting my ass kicked at mortal combat being tickled sitting in your lap hugs, kisses, smiles, laughter being happy god i miss you 020523 ... silent storm *aHeM* making* 020523 ... TK I Miss ... the way you look at me and with out saying a thing I know you love me ... holding hands with you, weather we're in ur truck or the grocery store or home depot, just always the feeling of my hand in your ... the sound of your laugh ... the way it feels to be wrapped up in your arms ... the sound of your heartbeat when I lay on you ... you singing me awake in the morning "good morning beautiful" but most of all I miss everything about you that makes you who you are . . . I_So_Miss_You 040830 ... when darkness falls and it's not the feeling that just appears out of nowhere and then vanishes... it lasts. you have the ability to bring out the best in me. when i'm with you i'm a better person and i want to stay that way. just one second with you, and i transform into this calm, laid-back 'inamorato' that i always wanted to be. when i'm with you i have no worries. when i'm with you there are no others. no one understands the connection between us except for you and me. but i know i can't have you. i'm not going to cross that line. our friendship is sacred to me. without you i'm nothing. 061116 ... pete and i want to, but am trying not to, call you 061117 ... three words i_so_miss_you entwined_souls snow_day 101018 what's it to you? who go blather from