holden megan the absolute love of my life... never have i ever felt this way about anyone, nor i ever will. forever in his arms i'll stay. forever in his heart, for ever could come and go, and we'd never be apart. 1 year tomorrow!! 021114 ... silentbob he left pency prep and went home and had the most descriptive few days i ever read. 021114 ... jane megan, i feel the same way 021114 ... jane except for the one year thing 021114 ... girl_jane If only he were real... If a body catch a body coming through the rye... 021114 ... silentbob So does Miss Tube of Wonderful have a name? 021115 ... Holden McGroin 021115 ... megan wow, we talked so much today.. about anything and everything under these freakin awesome stars. he gave me a necklace, it's really simple and pretty, just like him. he told me he'd love me forever. i wish we could spend all day and night, and every week together... too bad we're still in high school, we're old enough to be mature about relationships unlike most i know. his kiss tastes like warm cider. 021115 ... 0of46 it would have been so awesome to meet holden caufield in real life, he woudl have be one of the most interesting people ever too bad he was fictional..... 021116 ... silentbob He actually wasn't fictional, he was based on a childhood friend of JD Salinger Ok i'm totally making that up 021116 ... megan we're planning on "watching a movie" at his house tonight.. ahhh the freedom! we are constantly floating in this in-between world of happiness and numbness... in this cloud 9 sort of thing where no one can take our happiness away. oh it is delicious, i wish i could just suck all the good times out of our lives with a gigantic straw (and not get any stuck between my teeth). 021116 ... megan his dad walked in on us making out, but for some odd reason it was ok. i felt at home in his arms. 021117 ... silentbob oh my god how embarassing what did he say 021117 ... Holden McRauch 021117 ... megan he said "break it up" hehe. as if we were fighting or soemthing.. the funny thing was we didnt notice at first, we were zoned ya know, and he started waving his arms around. then we all had a good laugh. they're pretty laid back people i guess. :-) 021117 ... girl_jane aww...I wanna make out with a comfortable boy...yeah-that one-you know who I'm talking about That pretty boy that's oh so fucking perfect *le sigh* I need to find him first... 021117 ... megan we didn't do naything today except see each other at school.. i have to work.. i miss him. comfortable is a great way to describe him, girl_jane, thanks for the word. comfortable... 021118 ... girl_jane you're welcome :) 021119 ... megan we kind of had a tiff tonight, it was about religion and how it's all so real to me and how he struggles with what denomination to agree with. i just wish soemtimes the world would be perfect... 021123 ... something tell him not to pick a denomination. what he believes is what he believes. 021124 ... megan thats what i told him, thanks something.. he understands.. we're on the same page now :-) and he went to church this morning. happiness is yet again on our laps. 021124 ... megan hung out yesterday... its thanksgiving today. im pretty bored sitting at my grandparents house doing nothing but eating and watching wizard of oz. lol.. that is one cracked out movie. that and alice in wonderland. lol. but anyways back to holden.. i still love him and we still share those moments, oh you know the type. the dreamy heart in your teeth type. yeah. soemthin like that. :) 021128 ... riot sucks 021128 ... moo i like ford MUCH better 021128 ... megan still comfy.. many laughs. nothing can take him away. 021205 ... megan wish i could see him right now... 021213 ... megan i miss him. why do i always find myself on here whenever i feel this way? 021230 ... megan we spent all of last night together to bring in the new year. he can put me to sleep simply by rubbing my head. it's like a lullaby, knowing that i'm on his lap and his arms are around me, and nothing can take that away. 030101 ... call_me_lydea who is megan? 030101 ... megan i am megan. 030102 ... megan so much. it says all i cannot say. all i cannot explain. the sheer perfection in a someone that makes me want to kiss him. *kiss kiss* :) 030105 ... megan i love you 030125 ... nomatter megan killed the holden page. 030920 ... pobodys nerfect Probably a job most interior decorators would prefer,instead of doing just half of it. ;) Oh boy am I in a weird mood tonight... 030920 ... megan megan made the holden page so step off hun 030921 ... pipedream holden caulfield, the first man who ever made my sister sit up and take notice :) 030921 ... pobodys nerfect megan--I was half tired and half bored by the time I got to blather last night. To amuse myself,I began to try and read words in a different way: holden = whole den I meant no disrespect to Holden the person. :) 030921 ... megan no no not you pobody :) the person that said i ruined the page i was being testy with them :) 030922 ... pipedream lets kill the testy person...chop off 'is testes (if 'ee 'as any)! hahahahahahahaha 030923 ... djstar i want to know what happened with holden and megan! i was so enthralled with the love story.. come back 050527 ... megan the story. of course it would be through jaded eyes if it's through my eyes. and of course, due to my severe histrionic disorder, it will be all his fault. lately i have found myself believing that we are friends again. that we can sit and talk for hours and find some understanding in each other that neither of us can find in anyone else. but, however, this is not completely true. we broke up last march. if you want more details see http://blather.newdream.net/m/morbid_expectations.html http://blather.newdream.net/g/goodbye_to_you.html i am with someone new now. he has taught me a lot about myself. he has taught me that i have strength on my own, not derived from anyone or anything else. he has taught me that love is sometimes hard, and that disagreements do happen, and feelings do get hurt. and it's ok. it's not going to end just because of that. i wish i could say some miraculous thing to say to end this, but it's still just me. little old me, sitting alone with her computer, listening to sad bastard music, still not sure how to be just ok, and feeling left out of society like always. i guess i'll never quite fit 050527 ... djstar thank you for your honesty. what a perfect way to end the story. all we can do is learn and grow, learn and grow... 050710 ... james Thump 150218 what's it to you? who go blather from