could_you_at_least Death of a Rose emulate the actions of a friend instead of a momentarily interested passerby? 040824 ... pete take on the mantle of one who gives a damn, not one who sees shiny objects and turns his head? 040824 ... love & hate give me one more chance to prove my love to you... For that love is not fading no matter what the distance is. I love you eternily, let me make you happy please... 040824 ... FloydianSlip Could you at least stick up for me when your family tries to trash me? I've gone over it time and again with people I've just met and close best friends and they tell me that I did everything right. They're the ones with the problem. If it were anyone else but your family you would have been right there standing up for me. Instead you stood in silence which hurt even worse. If you love me then why do you let them get away with it? Why do you justify it by saying that they're antisocial and not social people? That's no excuse for the way I've been treated. I just want loved and accepted. Is that too much to ask? 040824 ... unhinged could you at least let the phone ring more than once so i have a chance to answer it? i'm banned from calling canada. 040825 ... . Don't worry, you wouldn't have wanted to talk to me anyway. I'll stop torturing you. 040825 ... unhinged *sigh* this is definitely the albino all over again *doublesigh* 040825 ... . *triple sigh* 040825 ... Doar Hmm....okay...the reason I dialed you up last night was because I wanted to hear your voice again. But then I realized that it would be best to leave things as they are. 040825 ... unhinged if that's what you think, that's fine 040825 ... Doar "Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths, Enwrought with golden and silver light, The blue and the dim and the dark cloths Of night and light and the half light, I would spread the cloths under your feet: But I, being poor, have only my dreams; I have spread my dreams under your feet; Tread softly because you tread on my dreams." Yeats 040825 ... somepeoplesmile try to notice that I'm. Not. Okay. 040825 ... guess who Could you at least realise for a fucking second that you're not okay. That you make up half the shit that is wrong with you. That shit happens. Move on. Get over it. And get some fucking help already. You are not mentally stable. I think you might actually be schizophrenic or something of the like. I hate it to be this way. But I've left another person behind. Another me behind. I've moved on. Because I realised what I had become. If you don't get help I'll stick you in some sort of rehab for people who need some sort of assitance mentally. I don't know anymore. But you can't help yourself, I can't help you, none of us can help you. You won't let anyone that's studied the brain try and help you so maybe it's no use. But hey guess what! You've got no other fucking choice. Choose a fucking solitary life. Wake up. Work. Play a little piano... maybe if you're lucky before your curfew at nine. Then maybe sleep. If you know the voices leave you alone. Or you can accept the fact that you're not okay. Ask for help. Get help. And accept the kind of help that you now need. Add people into your life. People that can know you without having their head fucking corrupted. Without dying a little inside. Without falling asleep from the rest of the God damn fucking world and losing what was once theirs. Life. Could you at least learn to fucking breathe and get a life!!! Fuck. 040825 ... guessing misstree 040825 ... suicide fish consider killing yourself instead. the above is bullshit and you should ignore whatever he says if no one can help you find a master plan 040825 ... somepeoplegetangry ok. wait. there are so many people on blather with so many viewpoints, some on drugs, some going crazy over a significant other, some just randomly hating themselves, cutters, anorexics... but, of course, i'm not allowed not to feel okay? i have to do something about it? oh, and by the way, i'm not a psychophrenic. i have never said anything about hearing voices or anything similar. but really, thanks for telling me that half of this is all in my head. at first i was surprised by your diagnosis since you know nothing about me, but i got over it and realized that you were right. and POOF!!! IT WAS ALL GONE! the constant anxiety, the rapidly changing mood, the paranoia IT JUST DISAPPEARED!!! oh thank you dear 'guess who'...your insensitive words have changed my life 040825 ... somepeoplemaketypos hmmm, psychophrenic...a psychopath schizophrenic? maaayyyyybbeeee 040825 ... guess who furious Could you at least not assume that everything is about you? I was not talking to you, you fucking insensitive all-assuming prick!! God damnit~! 040826 ... the bipolar worrying paranoid all-assuming prick wow, i was totally going to come back here and apologize because i realized later that i had no proof that you were talking to me... and now i feel even worse because i am a prick... so i am so sorry for jumping to conclusions (even though i don't think i was the only one) 040826 ... pete let me slip into the song, block yourself out, and not blame yourself for what i have done. yet, as the flowering trumpets speak are we not the friends that we lost when he came around and now we are here again? did you believe the hours that passed between i don't know i never liked him, but i will never say to you "told you so" that just wouldn't be right, but you were warned, just don't blame yourself and your tears are not a weakness they do not destroy you they are you your passions your emotions that your life has forced you to hid, they are real cry them, please if for nothing else, for me. 040826 ... * ^hide 040826 ... thunderbuck ram lift the toilet seat? No! 040826 ... SaHbA hjfghj 040826 ... sahba leave the door open 040826 ... guess who again and again I'm sorry too. 040826 ... Syrope humor_me here don't be so hard to surprise 040827 what's it to you? who go blather from