unhinged_and_mollycule Lovers Lament lovely unhinged. where am i without you? *sigh* i miss you. you understood a large portion of my heart and for that i was always grateful. you never judged. and that kiss, that was a beautiful thing. . .thank you. my sister, my darling. i hope you come back to me soon. mollycule, my soulmate still, although you may not like it, and will probably never think that way again. i miss you just as much. jealousy tore us apart, but i still think of you, miss you. heard you told your parents i was a junkie and that's why we never hang out. that hurts. i'm not a junky. you should know better than that. how can you say that? the girl who 'bumped' at her job? if i am a junky, you are just as much so. you just keep yours in check out of respect for jeremy. and really, i don't believe either one of us are junkies, we just like to have fun sometimes. i'm sorry we fell apart like we did, i really am. i could not compete with my best friend. it was just too much stress. i still remember that perfect moment. timko, jeremy, you, and i all in the 'living room' at their house, listening to spacehog, in the meantime. it's a moment in time that i'll never forget. i hope things are going well in your life. i hope you and jeremy are doing well. i don't know if you'll ever read this post as you really haven't been on that much lately, but if it finds you, know that the intentions are well meant. miss you both. x's & o's 010703 ... unhinged i always wondered if i scared you with that kiss but i'm glad to hear that i didn't. that was a very special night for me. and just so you know, the next time you call me a lesbian it's half true :) you are one of the great people in my life. we have so much unspoken understanding between the three of us, me you and mollycule and i miss it too. right now i'm in milwaukee playing my violin and learning A LOT and becoming a kick ass player. i will be back in y_town at the end of august and miss you so much too. both of you. i hope that some day the three of us can be back together again like it was in the old days. the last time we were together, me, you, kt and ron the only thing that was missing to make it the way it should have been was molly. we are sisters whether we want to be or not. love you both sooooo much. miss you even more 010703 ... lovers lament well, as far as ron is concerned, he's in jail now. i'm aching for him every night like a cold fever. i miss him so much. . .i just want to hold my best friend. he's been in there since may. :( i'm so lonely. i'm sending you a hug. love you honey. 010704 ... spiffay suck. 010704 ... unhinged i called your cell phone yesterday to find that it was disconnected. :( i'm sorry to hear about ron and that you're so lonely. i think about you everyday and i hope that's good enough until i can see you everyday even though i know it's not. *HUG* 010704 ... lovers lament no, it's not enough. but i am glad that you think about me. i had a $130 cell phone bill so i had to shut it off. it sucks. anyhow, if you talk to kt tell her i miss her too. *hugs and kisses* 010707 ... unhinged kt wants to come hang out with you. you should e-mail her. if you don't know her address just e-mail me and i will send it to you. just e-mail me anyways. love you 010707 ... MollyCule why am i always the last to know? believe it or not, (knowing my admittedly high levels of exhibitionism) i'm not entirely comfy debating my drug use or unuse (disuse?) in front of all the blatherers. But what the hell, I'll do it anyway. Suffice it to say that the drugs J has used in the last 6 months more than triples mine, if we're talking things that weren't prescribed to me. So the whole keeping it in check out of respect for him thing doesn't rilly add up. I've basically lost my taste for illegal substances, sadly enough. Although, I will be 21 soon, so who knows what'll happen then. I miss you too. Believe it or not. And if you don't, go read the post from korie on may 24 under i_miss_you and keep in mind some of it was said to deliberately throw you off. i don't want to compete with you. i never did. i just didn't want to sit there and watch you do some of the shit that you were doing. i couldn't. it hurt too much. and that's the truth. 010714 ... lovers lament so what's this truth that you couldn't tell me, but could bear to lie to me about no longer? i wish i knew why you faded out of my life. that's most of the reason that I believed him, you know. because you didn't much seem like you cared anymore. went to the other pages for Korie. i'm sorry. i guess i just didn't think that you loved me anymore. i think about you alot. i think the real reason i needed to get away from you was because it hurt too much to know that you had so many negative feelings towards me. i'm kind of glad you weren't talking to me these past few months. although you probably already know most of the shit i did, maybe you don't know it all. i guess i turned slut for awhile. 6 people, counting tom. i'm getting better. yes, i have been a little more into drugs lately. i wouldn't say i'm a junkie although. i try new things every once in awhile. other than that i drink and smoke pot like any other ohioan. ;) i do miss you. have to go to work now. thank you for seeing this page and responding. you'll never know how much it meant. 010719 what's it to you? who go blather from