fuck_fuckity_fuck_fuck_fuck Aimee you know something.... You broke the rules.. it's the that you're happy that pisses me off... it's the fact that you broke the unwritten law. We may have broken up 2 almost 3 years ago... but we still broke up, he's still my ex, and you broke the rule.. you know, the one the states you don't date your friend's ex's? I mean hell, I thought/think of you as my best friend, do you realize what a stab in the back this is? I would never KNOWINGLY date an ex of yours, and honestly, I'd stop the minute I'd realized who it was. so what the fuck? Right now, I don't even know you. Are you that desparate for a relationship that you're willing to toss me aside? Lemme tell you something.. this relationship won't make you feel any better about yourself.. eventually you'll get passed the whole "fuzzy bunny" stage and you're going to find some things out about this social degenerate. So why, I ask, didn't you go find someone else? Why do you blame your parents for all your problems? Are you that frightened that maybe, just maybe you might be able to alter your situation and not have to be so depressed all the time? I mean, I can barely remember a steady time where you were actually happy by yourself... instead you go find someone else to make you happy so that you don't have to do it for yourself... Honestly, you (nor I) will EVER have a successful relationship until you learn to love yourself and be able to keep yourself happy without someone else. I just can't believe you're so willing to throw a friendship away for a fucking guy. He's not as sweet as you think he is... and this whole "he's matured" thing, is not something I'm buying.. and even if he has, his intelligence probably hasn't increased all that much anyways... I mean hell, he's the reason why I lost my virginity to steve... or at least I think that could be it on a subconscious level. Because of his pressuring me to fuck him (probably because he was stupid fucking football player) I felt obligated to do it. He whored me more than anyone ever did.. especially when he told the entire fucking school that he and I did it on the second date.. (at least he respected me enough to choose the second date and not the first, people might think I'm a whore for that) And honestly.. I don't need to know what you and he are doing... I don't need to know how he acts when he knows you want it... or vice versa... fuck this I'm going to class 010831 ... florescent light I know all about these unwritten rules. Once my best friend dated the guy i was dating, behind my back- despite the fact that she knew how much I cared for him. the thing that upset me most was that she lied to me about it but friendship works both ways since i really cared about her, I decided no guy was worth coming btwn our friendship. I didn't want a guy scummy enough to date my best friend behind my back, anyway. so i said she could have him. technically your friend is not doing anything wrong. she should have approached the situation with more tact by asking your permission first. and taking your feelings into concideration. but she didn't. so it is up to you to decide how much the friendship means to you. and how big of a person you can be. friendship works both ways. if you really care for her, you would want her to be happy-and try to implement a little underatanding. who are we to stand in the way of love? 010831 ... Tank i am with you florescent light... i am messing with my bestfriends ex right now. it happened by accident and the next day i went to her and told her and said that if she was uncomfortable with it, then it wouldn't happen again. she was cool, so cool it is... but the major factor in my situation, perhaps, is that she is now in love with someone else and doesn't hold any feelings for the ex mannie... i think trouble ignites when old feelings haven't died... 010831 ... TalviFatin Really, I'm sorry. If you seriously think that I'm "tossing" you aside...it's bull. If you really hate it, then I'll lose it. I never wanted to piss you off, and I didnt realize that this would be such a big problem. Look, I like him...but I love you...and if you would feel better, I'll break it. No, I would never drop a friend for a guy. So, he comes home tonight...and with your authorization..I'll dump him? And hey, I can be happy by myself. Infact, I was happy by myself the past few months...the only problem was trying to hide from them. I got tired. Also, I dont blame all my problems on my parents. They may be the majority, but I work, deal with too many people, and deal with upset friends. You're not a happy bucket of monkeys either. Ever since you left you've been bitchy. Sure, maybe I'm responsible for some of that...yes, I realize I broke a rule, but it's been broken infront of me too. But I didnt spaz because I didnt care for him. Could it be that you still harbour feelings? Whether they're hate or lust. Okay, I can pretty much say they're of the hatred category....but why let him ruin our friendship? If there's any friendship left anyway... You dont seem to enjoy talking to me...I'm always "depressed" as you say. Being associated with Sanders isnt all peachy-keenish. I'm not desperate...I'm backed up into a corner. And he HAS changed. You KNOW I wouldnt even glance in his general direction if he hadn't. But I suppose I cant argue with you...seeing as you dont believe anything I say...and you dont trust me and my decisions... So if we're both never going to have successful relationships...why let life pass you by? Why not seize the day and experince shit? I'm just trying to live my life to the fullest. It may not be filled with your ideals...But it's mine. Let me be the loser that I am...I'm a Taurus...you're a Leo..after all...you're always right... So no worries mate...for you...i'll become single (mostly) once again...hope you're satisfied. 010831 ... Joe P Scintillating :0) 040502 what's it to you? who go blather from