deep_water camille http://jewel.zoonation.com/audio/Jewel_-_Woodstock_99_02-_Deep_Water.mp3 000322 ... camille The distance within My heart feels the rumble of your earthquake My shoulder your tears the floor of my palm feels The ceiling of your hand Seasons come and seasons go Like the swaying of trees Moving yet remaining What grey moon came suddenly Drew blood with it’s sword Roses become suspended in air In search of firm soil.. your forehead I’ve taken my fingers and dug in your soil trying to imitate roots nothing happens.. searching for the chords which at one time, soothed your soul Oh naked stars like sugar granules in cup shivering hills grasp at trees to cover themselves At the first chapter in the novel of breath.. Blow in my face tell me I never was... I never stirred you like the cool breeze, through trees that I never made you weak in the knees That I never was much count all I ever was, was words and a pen’s surmount that my deepest thought never got any deeper than a wastebasket Tell me please that you were fooled by a dream that all I am is a passing breeze like falling star coming to the conclusion it can no longer stay suspended there and falls to god knows where Maybe where I reside there it sits beside in the shadows looking to shine bright days, months, years leap in hopes that the next second ends Gosh that I never was nor ever began I feel like a mannequin tell me what you want me to wear where do you want me to stand Your thoughts so simple no heart to recollect I can never replace what you lost once upon a time I couldn’t be so plastic so, self assured... Thoughts begin to drift...as I look out the window again As I sat in this passenger seat looking out my window, as cars and trucks zipped by Listening to the tunes of Jewel... I hum along... "hopes in the sky", "trying to find yourself"... Such lyrics fit so well.. Hummmm... "standing in Deep Water, and bailing yourself out with a straw" ...hhmmmmmm...and making love to a wall...mmmhmmmm I continue to drift in thought as I watch the clouds drift through my reflection in the glass staring back at me and wondering where I’d been... The traffic begins to slow, we begin to creep along as there must be an accident up ahead.. my heart sinks for a few moments... I see flashing red And yellow lights... I watch as the person in the next car stretches neck, eyes open wide At twisted metal ... what’s left of the car beside... I watch as we are at a crawl now..they have a woman on a stretcher, neck brace , Blood on her cheek... not moving Cars moving slowly... Music still playing... "There’s a warmth in my heart that haunts me when you’re gone..." Mmm Ironically following the scene with words... I watch as they pull the woman from the wreckage as if in slow motion She has long dark brown hair with blonde highlights... Breeze blows strand across her cheek... Could she have been a teacher, a lover of children..her soft countenance spoke novels Peace within, cares of this world now over... I realize spirits float in breeze Can be anywhere in a split second.... Can be past Can be present Can be future Can be me , can be you... I watch silently as I realize that That is me on the stretcher... That I am watching from another vehicle I look at the people who surround me in this vehicle with question Yet they don’t see me, they don’t hear me....they don’t realize that I am Simply a passing breeze, a passing vessel... Music continues to play as I hum my body to sleep... Lay in your bed at night and with hands placed on chest feel the beating of your heart And think of all the things that You were ever moved by A person, a movie, a flower, a child’s smile, laughter, tears, the ocean The desert, mountains, a baby’s cry, a blind man’s cane, an elderly woman Mowing lawn, your first kiss, your last, The feel of fire, the feel of a mist, a cloud A friend, the homeless, despair, loneliness, heartache, A touch, a presence, today, tomorrow, A future, a belief, awareness of self, belonging, separating, you, me, they Fireflies, stars shooting across the sky, ....thump...thump...thump... I drift off to sleep... Listen she says But there’s nothing... ....listening.... I hear the smile the voice says... "It hasn’t started yet"... Breathe in breathe out I just want you to be ready... When you open your eyes Hundreds of years will have passed And many more to begin ....do you hear it?.... she nudges me...eyes round wide eyed wonder... I hear her smile My eyes open Clenched teeth .....I hear it!.... I say nothing Breathe in breathe out.... ....I’m there.... ....sleep..... ....eternal sleep... Camille July 10, 1999 http://jewel.zoonation.com/audio/Jewel_-_Woodstock_99_02-_Deep_Water.mp3 000323 ... startfires i emoc morf eht retaw 001103 ... startfires ^ translation "i come from the water" 010301 ... Shugarhi Jewel is a wonderful poet and songwriter and her music makes me smile and laugh at once... 010521 ... god a natural extension of juice_newton. 011030 ... n o m e e deaf deep_water mirror 110122 ... unhinged mantra_of_the_year at the heart of it we always_settle 110122 what's it to you? who go blather from