why_can't_we_be_friends certainly not me. could it be because you are a bastard? yes, yes! that's it. ha! 011209 ... the bastard i wish we could be friends but i am too much of a fucker to ever treat you right 011209 ... war (the silly band) la la la la la la 011209 ... certainly not me yeah fucker, yeah yeah yeah you fucker you you fucker you fuck you fuck you fuck you ha ha ha ha ha 011209 ... whoknows yesh! fuck you!! 011209 ... silly sometimes i don't speak right 011209 ... Mahayana: Zakah: Sangha Jewels of Refuge ... [im not *that* psychic, but im fully aware of the possibility of slowly slip into the colors of loves falltimeish hues] why_can't_we_be_friends i keep asking myself everytime i think of you ... afterall if i truly loved you and/or am in love with U, wouldnt i want 2 give u what u desire & need the most ... & that is a *true* friend... at no cost... id give u whatever U need ... even if the price= relinquishment of fate 011219 ... she because i am the shy one in the corner, by myself. shyness is mistaken as snobishness and bitchyness. i am sorry 011219 ... ClairE I'd like to know what makes people friends that imperceptible shift into companionable silence and warm coffee and just as mysteriously back to sitting alone in the car at night. even the moon looks cold. 011220 ... Annie111 why can't we be friends? Because you make me untired. You make me forget my problems, and just string my smile up for the world. You punch a hole in my heart and make it feel good. You push on the engine like it's sex, and I want more. Because I want more than friends. 011220 ... pushpins heh. i don't know why i like that commercial so much. you know, the one with the cheerleader and gothic BoY? I think its for Kodak. heh. 011221 ... unhinged i think that if it's been jumbled up for a year and a half no matter how hard i once wished, tried, loved, there's no reason. it can be my fault. it usually is isn't it? it was my fault that i loved you. it was my fault that my heart bled. it was my fault i picked up the blade. you were my fault. and we just can't be friends...it was a short whirlwind that carried us away to here. it was my fault that i loved you. 011221 ... Mahayana: Zakah: Sangha Jewels of Refuge +youll always make me choose +ties 2 your past U resent +the way I 'let' others walk all over me & how it angers & frustrates you +im a scorpio & you think were all horrible, manipulative, head fucks +i hate feeling like a failure through your angry words voiced at me +how it enrages u that i can not be a 'mean ball buster' to those that have fucked with my heart +how U want me, your friend, to be a 'strong' person +your quick temper & rage at me +lack of understanding from my perspective +insensitivity to my forgiving nature +i can not be what you want me to become ... a fuck the whole world... kind of person +you can not recognize my strengths 'as i am' +cuz im in love with you and everything that you spit at me, hurts x's 2 [friend=1, i love you=1] [[everythings been building & falling apart, subsiting towards an aftermath sense, of lost poeticness]] [[[despite all this, I just want you to accept and love me, for who i am]]] 011227 ... Aimee because I would rather be anally raped by a rabid monkey while being vaginally raped by a cactus... that is why we can't be friends you evil little twat waffle! 011227 ... Mahayana: Zakah: cuz i t ' s me 011228 ... Arwyn because you ripped my heart to pieces, I gave it to you in hopes that you would be careful and gentle to it, but then you shattered it gleefully 020227 ... Mateo becauce I dont like you much. 020227 ... hey now! i dont like you either 020227 ... indie.chickadee like the Kodak commercial (or some kind of camera) 020509 ... cake because friend_is_a_four_letter_word 020509 ... Kate Perhaps my maladroit behaviour leaves a gritty taste in your mouth or the way I subtly tilt my head when I talk annoys you. Perhaps your presence intimidates me and leads me to look away, not wanting to meet your gaze which is not there. Or maybe you're just a bongo playing bastard who Elaine says never bathes. Five hundred pounds of Weezer. And half of you is and half of you is not 020509 ... Arwyn because if we tried, it just wouldn't work... 020509 ... blue star We were friends for such a long time. Through such a hard time. We held it down. And now... Well, you hurt me terribly. Wretchedly. And I was so angry that someone I loved that much could hurt me that badly. So I told you to never come near me again. That I never wanted to speak to you. Well... here's the thing. I meant it at the time; I couldn't possibly have dealt with you until I had dealt with myself. And now I regret it so deeply. I wish that I had handled it better. I just reacted, gut feeling, you know? I couldn't think straight, that's how deeply I was hurt. And now it's like we're strangers. And in a sense, we are. it's been almost 2 years since we actually talked, and I feel like I don't even really know you. I knew you 2 years ago. But now we're both different people. I remember when you got better grades in English than me. And I remember when you told me that you'd marry rich so you could stay home and be beautiful. LoL... I really did love you then. I still love you. I would never wish ill upon you. I know it's probably too late to fix things, and that if I tried to tell you all this you'd probably just get pissed off and wonder who I thought I was... And that's ok... cuz I'd be the same way. Basically, I was the stupid one. I forgot about what was important. I let my hurt and my anger get in the way of our friendship. I was wrong, and I'm so sorry. 020509 ... asdf because i'll never know you 67234908432 040518 ... magdalena B/c He can't control his BRAINS! Stupid, Blind Asshole... 040518 ... sab because you're too jagged to hold close anymore 040519 ... uyanga You had your chance and threw it away. Then someone better came along. 040519 what's it to you? who go blather from