last_night_i_heard_your_voice unhinged or maybe it's already been weeks and the subtle shaking of molecules made by the soundwaves of your_voice over the speaker phone shook me i wasn't ready to hear you again i've been shaking ever since i_will_remember i do remember when you were the only thing that could stop me from shaking and now there is nothing that makes me shake more knowing how much i still love you and the horrible misunderstanding of our congruent neediness the angles equal one fitting inside the other so that there was so much space too much space left over that the other didn't cover if_i_asked_you_to_stay you'd just run away cut_and_run and i've been shaking ever since the day you hung up and went away i need a healthy replacement it's been way too long for me to still feel this way i stopped calling to forget your_voice now that it's re-echoing in my head i have nowhere to hide broken_hearted i can't let_go and i was so damn close 041106 ... ben is jamin now!!! though this laps of time has been swift the years have passes ever to quick and now we have aged away from eachother once we were young, with thoughts pure but we have seemed to drift away from what we thought we felt for one another please dont forget my smile for it is birthed from yours dont see me as a brother but as a lover these feelings for you are real but you cant win the case without a trial so my time shall be spent with no other if its right and fate is true there is no doubt in my mind that destiny will pull through but until then ill be standing in the distance watching and until the end ill be thinking of you 041106 ... magicforest telling me of your sexual deviance and missed the way you trusted me 041106 ... melodramatic calling my name softly as my dream slipped into the hum of early morning news 041106 ... Jeremy you can hear it again. call: 412-951-9060 041107 ... djstar i totally just left a drunken voicemail on whoever's phone number that was, lol 041107 ... somebody else than you and i know i'm in trouble when all my thoughts sound like you 041107 ... . god I know 041107 ... soulsearcher seven_hours_of_your_voice 041107 ... metamantrg voices i hear voices 041107 ... cactus patty it was in my dream, a lovely dream of skin toughing skin, your breath on my neck, and legs entangled. it wasn't so long ago that it wasn't just a dream, it was reality that we shared those things. just like I remember how blue your eyes can be when you are happy. 041108 ... ambermoon sitting alone in the silvery moon light feeling the wind wisper to me telling me the secrets that it can no longer hold. gazing thruogh the winter trees there naked branches dancing against a back drop of dimond stars lighting up the night in shades of darkness. i hear you call to me in the waves that brake againt the shore pounding like angery fists despretly trying to move closer to your essence your power like a bolt of silver lighting i feel you move through me making every hair on my body stand on end all my sences peek and i can hear your voice telling me the path i must fallow. 041109 ... djstar i heard your voice on Thanksgiving. it was soothing, as usual, even though i could tell you were in a rush to get off the phone. such positivity stemming from such a worried voice.. i remember the face you used to give me when i would come home from work.. that fearful look like i was going to break your heart again. i know how you feel and i'm sorry because i find myself making that same face with her. 041130 ... unhinged 412 is a pittsburgh area code don't ask me how i know that 041211 ... unhinged just last night i had a dream of your_voice now so many years later it didn't sound much like your_voice from what i could remember in the years since i heard it last but it was a dream of a telephone conversation all i remember you saying 'this is sam...' on a voicemail you left me sad dejected needy and all i could think of when i woke up 1) why am i dreaming about him now? 2) i remember the day he said he believed that people are connected to each other through dreams. kind of like if you dream of them their heart is reaching out for you connected as much of an asshole as you were you, only you so far, understood and appreciated the extent of my love sincerely and for a time tried to love me back the best you knew how i send you well wishes today dear chances are you are not okay 070816 ... unhinged (and also serendipitiously weird that this page would come up on three_words on my first perusal of the day) 070816 ... . it is true about dreams, i dream of certain people in my past, and in my fantasies, it is somthikng quite special. 070816 ... unhinged . (for awhile, we were a light for each_other and the people around us. then again, i realize after rereading this where some of my bullshit in relationships with men comes from) 110403 what's it to you? who go blather from