giving_up Rhin I feel so empty. I think my soul has committed suicide? I can't find her...and I don't know where to look. Well damnit, she can only take so much. I was on the floor, on hands and knees, earlier, in the wee hours of the morning. ...just facing the hatbox......and crying so violently, that I gave myself an ultimate headache. Why is it that when I become really upset, that there is no one around to help me? So, why fucking cry for help, right! No one is out there anyway. No one is ever out there. Fuck! 010105 ... cinnamon girl I'll say, lately I just can't seem to be myself.. and myfriends only hate me for that, the don't seem to understand.. they just want someone "fun" and I can't be "fun" when I feel tired inside 010903 ... kingsuperspecial I will not give up on you unless you make me then gone in your mind, I continue only in mine and that death stay inside I will not give up on me though nobody can help the cancer of ugly inside, the dark is all mine and I will use it be unique 011014 ... yummychuckle why bother? it takes too much effort to just give up. 011103 ... nah....! funny how things turn. 011108 ... Sonya I came close...you were there. I don't know why but you were there when others weren't. Things are different now, but I won't forget that. For all the bad things that happen between 2 people, there are usually twice as many good things. Giving up is out of the question. I shall continue trying until I burn out and die against my will. I've got something to prove now and maybe that's all I needed. 011108 ... whoknows giving up on you. but not on me. im more important than you. 011109 ... ilovepatsajak it's not going to stop 'til you wise up no it's not going to stop so just give up that song was so loud in my head while i was sleeping and then my aunt called and woke me up to tell me that art was cancelled. 011109 ... unhinged there are certain things in my life that i have wanted more than anything since i was a small child and one by one i abandon all of them i've heard your litany one thousand times i'm a great person smart intelligent sometimes even beautiful but what's so great about me if i don't have anyone to hang out with on a friday night? what's so great about me that i am threatening and pissed and crazy? what's so great about me if i'm not even worth your stupid fucking phone call? right there's only one thing left 020201 ... SunShamer I ask myself the same things. 020201 ... silent storm I refuse to give up. But sometimes it takes so much energy to keep holding on. I'm so tired. Maybe that's why I feel like crying. 020201 ... girl_jane This is too hard! I give up! *thows a fit like a three-year-old* 020220 ... Casey I always wanted to be cool and liked by people, to be invited places and welcome. But I think that dream has died. 020220 ... MollyCule simple slip of the knife and i'll be dead tonight 020220 ... Mahayana and she sang to herself have you ever found a reason for you Holly tree dying? I have a holly tree that's about 7.5 feet tall & noticed some strange cut outs on it's truck. They are a series of four square holes in the bark that go down to the truck of the tree. give me up as well, for you are more important [and worth saving] give up on me [the roots have been torn] 030814 ... ashmanzhou thou wilt come to a time upon a life of forgotton dreaming wondering finding failures looming time to give up and fade away look to thy hopes and fall weeping wailing and then giving up again you fail and fall upon thyself 030815 ... Freak Don't tell me that I gave up to easily. You invite me to the practice but when I come to the show just to see you but you avoid me and walk in front of me with your arm around her waist. Don't tell me that I gave up to easily. I watch you kiss her good bye then as soon as she leaves you call me over. Don't tell me that I gave up to easily. I listen as you say your in it for the sex and the sex isn't even good. Don't tell me that I gave up to easily. You take me to the fair then are back fucking her again days later. Don't tell me that I gave up to easily. you talk to me one day then avoid me and try to run the next as I followed you around like a GOD DAMNED FOOL Don't tell me that I gave up to easily. You move across the state and I still gave myself to you. I gave something that I can never share with anyone else. I gave you something that you gave to that slutty bitch thats fucked up in the head. Don't tell me that I gave up to easily. Everywhere i go she is there ruining my life. I see her in everyone. I hate you because of it. Don't tell me that I gave up to easily. Don't tell me that I gave up to easily then turn around and agree with me when I say I should've gave up sooner. 031013 ... Dafremen NEVER. see also: elevenation 031013 ... stork daddy surrendering isn't the only way to lose 031013 ... . . 031015 ... misstree "give out, but don't give up..." sometimes setting hope aside and diving to the dark bottom of a very deep lake, then shoving back up is the only way to regain your strength. and sometimes when you come out of the lake, you find that someone has stolen your clothes and left your hope. now, if it becomes a techno ravetastic lakeshower with flashing lights and music and pretty half-nekkid people, you're doing alright. 031015 ... Cookie monster me like 031015 ... Death of a Rose strange stained filled words 031021 ... Syrope messing up more and more frequently you'd think i'd learn that i'd give up instead i convince myself that it's just something i have to work off and the pain keeps coming 041026 ... . . 041110 ... BitterSweetDream I can't take this. Giving up and getting out. 041124 ... l*oeil led to believe led to want left to question left to wonder while the worthy were given the privilege of knowing ( I think i've reached that point Where giving up and going on are both the same... ) 041124 ... Staind_And_Souless On me 041124 what's it to you? who go blather from