when_you_feel_like_you_cant_take_it_any_more angie i want you to fucking dissappear you have no place in this house god i wish there was some way to just kill you without being charged for it my head hurts just thinking about it i cant stop crying why does it have to be like this??? why cant i deal with this???? i dont know whats gonna happen... but i cant take it anymore... 030623 ... x curl_up_and_die 030623 ... silent storm i wish i could 030623 ... *silent screams When you feel like you can't take it anymore and your head is about to explode from some unknown force and your insides begin to crumble and you can't take the screaming in your head, the screaming from your soul. Everything inside gets shaken so violently the littlest comment can take you over the edge and back. Your pissed off at the world and nothing can change how you feel, nothing can stop the rage screaming from the inside. Its not the feeling you feel when you wanna die, itz the feeling of rage that makes you want to kill...killing everything that moves...letting every single thing eat you alive. Its the feeling you get when your mad at everyone and everything...yet have no rational reason to be... You don't know why you feel that way and all you know is you can take it anymore...you don't know what causes it and you don't know how to prevent it...it comes and goes as it pleases without a reason why... Anyone know what I'm talking about...or am I really losing it? 030822 ... shoccolo you're not losing it. it's ok to hate the world sometimes, because sometimes, it's the worst thing alive. 030822 ... camille http://funwavs.com/wavfile.php?quote=2903&sound=234 030823 ... Haunting me *Silient Screams, Why do you have a reason to be angry? Are you the one that went through the pain? You can't even imagine what you've done to me yet you can say that your angry? Maybe your just confused and alone...Thats how it will be if things don't change 031121 ... fetal musings please, i love you all. call your friends tonight. tell them. 031121 ... *silent screams Misunderstandings lead to other things. What was written had nothing to do with u...if ur the u who i think u are... Please don't think that everything I write relates to u or that that^ had something to do with u... Too many misunderstandings 031130 ... Wont take it anymore Well maybe if you had enough time to deal with this relationship you would see thats its not my fault for mis-conceptions, if you took the time to put in this relationship what I had and I did this to you you'd feel the same way. Let me get to know you, open up and stop being so damn stubborn. Not everyone is out to get you I think I've proved that. You more than put me through hell, I deserve a little something in return, don't you think? I didn't go out and fuck one of your friends, I didn't hold things back when they needed to be talked about, I didn't put you on my "to do" list, no matter what I've always had time to hear what you had to say, but it doesn't go both ways. Go ahead tell yourself its your life and I have no say in it, but when this comes and bites you on the ass I don't want to hear it because in everything you do in your life your leaving ours out of it. You have no respect for what I've done for you, you defend yourself against things you know you've done wrong and can't admitt, your a bitch to me when I'm only trying to be nice and turn you in the right direction. Does this mean you have to? No it doesn't but instead of getting bitchy you could show a little consideration for me. You know everything I've done for you I shouldn't even have to go through this with you. I've hurt enough don't you think?....Things don't change I won't be here to hold you up, I won't lie I'm on the brink of telling you to shove this relationship up your ass, because no matter what you say you don't really care. All or nothing is what you told me almost a year ago....when are you going to live up to that? 031203 ... Piso Mojado sleep, have uneasy dreams, awaken with diappointment and dismay the bad taste in your mouth- brush your teeth to no avail, and realize the day isnt over yet, your life isnt over yet, it all hasnt passed yet, but get dressed and walk outside to heavy air and brutal sunlight. time moves slowly, and that_which_does_not_kill_us maims again and again 040724 ... Deomis don't give up yet... 040724 ... danio i'm tired and sort of bored you have to wait so long for some things to materalize i just can't wait one of my neighbors was just taken away by an ambulance. she was depressed and she took a bottle of advil 040725 ... Borealis curl up in the corner and cry.. unless there are no tears.. then you just curl up in the corner and hope there isn't anything nearby you can hurt yourself with.. 040725 ... love & hate i close me eyes... and fly to that place deep inside myself that protects me...that place which is my sanctuary...the place where you are in my arms and there are no more tears...no more pain...no more aching...and no more blood to be spilt. I close my eyes and see you and me, together, how we are meant to be...and whatever was so bad...doesnt seem as bad anymore with you in my arms...even if its just inside me and not real...in my heart it is...because that is where you exist...deep in my heart for eternity. 040918 ... god that's when the real fucked up shit begins 040918 ... love & hate i simply close my eyes and wish it all away. wishing it closer to me but yet so far away. i dont understand, i really have no idea at all. Its just katie i think of when i feel i can't take anymore. It is more painful when its the feelings for her which make me feel that way... 040919 ... rage falling, about to fall, fallen breaking, about to break, broken when the energy is too much because it feels like you've been up for weeks. or maybe you have? theres a fine line between dreams, reality, illusions and nightmares. ur on the edge of yourself and you just want to scream and sob, tell the world to GO FUCK YOURSELF collapse and pass out, its 2 fucken much 041110 ... acidshank when you feel you cant take it any more you just have to keep on. keep on. until you orgasm. haha. only joking. when i cant take it anymore, i squeeze the sides of my head back together, or clip the back of my head. clip. im saved 041125 ... In_Bloom Today I cut another tie It's only me that hurts though 090514 ... hsg y4 cut? 090514 ... In_Bloom It was heavy and biting into me Too heavy 090523 what's it to you? who go blather from