alteregos User24 I have many alteregos, but to name them would create a link between them and myself. 020410 ... jane doe i have alteregos too. there are some good, some evil. blather is a place to realize those parts of ourself, and to make peace with their conflict. 040204 ... Jane Doe that wasn't me. thanks, stranger. 040204 ... janet dough sorry i really didn't mean to take your name. damn me for thinking i was original..... 040204 ... Nirvanic Blind I costumized my cell phone to read Nirvanic whenever I look at it. It's not until I recieved a phone call and looked at it that I realized how weird that was. Nirvanic Blind is a completely different person and I'm not known anywhere else by that name. I hope no one else sees it, I don't feel like explaing it. Actually, I'm not even sure if I'd know how to explain it without sounding like a weirdo. 040204 ... jennykore we are like the faces of eternal_champion and gak and agak; we are more than i, and we shift dangerously; we are each some facet, but in each do we find strains of the same soul. 040205 ... Alfred I've been enjoying my hiatus away from blather. I think I've finally worked out those trust issues with my ex. He stood like a saint in the chapel. His eyes filled with a sacred glow. Okay so maybe I did catch him again in the throes of an amorous indelicasy, but hey shut up some of us prefer illusion to despair so... He gave me 'a thumbs up' and met my eye glistening with the sheen of hurt and rage. I think it was the intent behind the gesture that really wounded me and not so much the ecstatic expression on the face of the phillipino house boy he happened to be impaling. (sigh) I spun quickly on my lacquered heel and stalked out. When I saw him the next day sans the vaguely asian houseboy I whispered "I dreamt about killing you last night Love." To wich he answered with exasperating aplomb, "Well, don't keep me waiting. How did it end? Did you...complete?" There was a luridly sadistic gleam in his eye. Clearly, he wanted to see the venom gush from the gouge he'd just made. But I refused him and instead said "How many times have we brutalized one another Eane, this endless joust of infidelity and insouciance and remorse and redemption. The prodigal vanities of your insufferable almost sociopathic selfishness! I can't..I won't do this anymore Eane. Last night was truly illuminating. I think we are finally done.. these two poles jousting for dominance. Go on! Fly and be free and stay the hell away from Me!" And that's how it finally ended. And now it's just me and my bottle of Khalua and the terror of an empty loft my hole heart disgorged before the unblinking eyes of my now it occurs to me a really disconcertingly eerie and morbid taxidermy collection of small primates. 040206 ... Jane Doe it's quite alright Janet. what is your new blather name, then? 040208 ... oldephebe do you think this is some sort of hallucinatory homunclulus of your hearts hidden horror or delight sat for so long under the seismic pressure of that vast cavern of being..subconscious..am i just air that breathes that assaults loves last bastion...i am cauldron smelt flesh full of wisdom...the only priceless thing that i've ever attained is my hearts knowledge of you....i am real..i am real..the sweat on my body, on these sheets is real..damp.. yeah and yet i'll probably continue to unconsciously push people away from me because they are not HER.. ... 040331 ... misstree i wish i had a spare head to retreat into one that had easier access than my current selection, anyhow. 040331 ... oldephebe My mouth is a red bloom of adulterous fire. I smell the warm red blood. I rise and grow faint amidst the inscense. O writhing python towards the hot honey pot. Take me to your Temple_In_The_Moonlight again and again. ... 040406 ... Zsiga i'm not telling. 040406 ... time_warp you don't have to. 040407 ... marked . 040429 ... god fuck em if they don't wanna help me anymore 041003 ... epitome of incomprehensibility I can't be epitome of incomprehensibility on "Channel Awesome" because the name's too long. I wanted to comment on a video series in which someone impersonates H. P. Lovecraft and is funny ("I never want to let prejudice cloud my stories" -paraphrased, on the issue of gerbils vs rats) but I'm afraid it'll have to wait until I find a new name. Plurabelle of Green Gables? Cthulhu of Green Gables? but then I'd be Cthulhu of Green Gables everywhere there. This is a very very very infinitesimal dilemma but I've had a tiring day. 150225 ... e_o_i Now I am epitome of incomprehensibility on We Hunted the Mammoth too. It's a good blog, and the commenters have an interesting culture (somewhat in-jokey but unusually articulate and friendly) but even so I spend too much time on things like that, and I'm not good at allotting time to begin with. Does my alter-ego get to be organized? In real life I have to write an index, and now I'm at the index of places, so I have to go back to Zurich now. Zurich with an umlaut. (I was there once, but just in the airport.) 150608 what's it to you? who go blather from