just_friends
ClairE I feel like a tree who's been struck by an axe in the side.

I haven't even been allotted the breath to gasp.
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phil are me and the bar tender, just friends? 020116
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pralines&cream According to When Harry Met Sally, there is always some sort of sexual tension between girl and guy "friends," that no matter what, the guy is always willing to, or is thinking about, having sex with his female friend.

Guys, is this true?
Fella, I would especially like to know what you have to say, since you have such a close female friend, as well as a girlfriend.
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unhinged we sleep together in the same bed all the time. all we ever used to do was sleep. used to anyways.

"i don't want to gross you out but the other night i really wanted to have sex with you."

i don't know, but i don't think i can do that with my just_friends
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fella i dunno, i always quote chris rock and say "there's no such thing as plutonic friendships for a guy, just girls we haven't fucked yet."

by i always follow that up by saying that i'm not like most guys (which i feel is true). nobody can generalize and say that ALL plutonic friendships have sexual tension. i know that much isn't true. there is no sexual tension between me and kara, but maybe that is because we were boyfriend/girlfriend a few years ago, and we found that we don't get along very well in that way.

...maybe i'm the only exception on the planet, maybe there's more guys that feel the same way, or maybe i'm just full of shit.
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Mahayana when your {in love}
& the one yOu adore
says this phrase 2 yOu
so insensitivly
dripping gasoline.abated fuel source
over & over & over again
like some chinese water torture device
over & over & over again
dripping gasoline.abated fuel source
this phrase:[[[just friends]]]
can feel like:

:nightmares [on] wax:
:waX in hair
:nightmares [in] wax:

drip/drip/dripping
:keys locked away in wax:
[{will u ever enkindle me}]
[{& find 'your' key}]
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silentbob die! die! die! 020129
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just an observation friend_is_a_four_letter_word sometimes,

(when you hear it from someone you are in_love with)
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Casey I think that is the way it should be with her and I. She and I are just to different and we haven't known each other that long. 020129
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good people fuck that, i wanna have sex 020130
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misaligned why does the word crush sound so painful 020130
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little fury bug
it's funny how this came up when i clicked on "go". how perfect for my situation. that's how he'll always see me. and that's how she'll always see him. its a love triangle, kids. a tri-fucking-angle.
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silent storm i could never be just friends with her.
she is everything to me.
everything
020702
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di luce I feel like crying. 030203
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Isaou "It's not like that
We're just friends
Like brother and sister"

Why did you tell me that?
It seemed urgent to you that I knew that's all there is between you and her.
Why do you care what I think?
That's two odd mistakes from you today
[ mistake ]

Strange boy.
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unhinged john_and_i
joseph_and_i
to_paul
anthony
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Doar her home I remember,
open and hand made, the kitchen to the south, the chair I sat in was in the northeast corner. She sat before me, and I believe she had my right hand, asking me something that is beyond me.

Her brother played ball with me, amazed at the plays I made.


why is this my oblivion?
why are there only keystrokes fomr her heart to mine?

the secret passage i know was there.
the lights she drew from me,
and all my yearning,
she left in her amazing red dress,
in that pool hall,
in that moment,
that clutching moment.

This is what I can't get over.
that moment when she realized the closeness was to be left.

.
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auburn . 071021
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jane don't fall in the friend_zone 071022
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unhinged i always fall in the friend zone 071022
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flowerbed on a cloud what else? 080423
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when darkness falls not_even_just_friends 080423
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no reason i guess the fact that you are already able to be just_friends with me indicates that you don't like me as much as i like you
or maybe you're just better at handling things
080626
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no reason either way i'm a little bit jealous
and a little bit not
080626
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unhinged is easier when you don't have a girlfriend
that i didn't want to meet
that i didn't want to know
especially when
there is a striking resemblance
and right_now
more than anything
i needed to tell you
just how
i need you



but
we're_just_friends
i'm like a sister to you
you don't date co_workers
080626
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unhinged you don't even hug me anymore 110126
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workinprogress. just hanging in this suspended state of affairs is incredibly unsatisfying

would like to see some progress
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sunset_blue tongue_tied


knotted_belly



there was so much more i wanted to say to you.
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unhinged (after years of living in this emotional zone with person after person, i adamantly said no when he tried to sugar_coat his abandonment with the offer of friendship.

i tried to explain to him that it was a pattern in my life i wanted to end. that i wasn't interested in watching him (just another link in this chain) find someone to love.

'why does it have to be a competition?'

competition is not the word i would use for it. there was no winner in the end of our relationship.


i might still be a child
i might still be naieve
i might still be alone


but i think i am tired of expecting different results from the same scenario)
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unhinged i dont want to be the crutch holding you up when you dont have anything better 150331
what's it to you?
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