to_paul unhinged you are my rock. sounds cheesy, but if there is one person in this city who hasn't disappointed me, it would be you. my brother away from my brother, honest, intent, open, listening; my rock. my brother taught me a couple things when he moved half way across the world. you can have a family anywhere you find yourself. i am glad you are part of the family i got to choose. so glad that these words seem inappropriate. i'm sorry i wasn't sober enough to say no. but we survived it. fundamentally still the same, but strange waves between us now. i wanted to move my head the mere inches to put my lips to yours. i watched you stand behind the mixer and imagined the way your bones moved under your skin, the way you chuckled in my ear. there is something else in your eyes when you look at me; i know there is something else in my eyes when i look at you. i wanted to hold your face in my hand. you are my rock leo_protectors i love you 070806 ... unhinged i've been thinking about calling you but my sadness stops me i wanted to hang with you tonight but i slept instead that insidious tired feeling invading my life again i wanted arms around me your arms around me so i slept instead 070907 ... love comma thanks for the letter the corinthians 070908 ... unhinged i didn't really get to show you accurately how much i love you but i'm glad i said it i'm glad i told you 070908 ... unhinged i want to grab you close and hold on even after you let go whispered_in_the_ear 070909 ... unhinged sometimes when i'm sad, the thought of you is all it takes 071115 ... unhinged i_know you're an adult now we have divergent lives i_know but it doesn't make me miss you any less not your fault either not anyone's fault diverging veering in opposite directions i was spoiled used to being with you much more often i take a look everytime i go past your place miss_you_more_love_you_most 080113 ... unhinged still my favorite you wrapped your arms around whispered_in_the_ear you're strong only because i have you 080611 ... u24 fix? 080611 ... u24 fix? 080613 ... unhinged i wish i believed in me as much as you believe in me you have always been one of the few boys i've trusted implicitly and right now i can't even say what that means but once again you prove to me that: you are a special human being and i love you 080613 ... unhinged i have a crush on you again. your trusty dependable nature is very attractive to me right now. and hey, where you making eyes at me or where you just stoned? oh bah 080914 ... unhinged i still look even though you don't live there anymore. i'm used to the 40 minute busride now. 080915 what's it to you? who go blather from