beautiful_song_lyrics peyton you're everywhere to me, and when I close my eyes, it's you I see it must be your skin, I'm sinking in no pain, no hurt, we'll go dreaming the water's getting deep, I try to wash the pain away from me I wash my skin with all the hate so close to me, so close to hate I don't know who you are, but you seem very nice, so will you talk to me is anybody there, does anybody care I see the bedroom door, I hear her call out to me, I hear the fear in her voice, she pulls her covers tighter, I press against the door I am not concerned with the status of my emotions she shouldn't need protection wrap her up in a package of lies, send her off to a coconut island we're always changing people don't change it's all or nothing I am not overly concerned I don't need a girl, don't need a friend, cause my friend lonesome is unconditional these seconds when I'm shaking leave me shuddering for days, she says I'm not gonna bend, and I'm not gonna break rape me, my friend seems like I should say, as long as this is love, but it's not all that easy your stories ring of perjury, construed with self-empowering things I think you like to be the victim, I think you love to be the clown I can't be held responsible, and she was touching her face, and I won't be responsible, she fell in love in the first place and every word is nonsense, but I understand it all and Anna begins to fade away the contrast of white on white doesn't mean she's holy, it just means she's got a cellular handy the hand you hold is the hand that holds you down take my future, past, that's fine but now is mine tonight I feel ambitious, and so does my foot, as it sinks on the pedal I walked around my good intentions, and found that there were none and when the sun descended and the night arose, I heard my father cursing everyone he knows, and he was dangerous and drunk and defeated and corroded by failure and envy and hate.. and there were endless winters and the dreams would freeze, nowhere to hide and no leaves on the trees, and my fathers eyes were blank as he hit me again and again and again.. I know I still believe he'd never let me leave, I had to run away alone, so many tasted fears, so many wasted years, until my life became my own.. and though the nightmare should be over, some of the terrors are still intact.. I'll hear that ugly coarse and iron voice, and then he'll grab me from behind and then he pulls me back there was a beauty living on the edge of town, who always put the top up and the hammer down, and she taught me everything I'll ever know about the mystery and the muscle of love.. the stars would glimmer and the moon would glow, I'm in the backseat with my Julie like a Romeo.. those were the rites of spring and we did everything, there was salvation every night, we got our dreams reborn and our upholstry torn, but everything we tried was right.. she used my body just like a bandage, she used her body just like a wound, I know I'll never know where she disappeared but I can see her rising up out of the backseat now just like an angel rising up from a tomb I need a phone call, I need a plane ride.. I need a raincoat it's raining here in Baltimore, fifteen miles east, where you should be, no one's around I believe these trained conversatations are passing me by, and I don't have nothin to say I had no intention of living this way I belong in the service of the queen I don't want to come back down from this cloud and I walk my machine I get no answers, I don't get no change, it's raining in Baltimore, but everything else is the same the night is as empty for me, as for you you're three thousand four hundred miles away, but what would you change if you could maybe I should buy a new car in the garage, where I feel safe, no one cares about my waste I don't want equal rights, I want everything for free I always know just where she sat, and when she's on me I get flat she went to the back to get high, and I sat down on the couch and cried, oh my Lord, please help me she sits alone by a lamppost, trying to find a thought that's escaped her mind she never lets me in, only tells me where she's been, when she's had too much to drink I say I don't care, I just run my hands through her dark hair ya know she dances while his father plays guitar, she's suddenly beautiful, and we all want something beautiful, man I wish I was beautiful I'm a stranger in this town I long to see the sun, despite of what it's done, I pray for shade and rain, I pray to live again Mr Jones and me, tell each other fairy tales I pick up my smile, put it in my pocket, try not to have to drop it, men are not to cry, so how am I to stop it, keep it all inside, don't show how much she rocked ya ooh it looks like rain again, I feel it coming in, and the mountains win again I can't understand the ease she pulled away her hand I guess from now on, I'll be careful what I share at least they still have a certain table, where I once carved a particular name, I run my fingers over the weathered carving, and I almost can feel the same and her lips always tasted of cinnamon, and her skin smelled of cider and rose and when she looked at me we both got quiet, we were in so close once upon a beautiful while, that still makes me smile I'm not in love, so don't forget it both of us never tiring, desperately wanting for you I'd bleed myself dry the smell of cheap wine, cigarettes, this place was always such a mess, sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn they said she died easy of a broken heart disease it always seemed such a waste, she always had a pretty face, I wonder why she hung around this place come on try a little, nothing is forever rivers on fire, and no one can save me but you, strange what desire makes foolish people do what a wicked game you play, to make me feel this way, what a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you I won't go, I won't sleep, I can't breathe, until you're resting here with me oh, think twice, it's just another day for you and me in paradise it's just me and a gun, and a man on my back you are pulled from the wreckage, of your silent reverie you come out tonight, that's when the energy comes I do believe I've failed you what a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel, I'm cold and I'm ashamed lying naked on the floor he showed me what it was to cry you don't seem to know, seem to care, what your heart is for.. I don't know him anymore that's what's going on and I walk this earth alone, it's all I've ever known you were meant for me, and I was meant for you I.. I don't want to say.. I don't want to find another way, to make it through the day without you lost in a snow filled sky, we'll make it alright all I've ever wanted was some happiness, and to take it to a level that was above the rest I wasn't sure, but I know now that I believe, that it must be, that love don't love me the smile on your face, let's me know that you need me, there's a truth in your eyes, saying you'll never leave me fear of committment is a habit hard to break, I must say all that I needed I could never find I could not kiss, just regress I'm never alone, I'm alone all the time 020502 ... silentbob i'd like to fall asleep to the beat of you breathing in a room near a truckstop on a highway somewhere 020502 ... lulie Midnight, on the water, I saw, the ocean's daughter, Walking on a wave's chicane, Staring as she called my name. 020503 ... Joana. Scatter the roots of our passage tonight Discard the memories we chose to survive All of our sense overshadowed by a song Pining for strength And deprive from the strong When she was five years old There was cake and brightlights And when she was ten She became the maid's bride With temperance and beauty And salvation unknown A life isolated, heinous and young Stand up and face it Although you're half dead Try to remember Though they've taken your head Why we sleep fully dressed And rise only from bed Who did this to us? Who did this to us? So partial to memory The pearls of our dead But where do we keep them? Put them here by the steps, While I climb to the top And I find where I am. - The For Carnation [It sounds even more beautiful with the climactic atmosphere of the beat, the guitars and the tear-shedding cello] 020503 ... bethany i keep thinking tomorrow is coming today so i am endlessly waiting i woke up in mid afternoon coz that's when it all hurst the most i dream i never know anyone at the party but i'm always the host if dreams are like movies then memories ar efilms about ghosts and you can never escape you cn only moce further down the coast if you've never stared off into the distance then your life is a shame though i'll never forget your face sometimes i cant remember my name every man's concious is vile and depraved you cannot depend on it to be you guide but it's you who must keep it satisfied there are no mistakes in life some people say it's true sometimes you can see it that way people dont live or die people just float shes gone with the man in the long black coat dont want to be a actor pretending on the stage dont wanna be a writer with my thoughts out on the page dont wanna be a painter coz everyone comes to look dont wanna be anything where my like's an open book i dream it's true but i'd see it through if i could be wasting my time with you 020503 ... kill rhythm roll over, roll over, roll over, roll over and kiss me gently, kiss me gently kiss me gently. i hear the voices again tonight, i will sleep inside your mouth tonight. the sidewalks are watching me think about you, sparkled with broken glass. i'm back with scars to show, back with the streets i know will never take me anywhere but here.. i've got this store bought way of saying i'm ok, and you've learned how to cry in total silence... wait for the year to drown, spring forward, fall back down. i'm trying not to wonder where you are... Hold on to the corners of today, and we'll fold them up to save until its needed. stand still, let me scrub that brackish line that you got when something rose and then receded. hold on... and when we wrote this story, how did it end? it was you and me for all our lives. come on, dont say it, we'll try again. and if i'd just hold you, we could last. but she stands suffering, tears down her face, hitting me, oh god this is the end. i'd wait here for you, but there's nothing more now i can do. next time we touch we'll just shake hands. maybe an embrace, but only as friends. eyes shut tight, fingers forever crossed. and all i want to hear is your voice 020504 ... lulie Stay, lady, stay, stay with your man awhile Until the break of day, let me see you make him smile His clothes are dirty but his hands are clean And you're the best thing that he's ever seen. 020504 ... silentbob i poured my heart out it evaporated...see? standing on a canyon's edge of a panoramic scene or maybe i'm a kite thats flying high and random dangling a string or slumped over in a vacant room, head on a strangers knee i'm sure back home they think i've lost my mind here i stand sad and free i can't cry and i cant see what i've done oh GOD what have i done? 020506 ... peyton tomorrow I was nothing, yesterday I'll be, time has fooled me into thinking that it's a part of me touch the fingers of my hand, and tell me if its me a religion that appeals to me, oh can you turn me off, just a second please, turn me into something faceless, weightless, mindless, homeless, vacuum state of peace I will be with her tonight it's over now, I'm cold, alone, I'm just a person on my own, nothing means a thing to me, oh nothing means a thing to me we're so creative, so much more, we're high above, but on the floor the deeper you stick it in your vein, the deeper the thoughts theres no more pain you can't let go of pain, when pain is all you have to hold onto just a stranger on the bus I'm cold, alone broken doll baby and she says that life's a waste dad threw away her mom, her mom gave up his name, crucified by their words, nailed by shame the rhyme has changed, corruption rules, mary's little lambs are now raised by wolves you're in the arms of the angels persecuted she's not normal, I envy her strange ways, seven deadly sins seize the hours, seize the day her ideas need expression, her wounds never bleed, her beauty lives admired, too bad she can't see I've got to lose to make it right, we'll confront the stars tonight, I won't babble I won't bite expected to fly, but she's just standing still don't worry, pretty baby.. hey I think I love you, so what am I so afraid of, I'm afraid that I'm not sure of, a love there's no cure for satan, you know where I lie search for pleasures, overrated never were we told, that we'd be bought and sold I'm only happy when it rains, I'm only happy when it's complicated, and though I know you can't appreciate it, I'm only happy when it rains Why it feels so good to feel so sad pour your misery down on me don't believe in love, don't believe in hate, don't believe in anything, you can't taint you pretend you're high, pretend you're bored, pretend you're anything, just to be adored I will be the rain, falling on your fire escape I want a girl in a short skirt, and a long jacket Hey man of science with your perceptions of pleasure, can you improve this place with the data that you gather Hey sister bleeding heart with all of your compassions, your actions soothe the hurt, but can they sway temptation my talent feeds my darker sides, yet no one will complain I am just a worthless liar, I am just an imbecile. I will only complicate you, trust in me and fall as well. I will find a center in you, I will chew it up and leave. I will work to elevate you, just enough to bring you down. waiting like a stalking butler, who upon the finger rests fair coercion, leads to intrusion she will never scrub the stains from her palms they will serve as reminders of his hateful vice the inner vipers of her soul don't pull me down, this is where I belong mistakes are hard to undo I think I'm different, but I'm the same and I long my tortured beacon, we need to find like minded companions that you, wanted to do, away with yourself, I guess she thought I'd be a perfect resort we've had this inexplicable connection since our youth you and your chronic, their melodrama if we were our bodies, if we were our futures, if we were our offenses, I'd be joining you you and I, we're like five year olds, we want to know why and how come about everything and you, were mind-boggling, you were intense, you were uncomfortable in your own skin, you were thirsty, but mostly you were beautiful I knew a drugstore cowgirl, so afraid of getting bored.. she's always running from something, so many things ignored today seems like a good day, burn a bridge or two some people really suck guess I'm stuck in a dream, surrounded by colored leaves on the ground I'm going out for a while, so I can get high with my friends I'm going out for a while, don't wait up cause I won't be home, today I'm sorry I'm not home right now drifting down the road, losing myself in a dream do you have an opinion, a mind of your own, I thought you were special, I thought you should know I hope you die but I've run of patience, I couldn't care less 020507 ... pilgrim Well the snows fell Without a break Buffalo died In the frozen feilds you know The coldest Winter In over Fourteen Years I couldn't Believe You cared to smile Now I can Rest Assured Knowing that We've seen the Worst And You Know I love You 020508 ... BrotherDB Light the sky and hold on tight The world is burning down~Shawn Colvin 020508 ... lulie Can you play the mandolin, Pilgrim? 020508 ... pilgrim No Lulie, But I have been Known to dabble with Bottleneck Slide. I own several Acoustic guitars, but my life has gotten so busy I hardly have a chance to play anymore. My ability is no doubt becoming as rusty as their strings. Neither am I a huge Rod Stewart fan, But the Song Mandolin Wind Brings tears to my eyes, no shit. My late wife liked Rod Stewart a lot, along with every other kind of music under the sun, I believe the song triggers memories and hence the waters flow. 020509 ... lulie It's been a long time since I've read anything this sad. 020509 ... pilgrim Not sad really, just life. I'm remarried to a wonderful woman, who makes me happy in ways I'd never dreamed about. And as far as Mandolin Wind, I play it and explore the old feelings. There is comfort in that, It's all O.K. in the end. Someone once said Life is just one Damned thing after another, and so it goes. Like jerry garcia sang, What a long strange trip it's been. 020509 ... jim_starks I wear black on the outside because black is how i feel on the inside I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour but heavens knows i'm miserable now God how i love the Smiths 020510 ... angie they were digging a new foundation in manhattan, and they discovered a slave cemetary there. may their souls rest easy now that lynching is frowned upon, we've moved on to the electric chair. and i wonder, whose gonna be president tweedle dumb or tweedle dumber and whose gonna have the next big blockbuster box office this summer how bout we build a wall between the houses and the high way so that you can go your way and i can go my way except all the radios agree with all the tvs and the magazines agree with all the radios and i keep hearing that same damn song everywhere i go! maybe i should wear a bucket over my head, and a marshmallow in each ear, and stumble around for another dumb numb week for another hum drum hit song to appear people used to make records as in a record of an event, the event of people playing music in a room now everything is cross marketed its about sunglasses and shoes or guns or drugs, you choose we got it re-hashed, we got it half-assed, were digging up all the graves and were spitting on the past because we can choose between the colors of the lipstick on the whores because we know the difference between the font of 20% more and the font of terriaki, you tell me how does it make you feel. you tell me what's real. and they say that alcoholics are always alcoholics even when theyre dry as my lips for years even when theyre stranded on some desert island and theres no place in 2000 miles to buy beer and i wonder is he different, is he different, has he changed what he's about? or is he just a liar with nothing to lie about. am i headed for the same brick wall? is there anything i can do about anything at all? except go back to that corner in Manhattan and dig deeper, dig deeper this time. down beneath the impossible pain of our history beneeath the unknown bones beneath the bedrock of the mystery, beneath the sewage system and the path train, beneath the cobble stones and the water main, beneath the traffic of friendships and street deals, beneath the screeching of kamakazi cab wheels beneath everythign i can think of to think about beneath it all beneath it all get out beneath the good and the kind and the stupid and the cruel THERE'S A FIRE JUST WAITING FOR FUEL 020510 ... peyton waiting there for me yeah I do, I do I got posters on the wall of my favorite rock group kiss waiting there for me I do.. I do In the garage.. I feel safe No one cares about my ways In the garage.. where I belong No one hears me sing this song In the garage I got an electric guitar I play my stupid songs I write these stupid words And I love every one I do I do No one cares my ways where I belong no one hears me sing this song 020529 ... unhinged if you could see through my eyes, you'd know that i'm on your side have you seen the world, where i live? which of the bold faced lies will we use? i hope that you're happy, you really deserve it, this will be best for us both in the end. but your taste still lingers on my lips like i just placed them upon yours and i starve for you. but this new diet's liquid and dulling to the senses. and it's crude but it will do. which of the standard lines will we use? i've been meaning to call you. i've just been so busy. we'll catch up soon. let's make it a point to. but your taste still lingers on my lips like i just placed them upon yours and i starve for you. but this new diet's liquid and dulling to the senses. and it's crude but it will do. 020529 ... jinx to breathe in the air will be the only thing that we have 020529 ... kill rhythm when im with you i feel like i could die, and that would be alright 020530 ... birdmad I remain in shadows growing wings 020530 ... Sonya I know you can't imagine angels taking flight I know you can't imagine your darkest hour light You might think it strange, but I know that you can fly I know you don't believe, but there's heaven in your eyes And when you think you're not enough, just know that I do Even though it's inconceivable to you I know you can't imagine you could heal the blind I know you can't imagine you could change my life You don't seem to see you're the miracle in me I know you don't agree but the world needs you to breathe And when you think you're not enough, just know that I do Even though it's inconceivable to you I can't imagine why, your eyes don't make you smile I can't imagine why, you don't see you're worth my while And maybe you don't see it now Still I know it's true Even though it's inconceivable to you I know you can't imagine standing on the moon I know you can't imagine this song's about you Please don't go away Take a step it'd be too far I'm not overreacting I just see things as they are And when you think you're not enough Just know that I do Even though it's inconceivable to you 020617 ... MollyCule you say don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems. you say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high. but never is a promise and you can't afford to lie. here I am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded. 020617 ... peyton why do you build me up buttercup baby just to let me down and mess me around and worst of all (worst of all) ya never call baby when you say you will but I love you still I need you more than anyone darling I've needed you right from the start So build me up buttercup Don't break my heart 020617 ... Sonya Fly me to the moon, and let me play among the stars Let me see what spring is like on Jupiter and Mars In other words hold my hand, in other words darling kiss me Fill my life with song and let me sing forevermore You are all I hope for, all I worship and adore In other words please be true, in other words I love you 020618 ... peyton oh light the sky and hold on tight, the world is burning down this.. is.. no ordinary love 020618 ... Sonya If a picture paints a thousand words, then why I can't paint you? The words will never show the you I've some to know. If a face could launch a thousand ships, then where am I to go? There's no one home but you. You're all that's left me too. And when my love for life is running dry, you come and pour yourself on me... 020619 ... Sonya Lonestar where are you out tonight? This feeling I'm trying to fight It's dark and I think that I would give anything For you to shine down on me How far you are I just don't know The distance I'm willing to go I pick up a stone that I cast to the sky Hoping for some kind of sign 020620 ... spoons Got your hands bound, your head down, your eyes closed, you look so precious now... 020730 ... jim_starks I've got the smell of you on me. The Crush off of their new album. 020916 ... Sintina I won't be alone, you know that don't mean I'm not lonely. Mary's little lambs are now raised by wolves. Let's make a night to remember all life long. Why does she take all the blame? Everything is gone, there's nothing left to fear. Life is a mystery, everyone must stand alone. I hear you call my name and it feels like home. Just like a muse to me, you are a mystery. Not a dry eye in the house, after love's curtain comes down. Your body is a wonderland. Set me free, why don't you babe? It doesn't really matter if we make it or not, we've got each other and that's a lot. I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know. Can you make me some magic with your own two hands? Can you build an emerald city with these grains of sand? I don't know how, but I could learn to pray, if praying makes you hear me. You can look right at me and in your eyes there's a mystery. Can't you feel the weight of my stare? 020922 ... painted marbles i, i wont lie, i wont sin, maybe i dont wanna go. my eyes seem to follow you like a hated addiction this vacation's useless, these white pills arent kind, ive given a lot of thought on this 13 hour drive. i miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9, and slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights. ive given a lot of thought to the nights we used to have. the days have come and gone, our lives went by so fast. i faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor, where i laid and told you but you swear you loved me more. do you care if i dont know what to say, will you sleep tonight or will you think of me, will i shake this off, pretend its all ok, that theres someone out there who feels just like me? there is. those notes you wrote me, i kept them all, ive given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall. with every single letter in every single word, there will be a hidden message of a boy who loves a girl.. so i fell like that girl from a balance beam, a gymnasium of eyes all are holding on to me. i lifted one foot to cross the other and i felt myself slipping, it was a small mistake, sometimes thats all it takes. and im staring at my wrist, hoping that the time is right, when the planets will align, there'll be no planets to align. just the carcass of the sun, little painted marbles spinning senseless through the endless black sky... so i wait for the day when i hear the key, as it turns in the lock and the guard will say to me, "oh my patient prisoner, you waited for this day, and finally, you are free, you are free, you are freezing." so im staring at the sun, waiting for it to explode, cuz a day is gonna come, dont know when but it will come. and we'll find another way outta here. and ill throw away this wrinkled map, and my chart of stars, and compass, cracked. and ill climb that tree all wet with sap to avoid the hungry beat below. ill cut out my lover's tongue and sing of a graveyard gray, and a garden green, and we wont have to worry no more, no we wont have to wonder again, about how this song or story ends, about how this song and story will end... there's nothing left of what was sacred, if there was im sure we'd break it. cuz thats just the way we are man, and its far too late to change that. On a normal day, I'd treat you like I did today, I don't know why I need the pain. On a normal day, I'd stop it all and tell you why I pulled the plug, threw it away. If only it would get better, I'd smile as if I felt it, Although if it ever got better...I might go throw it all away the way you always do. I might just bury you alive and go do something new dont turn me home again, i just cant face myself alone again. dont run back inside, darling, you know just what im here for. so youre scared and youre thinking that maybe we aint that young anymore? show a little faith, there's magic in the night, you aint a beauty but hey, youre alright, and thats alright with me. you let life get in your way dont let me let you go is it so hard to believe our hearts are made to be broken by love? and in constant dying lies the beauty of it all? my darling wont you feel the sweet heaven in our endless cry? oh, at least you could try for this one last time. ever amazed how bright are the flames we are burning in? ever smiled at the tragedies we hold inside? my darling, wont you cherish the fear of life that keeps you and me so alive? oh at least you could try for this one last time. it will be alright for this one last time. you light me up and then i fall for you. you lay me down and then i call for you. stumbling on reasons that are far and few, i'd let it all come down and then some for you. pretty baby, dont you leave me, i have been saving smiles for you. if you could only see how blue his eyes can be when he says he loves me. i'd like to fall asleep to the beat of you breathing. neon lights and slinking purple skies, squeeze out soft regrets from all our lives. i greet another door that opens in to that place where we repeatedly begin. im tangled up in try, slipping on i wonder why, i face affectionate embrace... you almost always pick the best times to drop the worst lines, you almost made me cry again this time. another false alarm, red flashing lights, well this time im not going to watch myself die..i think i made it a game to play your game and let myself cry, buried myself alive on the inside. so i could shut you out, let you go away for a long time. i guess its ok i puked the day away, i guess its better you trapped yourself in your own way, and if you want me back, youre gonna have to ask... i wanna hate you so bad, but i cant stop this anymore than you can. the truth is you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath, i'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt. and all i need to know is that i'm something youll be missing. maybe i should hate you for this, never really did ever quite get that far, maybe i should hate you for this, never really did ever quite get that the only thing i regret is that i never let you hold me back. hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens, a thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins. i will never ask if you dont ever tell me, i know you well enough to know you never loved me. why cant i feel anything from anyone other than you? and all of this was all your fault... i stay wrecked and jealous for this simple reason, i just need to keep you in mind as something larger than life... if im just bad news, then you're a liar im waiting for blood to flow to my fingers, ill be alright when my hands get warm. ignoring the phone, id rather say nothing, id rather youd never heard my voice. youre calling too late, too late to be gracious. you do not warrant long goodbyes. youre calling too late, youre calling too late, youre calling too late... please tell me youre just feeling tired, cuz if its more than that i feel that i might break, out of touch, out of time. please send me anything but signals that are mixed, cuz i cant read your rolling eyes, out of touch, are we out of time?? ill wait until tomorrow, maybe youll feel better then, maybe we'll be better then. so whats another day when i cant bear these nights of thoughts of going on without you? this mood of yours is temporary, it seems worth the wait to see your smile again, out of the corner of your eye wont be the only way youre looking at me then... im reading your note over again, there's not a word that i comprehend, except where you signed it, "i will love you always and forever" and as for now im gonna hear the saddest songs, and sit alone and wonder how youre making out, and as for me i wish that i was anywhere, with anyone, making out. i hope youre as happy as youre pretending. i am alone in my defeat. i wish i knew you were safely at home. im making my peace, and making it with distance. but maybe thats a big mistake, you know im thinking of you...i miss you. you'll change your mind come monday, and turn your back on me. you'll take your steps away with hesitance, you'll take your steps away from me... on sleepless roads the sleepless go, may angels lead you in... if you still care at all, dont go tell me now, if you love me at all, dont call...ill throw away everything ive written you, oh anything, just keep my mind from thinking how i had you once, no i cant forget that, sometimes i wish i could lose you again... maybe, baby, you could keep me up in bed. you spin around me like a dream, we played out on this movie screen, and i said, did you know i miss you? did you know i miss you? did you know i miss you? did you know i miss you? did you know i miss you? did you know i miss you? did you know i miss you? oh i god i miss you...and then you bring me home, and we go to sleep, but this time not alone, and youll kiss me in your living room, and i know you miss me in your living room, cuz these nights i think that maybe i miss you in my living room...but we dont have much room, i said does anybody need that room? cuz we all need a little bit of room to live...my konstantine ok im done now 030218 ... no reason everywhere i look i see your eyes 030219 ... Black Argonaut Just like the white winged dove... sings a song ... Sounds like she's singing... whoo...whoo...whoo Just like the white winged dove... sings a song... Sounds like she's singing... ooo...baby...ooo...said ooo And the days go by.... like a strand in the wind In the web that is my own... I begin again Said to my friend, baby... Nothin' else mattered He was no more...than a baby then Well he... seemed broken hearted... something within him But the moment...that I first laid... Eyes...on...him...all alone... On the edge of...seventeen Just like the white winged dove... sings a song ... Sounds like she's singing... whoo...whoo...whoo Just like the white winged dove... sings a song... Sounds like she's singing... ooo...baby...ooo...said ooo I went today...maybe I will go again... tomorrow And the music there it was hauntingly... familiar And I see you doing... what I try to do for me With the words from a poet... and the voice from a choir And a melody...nothing else mattered Just like the white winged dove... sings a song ... Sounds like she's singing... whoo...whoo...whoo Just like the white winged dove... sings a song... Sounds like she's singing... ooo...baby...ooo...said ooo The clouds...never expect it... when it rains But the sea changes colours... but the sea... Does not change And so...with the slow...graceful flow.. of age I went forth...with an age old... desire...to please On the edge of...seventeen Just like the white winged dove... sings a song ... Sounds like she's singing... whoo...whoo...whoo Just like the white winged dove... sings a song... Sounds like she's singing... ooo...baby...ooo...said ooo Well then suddenly... there was no one...left standing In the hall...yeah, yeah... In a flood of tears That no one really ever heard fall at all Oh I went searchin' for an answer... Up the stairs...and down the hall Not to find an answer... just to hear the call Of a nightbird...singing... come away...come away... Just like the white winged dove... sings a song ... Sounds like she's singing... whoo...whoo...whoo Just like the white winged dove... sings a song... Sounds like she's singing... ooo...baby...ooo...said ooo Well I hear you in the morning... and I hear you... At nightfall... sometime to be near you... Is to be unable...to hear you... my love... I'm a few years older than you... are (I'm a few years older than you) my love Just like the white winged dove... sings a song... Sounds like she's singing... ooo baby...ooo...said ... 030219 ... argo It's so hard to go in the city cause you wanna say hello to everybody It's so hard to go into the city cause you wanna say hey I love you to everybody When we were teenagers we wanted to be the sky Now all we wanna do is go to red places And try to stay outta hell it must just be the colors And it must just be the kids That keep me alive on this January night Yellow hair You are a funny bear Yellow hair You are such a funny bear Oh I do believe In all the things you say What comes is better that what came before Do you remember When we met That's the day I knew you were my pet I wanna tell you How much I love you 030219 ... me I have watched your unlove written like tabloids that I had to stumble on buying my food there you were unfolded in headlines and horror I love all those bits of you feels like i'm run over in traffic scratchin' in the dust someone's leavin' punches in my gut of look i'm bleeding not for you for me this time this time not for you for me this time 030219 ... art choke It was in the march of the winter I turned seventeen That I bought those pills I thought I would need And I wrote a letter to my family Said it's not your fault And you've been good to me Just lately I've been feeling Like I don't belong Like the ground's not mine to walk upon And I've heard that music Echo through the house Where my grandmother drank By herself And I sat watching a flower As it was withering I was embarrassed by its honesty So I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face Not this fucking wreck That's taken its place So please forgive what I have done No you can't stay mad at the setting sun Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually There is nothing left to do but sleep But spring came bearing sunlight Those persuasive rays So I gave myself a few more days My salvation it came, quite suddenly When Justin spoke very plainly He said "Of course it's your decision, But just so you know, If you decide to leave, Soon I will follow" I wrote this for a baby Who has yet to be born My brother's first child I hope that womb's not too warm Cause it's cold out here And it'll be quite a shock To breathe this air To discover loss So I'd like to make some changes Before you arive So when your new eyes meet mine They won't see no lies Just love. Just love. I will be pure No, no, I know i will be pure Like snow, like gold 030428 ... unhinged you know you're down when you count the friends you have but you only use one hand honey it finally hit your face you're feeling mighty low just slightly out of place storm your dreams have drowned again because you never learned to swim older but no better 030619 ... silentbob as we would lay and learn what each others bodies were for 040317 ... unhinged passed over blown away you'll hang your hat on yesterday growing older now no better you're older but no better you say you're upset forecast the life you want just beyond the colder front sugar the winds of change blow through it took the whole damn world i guess it only left you cold storm step forth and fire away rebuttals drenched with rain delay storm your dreams just washed away while all us kids were out at play growing older now no better you're older now no better that's right 040317 ... unhinged you're coming clean for once god it feels so good yeah it feels alright so hang up the gloves dear let's get on with the event yeah instead of raising our voices let's reinforce our arguement load up your memory cells point blank range blow you to hell for what it's worth you're coming home you're coming clean for once god it feels so good yeah it feels alright so hang up the gloves dear let's get on with the event yeah instead of raising our voices let's reinforce our arguement ghost comes to hate yesterday don't remind me of the feelings that i've lost with the people put behind me memories of some deeds of despair and depression check the score let the truth never find me 040317 ... the fire inside your halo slippin' down to choke you now 040923 ... peyton and all of this time you thought i was sad i was trying to remember your name i lie i wait i start i hesitate i am i breathe i meant, i think of me is it any wonder I can't sleep? all I have is all you gave to me is it any wonder I found peace through you? turn to the gates of heaven to myself be damned turn away from light it's not enough just a touch it's not enough i taste i love i come i bleed enough. i hate. i'm not i was.. i want too much. she took my heart i think she took my soul. don't be aroused, by my confession unless you don't give a good God damn about redemption. the pressure is building at the base of my spine if i have to sin to see her again then i'm gonna lie and lie and lie She'll eat you alive. 101216 ... peyton I'll sell my soul To be back in your bosom. To do it again.. 101216 ... raze ("gold", by peter blegvad) gold would be worthless if it didn't require such heartbreak to seek it to find it and mine it things remain precious as long as they're rare if gold could be found lying 'round everywhere it'd be the lowliest of metals too soft for serious use pretty, of course and warm to the touch but no longer alluring when you've handled so much the lowliest of metals will you come with me through the ice and the snow? she thought for a minute then she said, "let's go" i rode behind her as she rode ahead and all through that winter i’d lose her and find her our rations ran out our horses were dead she forgot what gold was and i had to remind her the lowliest of metals too soft for serious use pretty, of course and warm to the touch but no longer alluring when you've handled so much the lowliest of metals in a prospector's shack she lay out of her mind describing how simple gold is to find just under the surface in zigzagging veins it lies there like branches of midsummer lightning you just open a hole in the crust of the plains she said, "you reach in and it's there for the taking" snow-blind and starving i sat by her side as the fever raged in her and the storm raged outside she said, "now we are rich" i told her the truth all the gold we had found could not crown a tooth she said, "these things i know without being told we are rich in each other now what good is gold? it's the lowliest of metals" sometimes i dream the world is reversed i dream that accountants are rarer than poets that things will get better that they can’t get any worse that a rich man has nothing but dirt in his purse and gold is the lowliest of metals it's too soft for serious use it's pretty, of course and it's warm to the touch but no longer alluring when you've handled so much the lowliest of metals 140714 what's it to you? who go blather from