feel unhinged i don't feel alive anymore. i don't feel much of anything. at least when i was cutting, i still felt something. i knew this was going to happen. i just knew it. i wished for so long that it would just go away and now that it has i look around me and there is nothing there. every rejection typical, every smile transparent, every want empty. and it doesn't even bother me anymore. nothing bothers me anymore except this physical pain in an odd place and being in a crowd of stupid people. being alone, lonely, loneliness, empty, lost, fallen, eh...i guess i just got used to it. i vowed never to get used to it. sardonic smile 010316 ... kinkazoid i think the best feeling in the world is when i babysit my sisters 3 kids and i have one of them walk on my back, one play with my hair, and one tickle my feet. i dont force them to, they do it on their own...it just feels really good. 010612 ... soia I can feel you dreaming of me I feel you dream I feel you dream I can Feel you Dreaming of me beneath the trees 010613 ... spoons does it matter what i feel... 010716 ... silentbobfuckyou burnt_by_the_sun 010717 ... angie Is it possible to feel so much physical pleasure without feeling any emotion at all? Just add the alcohol into the mix and it has an entirely new effect on the body and mind. Numb your mind...do crazy stuff with your body...possibly even the body of someone else. I think I just learned how to fly. 020705 ... red pill My mind is going I can feel it 020710 ... gelfling I'll follow it wherever it goes 020710 ... celestial i dont want to 021105 ... bespeckled Blue love, like rain dripping from the ends of leaves, saturating sound. 030113 ... bespeckled oops 030113 ... bespeckled oops this_kind_of_love 030113 ... stoic a wave of yes or no a breeze of ah or oh a push to fall or throw a want to have and know. . 040113 ... mon uow be happy happy feel 050320 ... krupt feel... a shorter for of feelings, my feelings... have no meaning. i blathe red because i need to think i need to think out loud and i need people to speak on my thoughts... am i crazy? am i just normal? who knows? 081011 what's it to you? who go blather from