going
peyton
there's
a
barrier
nothing
but
blood
splattered
against
that's
where
I
am
that's
where
I've
been
that's
where
I'm
going
until
there
is
no
blood
left
020617
...
tide
going
gone
020718
...
ever-so-slowly insane
I
am
going insane
as
fast
as
my
14.4 kbps dial-up
connection
will
take
me
.....
020726
...
angie
going
to
a
party
on
a
monday
nite?
whatever
...
I
dunno...
I
don't
really
know
what
to
say
I
really
wanted
to
talk
to
you
tonite
Instead
I'll
get
a
drunken
e
-mail
actually
...I prob.
won't
you
will
prob.
just
pass
out
and
forget
bout
me
for
the
nite
never
have
gotten
a
drunken
e
-mail
from
u
Gotta
be
cool
Gotta
be
understanding
Think
how
many
times
I
have
done
that
to
him
I
haven't
written
in
blather
red
for
a
long
time
I
miss
its
comforting
appearance
He
found
this
.
He
felt
bad
He
said
it
was
my
place
,
but
he
still
read
everything
I
wrote
on
here
He
said
he
was
never
going
to
read
my
things
on
here
again
...
I
wonder
if
the
curiosity
will
get
to
him
.
I
had
lots
to
vent
I
made
cookies
tonite
well
...not
cookies
yet
,
just
the
dough
i
will
make
the
cookies
tomorrow
put
the
dough
in
the
fridge
wonder
how
this
semester
will
go
it
will
be
wonderful
being
so
close
to
you
i
wonder
if
u
will
get
sick
of
me
what
am
i
saying
i
dont
know
.
gotta
put
it
into
perspective
i'll
wait
till
1
maybe
130
miss
you
030120
...
nom
not
going
to
be
sad
060405
...
eatingstars
im
gonna
go
running
and
then
im
going
to
work
on
my
program
and
he
said
he'd
be
there
and
i
think
of
my
patheticness
and
reflect
on
my
friends
and
their
comments
and
it's
so
cold
right
now
i
woke
up
at
the
normal
time
but
i
went
to
bed
three
hours
later
my
back
and
neck
and
legs
all
hurt
i
feel
old
does
it
only
get
worse
from
here
?
i
love
so
many
things
in
life
and
i
can't
help
but
find
myself
happy
a
lot
of
the
time
.
but
i
feel
like
a
part
of
me
is
missing
and
ive
been
looking
everywhere
i
don't
know
where
it
is
or
who
has
it
and
i'm
scared
.
and
the
song
is
playing [
i
will
be
with
her
tonight
i
will
be
with
her
tonight
yeah
]
and
i
wonder
who
she
is
and
why
he
wants
her
and
i
remember
im
not
normal
and
i
don't
think
normal
things
but
then
i
remember
that's
why
people
like
me
,
because
i'm
interesting
.
i
may
not
be
beautiful
but
i
can
make
people
laugh
,
whether
they
are
laughing
at
me
because
i'm
rediculous
or
because
it
was
actually
funny
it
doesn't
really
matter
i
guess
.
i
forgot
why
i
was
writing
this
sometimes
i
forget
things
or
i
tell
people
i
forget
things
because
it's
normal
to
forget
things
but
i
don't
really
forget
them
this
sentence
was
a
contradiction
.
sometimes
it
pays
to
be
modest
but
i
don't
really
know
what
that
means
because
i
haven't
gotten
any
money
for
modesty
yet
but
i
bet modest
mouse
has
made
a
lot
of
money
,
i
would
pay
them
money
.
i
think
im
going
to
go
make
my
bed
.
060422
...
nom
i'm
going
to
vancouver
060422
...
nom
"
i
have
dreams
"
070101
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from