connection Alvarny Trying hard to find one.... Anybody home? 050429 ... flux is that what i'm looking for here? a funny way to go about it. new_york is clearly turning into an extension of the dissociative æsthetic, and my "personal journal" has become perhaps too public ("I read your nightmare typology page to M____ aloud, dramatically."). the place is the problem, but the current writing streak is just about getting the thoughts out instead of keeping them in. once again, i'm not talking to you. is that any better? perhaps it facilitates communication with myself. 111129 ... Soma everyone brings happiness to the world, because we cannot live alone. 240315 ... epitome of incomprehensibility Re Longshanks: Even the half-grown bird I watched struggle for breath after the dog unwittingly injured it evoked some similar feelings: a bit of "oh, interesting, I can observe it up close - usually robins are farther away and/or a flying blur," but more sadness to see it perhaps suffer with each breath it took, and even more when Dad said later that he found it dead and buried it. 240317 what's it to you? who go blather from