here birdmad where you are 010130 ... guitar_freak have been there 010131 ... i am it is are you 010207 ... green_tenedril is not there is not tiskh, culft or plumfkt. 010415 ... anonymouse no i'm not there... im here!!! you insane fool 010610 ... daxle choking on the emotions I seem to keep vomiting up 010806 ... kyla I'm typing a Business Plan Summary for a friend, to the tune of Duke Ellington and Johnny Hodges (as well as some randomly dispersed Eric Bibb). It all seems very surreal. Well, that, plus the fact that I drove into two trees earlier today. 011028 ... Skalar red. comfy. soothing. Cool color, same blather goodness. 011031 ... sarah harmer Are there no blinders on lights that blare white noise on the eyes From gas station lots and reflected ice glares So that I can walk home by moonlight alone. Can we go up to where the wind howls and stand alee against the trees they've grown up so tall that you can't see the house It's a fortress now but you know how it used to be. I could lie to myself and say I like it but I would love it if you were here. Those words on paper smell like you associated and random thought On my lips words turn blue evanescent feeling lost I could lie to myself and say I like it but I would love it if you were here I'm just sad for myself cause I know that you're clear but I would love it if you were here. I can just see you show me your gardens I thought you'd grow roses and grapes on low vines I wanted to know you when we were both older I thought there'd be more of those wonderful times. 020203 ... pralines&cream "Outside it may be raining ... but in here it's entertaining!!!" 020203 ... silentbob what the hell is that from 020204 ... pralines&cream moulin rouge ... my current obsession 020204 ... spoons dont honor me, commend me ignore me, avoid me just acknowlegde me as here. 020206 ... kerry listening to "phone sex" by superchunk feeling like my ribs and face are covered in dust "plane crash footage on tv/ i know/ i know that could be me" my eyes are rimmed in red because my body wants to sneeze but can't and i am wearing new freshwater pearl earrings from my mother the pearls are pale orange new lipstick from susie it is my color finally, i have a color... if i felt like it i would stand up right here and rip the cords out of the walls and dance if only i knew how they're watching minority report they would yell at me this computer doesn't work right anyway, what does it matter? i will spend the rest of the break staring at photographs and thinking about the new baby only 3 weeks old and i'll keep forgetting she has a name and only remember the way she stared at me and i was the only one who succeeded in quieting her 021225 ... Lime Rider trying to rip myself away. I'm sure there was something more? 030107 ... shiloh is where I want to be 050520 ... tilt pretty sick of here, actually. want to be there. 061224 ... no reason it would be more than convenient if you were 080516 ... raze i'm so happy to be here, even on a day like today when i'm not sure i want to be anywhere. i'm grateful you're here too. 220503 ... kerry because i don't know where else to be 230619 what's it to you? who go blather from