baby silvertone bird "...did a bad bad thing /and i feel like cryin'" 010527 ... lll is my cat 030402 ... psychobabe i love it when you call me baby.. i love it when you want more.. i love it when you run your fingers down my soft back.. i love it when you stare into my eyes.. i love it when you tell me i'm the only one.. i love it when you scream for more.. i love it when you hold me.. i love it when you fill me with desire.. i love it that i dont feel ashamed.. i love it when you put your fingers through my hair.. i love the way you make me feel.. i love the way you laugh.. i love the way you smile.. i love the way you talk i love the way you think.. baby..all i can say is i love the way you are and make me feel beutiful 030402 ... blown cherry a :) for psychobabe 030403 ... psychobabe *smiles* i dont know any other way to explain it 030403 ... o n m in one of my bad dreams last night i had a baby and it was crying and i went to feed it but was stopped "you can't" "what are you thinking" and it was upsetting i felt guilty, i just wanted to feed it i didn't want to make the baby sick 100126 ... nr i dreamt last night that i needed to go to the hospital because i was in labour. i was standing on the street with my mom, my aunt, and a couple of other people, who were all about to leave. my mom said, "you need to go now!" and i said, "wait, you have to come with me; i don't want to go by myself!" and she said i needed to learn how to do this by myself as an adult. and by that she meant both the labour and the raising of a child (which didn't seem to involve a partner in the dream), both of which terrified me. and i didn't like the idea of being responsible for a child. in the dream, i asked a girl i used to know (who oddly i was never great friends with, but i know she recently had a baby) to be honest about what it was like to give birth. she said "it'll make you feel like you're being attacked, but it's also a religious experience." 160825 ... amys in red i hear the cult of Artemis was big back in the day. (I'm actually doing a "project" or if Archangel Gabriel is with me, having a child along these lines) (Do not fear Wonder Woman is here...) 160825 ... nr i had another baby-themed dream last night. i was apparently pregnant (or thought i was but wasn't sure). i went to some kind of public place with lots of beds and specialists (but seemingly not a hospital), where i had an appointment. my best friend and her family were all with me and waiting outside. when i walked over to the specialist, he looked at my stomach (which wasn't very big) and asked, "are you sure you're [high-ish number] months pregnant?" and i said, "i think so," and he shook his head like he didn't think so. and then it turned out i wasn't pregnant after all. it's weird. whenever i have these dreams, i never feel happy about being pregnant or sad about not being pregnant. it's either fear, relief, or indifference. crazy brains. 160924 ... unhinged jake evans born 8/18/16 another leo in the family and already he is the sun in his little galaxy thank you little one i am once again in desperate need of reminders of the good in the world all i have to think of your little arm wrapped around me as i fed you your little conscious your little personality already present as i fed you your little fingers grabbed my shirt gave me a pat pat pat 160925 ... epitome of incomprehensibility When the tutor of a language test has an ESL teacher as a student, and the said student has to pick up her baby to calm them during the online session, the conversation must take a detour not only into "Ohh, so cute! How old?" territory, but also into the foothills of language acquisition (fairly automatic, if an infant has sufficient input) and memory formation (some, even if not at a very conscious level yet). Four months, by the way. Can hold up head and smile. Looks at the screen for a moment when hearing my voice, but visibly soothed when hearing mother's. 230117 what's it to you? who go blather from