night
soia
last
night laying
in
the
dark
trying
not
to
fall
asleep
to
make
it
home
,
didn't
want
to
sleep
there
,
looked
over
and
thought
I
saw
D
and
it
gave
me
a
heart
attack
and
didn't
know
whether
to
cry
or
laugh
but
really
just
thought
"
fuck
.
this
will
never
end
."
This
will
never
end
this
will
never
end
this
will
never
stop
tell
you
to
tell
me
this
neurosis
is
different
cause
I'm
different
now
and
I
will
not
live
like
this
cause
I
can't
and
I
know
if
I
just
had
the
right
combination
of
mineral
elements
and
attitude
these
words
would
stop
flowing
out
of
my
mouth
like
I'm
a
fountain throwing
up
so
much
internal
water
.
Oh
yeah
I've
got
this
siddartha
thing
confused
but
I've
always
been
that
one
to
see
the
goal
but
not
know
how
to
act
it
and
so
we'll
just
say
the
story
ended
well
but
we
know
what
really
happened
except
these
days
we
know
this
is
no
right
/wrong/good/
what
the
fuck
ever
.
010617
...
amy
bittersweet
shadow
020825
...
Time Becomes a Loop
after
day
after
night
after
day
after
night
all
it
is
,
all
it
ever
will
be
tick
after
tock
after
tick......
040822
...
crOwl
'night,
i'm
goin' t'
bed
.
041121
...
krupt
is
when
i
charge
my
fone...
080310
...
exquisiteparadox
night
the
time
when
emotions
bleed
tears
blur
creation
vivifies
kisses
intensify
air
liquifies
eye
makeup
smolders
lips
stain
inhibitions flounder
music
bites
eyelids
weigh
life
whispers
possibility
and
or
stagnation
rake
your
tongue
across
your
teeth
and
taste
it
081024
...
kerry
the
walk
to
the
rooftop
bar
was
longer
than
expected
but
i
didn’t
mind
.
i
’d
never
been
to
that
part
of
town
.
the
smell
of
roasting
meat
in
the
air
,
children
running
shrieking
giggling
in
the
alleys
and
most
of
the
plants
as
limp
as
old
handkerchiefs.
by
the
bar
there
were
men
smoking
cigarillos
and
yelling
at
other
in
i
think
vietnamese
and
some
women
were
doing
a
210801
...
kerry
coordinated
dance
on
the
sidewalk
.
i
dragged
you
across
the
street
to
take
a
picture
of
a
mural
and
we
were
nearly
hit
by
a
cyclist--what
you
gotta
death
wish
?--and
we
hardly
heard
him
.
set
against
the
sky
enormous
gold
sunflowers
’ heads
bent
gently, wisely,
the
sky
in
a
last
gasp
draped
the
street
in
peach
light
.
the
sun
sets
later
now
and
i
am
wide
awake
with
you
.
210801
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from