you birdmad are here Where do you intend to go next? 010129 ... soia www.fatfreeradio.com eve.ucdavis.edu/bis1b/ www.afireinside.net blather.newdream.net/red/ 010129 ... Sum Deus Fuck you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 010201 ... soia I thought you were perfect why do I see people, and refuse to know them better some times just to maintain that they are perfect (yes i just answered myself) but last night I saw you on the verge of rage ("he was TOO BUSY?!!!"), flying out the door to give him a piece of your mind no one is perfect that is why we are all equally great 010304 ... silentbob with your hair and your sweaters and your way of making me think back to you every time you scamper away from my immediate attention the time it takes for my eye lashes to close over my iris and open back during a blink is too long when i'm staring at your eyes. i want you to have everything 010316 ... silentbob all_i_wanted 010411 ... blue star are too damn shy. ask me already!!!!! 010521 ... surrealchereal looking at you? starring in your eyes? wishing it were your thighs? how'd you get so phat? you look good in a lepoard skin pill box hat. 010529 ... less than I miss you every day I think about what happened every day I wonder if I'll ever have a chance I wonder if you still love me I wish that I could see you I don't give up at all 010728 ... rollins There's no need to speak. We will communicate by touch and instinctual expression.l we dont need words. were well past all that now. it is our destiny to be born beautiful into an ugly age. we breathe life in the face of Death's high command. It is your animale grace that keeps me alive. it is your feral eyes and taut skin that bring my veins to the draws my knuckles white. I don't need a god. i have you and your beautiful mouth, your hands holding on to me, the nails leaving unfelt wounds, your hot breath on my neck. The taste of your saliva. The darkness is ours. the nights belong to us. everything we do is secret. nothing we do will ever be understood, rather feared and kept well away from. it will be the stuff of legend, tall tale and endless inspiration for the brave of heart. its you and me in this room, on this floor. beyond life, beyond morality. we are gleaming animals painted the color of moonlit sweat glow. our eyes turn to jewels, and everything we do is an example of spontaneous perfection. i have been waiting all my life to be with you. my heart slams against my ribs when i think of the slaughtered nights i spent all over the world witing to feel your touch. the time i annihilated while i waited like a man doing a life sentence. now you're here and everything we touch explodes, bursts into bloom, or burns to ash. History atomizes and negates itself with our every shared breath. I need you like life needs life. i want you bad, like a natrual disaster. you are all that i see. you are the only one i want to know. 010907 ... spoons gee you seem angry? THANKS FOR POINTING IT OUT AS IF I DIDNT ALREADY FUCKING KNOW! 011126 ... madness you_make_me_feel_like_shit it's a hell of a thing to do to someone you say you love that's why I'm leaving 020124 ... oscar criticized every one of my motivations and yet i stayed you do the same to me each time but i let it go because you mean more to me than a moment's pain please don't go please try to understand 020125 ... psychobabe You give me the reason you give me control I gave you my purity my purity you stole To think i wouldn't RECOGNIZE this compromise, am i just to stupid to realize stale wings and soul sweat lies, lies, lies Its comes down to this! Your kiss your fist and this train it gets under my skin within, take in the extrent of my sin You give me the anger you give me the nerve Carry out my sentence, while i get what i deserve I'm just an ephrogy to be this way to beat it faced Your need for me had been replaced and if i cant have everything well then just give me a taste It comes down to this! Your kiss your fist and this train that gets under my skin within, take in, the extent of my sin You give me the reason you give me control I gave you my purity my purity you stole did you think i wouldnt RECOGNIZE! this compromise, am i just to stupid to REALIZE! Stale insence, soul sweet and lies, lies, lies Its comes down to this! Your kiss! Your fist! and this train that gets under my skin within, take in, well me sin it comes down to this! Your kiss! Your fist! and this train that gets under my skin within, take in, the extent of my sin.. 020209 ... silentbob Who is that? 020210 ... psychobabe NiN lyrics bobby 020210 ... little wonder are so perfect it almost hurts. 020211 ... silentbob you me and everything 020212 ... K OK? 020324 ... sigh;; sigh... 020403 ... Webley "you" meaning "Me" when perceived by "Me" as coming from "You" 020414 ... casinoboyjaysen you look at me like you don't know me and i want to shake you you look past me with a blank stare, and shake at images not there you cringe from the touch of those who love you, and embrace being alone with things you cannot see you weigh 80 lbs and are 5'5 but think you are still fat you don't realize that with all the fallout from your addictions that people can still love you i still love you 020909 ... Flaming moe Hey step Right up And Meet the garogon sisters.... Be 'CaReful though... don't look at them directly 020924 ... Unsaintly By "you" I meant both you and her. But only 20%? 020929 ... Unsaintly I do not think that was I; but, if it was, it was my pleasure to take you there. 020930 ... Q And same to you, you, you, lulie! yes, Yes, YEs, YES!!!! 021127 ... sausage You're changing into a whole new person and I don't like the new you. You're consumed with things that are selfish and petty. I can't stand to be around you anymore. I need my space. 030425 ... Anna_Began Jesus tapdancing Christ. No offense. 030425 ... thorn where are you? and why won't you fucking talk to me? all i want is to talk to you, don't ignore me because you're mad at her. why can't you see how much i miss talking to you and being with you? 050516 ... the eye when the judas hour arrives "...you fickle shit/you would spit on me/you would make me spit" 050810 ... tilt i love you, but i think you've fucked me up. i never used to be this useless. i think we should never be apart again. 060326 ... Ivory I'm going out of my head. Torn between the urge to say, "I don't want to be with you anymore" and "I love you, and your faults don't bother me at all -- and neither does your absolute inability to change things." ...shakes head... I hate myself. 060718 ... icle Once Upon A Time, when i was a baby, I went to India, we went to a posh hotel for afternoon tea, the elephants paraded up and down between the tables, it felt very colonial, although i didn't know what the word ment at the time, like an Alice in Wonderland type feeling. The elephants did a huge poop, steam came out and the boy in a cool costume came to pick up the poop and put it in a basket. I remember it so vividly. just to let you know that is! 070721 ... belly fire I often find this to be a pointed, even accusatory word. Sometimes ugly. Rarely beautiful. 091020 ... nr smart. easygoing. friendly. funny. treat me well. easygoing (so much so that it had to be said twice). smooth-sailing. but i can't stop thinking about other_you 130724 ... nr maybe i'm not challenged enough. or maybe i'm not letting myself give in. things are difficult. i don't know what i want. i don't know. 130724 ... nr i trust you. 130724 ... nr sometimes i have blather_regret. also, red_wine and red_blather are sometimes not a good mix. 130725 ... nr this won't last. maybe that was obvious. it's not your fault; you just don't need certain things as much as i do. our connection isn't weak, but it's the strongest it'll ever get, and it's nowhere close to the strongest i've ever had. this will end eventually, but maybe not yet, because not everything is over. 131008 ... no reason are great. and like my best friend. i am glad things went as well as they did, and i hope things continue along that path. 140727 ... no reason i feel like i needed to say this because it's true and because i've been blather-unfair to you. (yes, this is a thing.) 140727 ... flux youtube.com/watch?v=TUDLy3ablus#t=6908 140727 ... leni i'm taking you back for a refund back for repairs around the back for something anyway 141209 ... Soma Wonderful you. 231218 what's it to you? who go blather from