perfect Cicero silky soldiers shiting in cold porcelain thrones of Honorable Aca-Junkies past and present intoxicating warmth teasing the tips of my fingers and tempting the resolutions of my pasts and presents smooth sexy the wine of my lust 030225 ... Cicero uhhh... that should be "shoulders sliding" in the first lane. I think I am partially dyslexic. 030225 ... Cicero DAMMIT. First LINE, not LANE. Gah. 030225 ... nom this might just work out perfect 061011 ... sardines you are building this elaborate sand castle. behind you a massive wave is about to crash on you. but now...oh, for now everything is perfect. 130111 ... tender_square he confronted her about the money that was missing from their joint account. “you’ve been making unnecessary purchases,” he said. he took a seat on his side of the bed. “i know,” she admitted. she climbed into bed to face in. “and every time it’s happened this month i’ve felt bad about it. i’ve been talking with my therapist about it. i’m actually relieved you’re saying something about it.” “why is it happening?” “i think it’s my way of coping with stress and it’s not helpful. and it makes me feel like shit that i’ve been doing it after i told you i was leaving.” “is it your family stuff that is stressing you out?” “that and having to travel to florida and staying here longer than i thought i’d be,” she said. “leaving work,” she added. “staying here longer?” “yeah…i told you i wanted to go back in september and now i’m not leaving until the end of this month and it’s stressful.” he labeled her as a materialist, and she tried to defend herself. “you know that i’ve always loved thrift shopping, it’s my pastime—which is not me saying that’s a totally healthy thing—i always love to score a deal and when i find a great one i do talk about it. clothing also means a lot to me; it’s how i express myself, it’s how i confront uncertainty. when things feel more chaotic, i invest in my image because it’s all i can control. it’s also retail therapy, which isn’t great.” “when you came to me about what was happening in our relationship i literally asked you what your part in all of it was and you said to me, ‘i’ve tried to look and i can’t find what it is.’ don’t you think this is something? you’re not perfect in this.” she couldn’t see how this was relevant to the state of their relationship. she never argued that she was perfect. yes, her spending was a form of dishonesty, but it was also out in the open, available for him to see. her spree had accumulated over a month and a half. this is what it took for him to finally notice the damage she inflicted. in her mind, her actions were always in reaction to his. when she expressed her point of view, he had the same argument, that his actions were in reaction to her own. and around and around they went on the carousel, in constant circling, never catching up to one another. 221113 what's it to you? who go blather from