wave sarpedon And set your dreams in motion 020406 ... unhinged it's a wave and a particle at the same time. why do you have to lie to me you bastards? 020729 ... tender_square on the shoreline, i am staring beyond the beach, down a ways to where there is a landing like a pier and it has tower viewers to let visitors stare further into the beyond. i want to take my husband there, want him to make out shapes in the distance of our future, movements we can’t discern with the naked eye. the binoculars will not cost us anything to use. we are on the sand beneath a dining tent with his family, his sister is there, his brother may be there, and his mother is there. and i am reminded of vacations we would take, the five of us, before his mom got sick. i stare at the still waters and feel momentarily calm. when i look again a wall of wave confronts us. i watch it rise and prepare for it to crumble upon us just as quickly as it was built. the wave lifts us off the ground and shakes us about before receding. we are frightened and immediately pack up our belongings. the pier i wanted to show my husband is no longer there following the wave, it has disappeared. i wake with the shock of grief that disbursed us, the wave that left us clutching ourselves while we remembered how to breathe. and i acknowledge that rebuilding our future is untenable in the aftermath of such destruction, leave our shared bed to sleep alone. 220116 ... kerry [part of me wasn't sure if i would be intruding by saying anything but this is really moving. wow.] 220116 what's it to you? who go blather from