sick k i am sick, so i came here. why? why? why? my blood is hot and so is my forehead. 010126 ... blue star I was "sick" today. I think it was the first time I ever convinced my mom of being sick when I really wasn't. When I was little, and really feeling sick, they'd never let me stay home. I absolutely had to have a fever and even then they called in grudgingly. Do you know how many fatal illnesses can only be treated during the time when you DON'T have a fever? Well... neither do I, but there has got to be a few, right? I believe the term for it is good ol' Minnesota hardiness... or Jesse's charming policy of letting small children stand out in ice storms waiting for their drunken bus drivers to rocket through their residential areas at 60 miles per hour only to kill mothers driving their kids to school and transport kids to a place of horrors and cruelties. Well, that got a little off track, now, didn't it? 010206 ... silentbob ive got a virus, a cold, a sickness, a disiese i want to spread it, and give it, like a neatly cared package, deliver it to your door with a sneeze 010206 ... stupidpunkgirl 100 degree temperature doesn't convince me to stay in bed which i should have going to a show with cigarette smoke and loud music me laying in the back corner and bobby bringing me water (thanks bobby) wearing brian busenius's hoodie over mine in the hot little room i hoped you liked your birthday present, evan coming home to have my mom be angry and making me feel so shitty and wanting to leave more than before i hate being sick 010212 ... silentbob You're welcome, i hope it made you feel any better 010212 ... soia I don't get sick. Occasionally I make myself sick though (in multiple ways). 010226 ... johnny west Self-sick. 010310 ... mikey i hate being sick. when your sick it then makes you want to be just normal again. even if normal is unhappy or sad. its worse when your sick! ahhhhhhhhh im eating cough drops like its candy! 010315 ... lost (sic) 010315 ... stupidpunkgirl i'm sick again i have a sore throat and have been eating cough drops all day i can't stay home anymore but i just want to sleep all day i think i'm going to go to the doctor tomorrow shit. (i hate doctors) 010315 ... mikey ditto. i get sick...and of course NOW i get the job i wanted. i start tomorrow and im fuckin sick. how lame is that???? couldnt have called me last 2 weeks...i get sick. BAM. grrrrrrrrrrr 010315 ... Aimee I am soooo sick. my head hurts, my eyes ache, my entire body aches, my fever is so high that cold air actually seems to hurt my body. I want a back rub. god do I want a back rub. I am so tired... somebody please please please make my cold go away. Anyone who can find a remedy that works will have me for a slave for at least a week... :) 010320 ... johnny west :: racing around madly searching for THE CURE :: 010320 ... unhinged i've never been this heartsick in my life to think i was so totally wrong about you. you just had to go and violently smash your pedestal didn't you? 010320 ... Aimee okay... i'm feeling a bit better... who do I call my master for the next week? Be honest now... 010321 ... soia Satan. 010321 ... satan himself (at your service) You rang? 010322 ... mikey i dont much care for religion so i dont place much value in "satan" either. i wish i was a demon though i would be so damn evil. 010323 ... Aimee like you're not already mikey 010323 ... nocturnal mikey, you already are so damn evil. hehe 010323 ... silentbob blaaaaaaaaaaah 020409 ... blue star I'm just sick. I don't have a virus, I am not harboring bacteria in my lungs. I'm just sick. I'm heartsick, and mad crazy sick. My mind and my emotional stability is diseased with thoughts of hopelessness and self-loathing. I'm a pathetic mess of overdue assignments and working girl crushes on the unavailable. 020428 ... jinx I want to sleep, but my head is spinning, and I'm afraid that if I lay down I'll puke again. I don't think I'm going to go to work tomorrow. 030111 ... sick random camouflage so i was walking down the road and there was casey, and she was all, like, hey! wanna go get some icecream? *sigh* sometimes i just wanna be alone! lol, well nevermind she's ok i guess but she doesn't really care about me, but then noone does lol! i saw a really funny tv show the other day this guy was putty ants down his pants!! OMG it was so funny. me and jason were laughing so hard we cried LOL!) why am i so fucking ME? why!?!??!? fucking fucker that i am. i'm fucking disgusting. there's two versions of me. the horrible sickening disgusting me that i abhor and the stupid clumsy nervous me that i don't recognise. there's also the me that i liketo think i am. i try. i will try. i wont try. ill think im trying but its still me. is this even true? am i just paranoid? am i the same as everyone else? or should i really be ashamed? fuck it. forget and ignore. hope it goes away. fucking life. chain of fucking causality that leads me right here. so i was walking down the road and there was casey, and she was all, like, hey! wanna go get some icecream? *sigh* sometimes i just wanna be alone! lol, well nevermind she's ok i guess but she doesn't really care about me, but then noone does lol! i saw a really funny tv show the other day this guy was putty ants down his pants!! OMG it was so funny. me and jason were laughing so hard we cried LOL! the above is fiction. 051210 ... nom of circles 060327 ... cooper rasha being sick feels like you're wearing someone else's glasses 130101 ... cocoon all these emotions are making me feel a bit sick im sick and tired of having all these emotions 161204 ... tender_square it's been several years since i was bedridden, and i know how fortunate that is. even now, i am grateful it's a weak enough cold that i can still take care of myself in the midst of feeling less-than-healthy and, luckily, there is space in my calendar at the moment to take it easy. my throat is scratchy, my sinuses are slightly congested, and there's a sporadic cough that's sometimes chesty—i want to nip that in the bud. 230121 ... epitome of incomprehensibility I hope you feel better soon! I was hit by a cold the first week of January, which was going to be my week to relax. 230121 ... e_o_i (which I did, but sniffle-ingly) 230121 ... tender_square four days of being fairly horizontal and i'm mad at my body for not expelling this virus faster. mom said it lasted her ten days. half-hour walks exhaust me. i'm tired of being sedentary and limited to low-impact activities. on the one hand, i keep thinking how absurd it is to expect that i should be better by now, as though i could will my body to comply with wellness. not being able to "bounce back" as quickly as i'd like feels like some kind of personal failure. i have so many things scheduled in the coming days and i don't want to undo all the effort required to get this shit done. 230123 ... tender_square [thanks for the well-wishes, e_o_i.] 230123 ... nr of course the first time i get covid is in new_orleans and i have to stay extra days in an airbnb next door to awkwardness that i'm really sad ended up being awkwardness. 230124 ... tender_square [sorry to hear that you're sick, nr, and away from home when it's happening (with awkwardness to boot). wishing you a speedy recovery.] 230124 ... raze (as the great smokey_robinson once sang, i second that emotion.) 230124 ... nr thank you, kind red_family. 230125 ... epitome of incomprehensibility *sigh* So, after my all Saturday blather-griping about Mom using the word "sick" to describe Person She Doesn't Know Being Gay...guess who got literally sick? Yup. Not The Virus again, but definitely A Virus - stomachache, headache. I didn't want to miss the talk yesterday, so I donned a mask and went to Concordia...which I don't regret, though I shouldn't have talked to class people while my mask was off. I didn't even eat many of the snacks - still not much appetite. On the other hand, it's nice to have a day off today, even if I had to work an hour and a half from home. Onward! 230322 ... nr it's the anniversary of my hoarse, phlegmy voice but i still haven't recorded a blues album 230323 ... nr let's see... covid twice, a nasty cold/flu once, and three colds so far this year. going back to hermit life is getting enticing. 231119 ... raze as someone who used to get sick a few times a year like clockwork, i (a) feel your pain, (b) can definitely vouch for the benefits of hermiting, and (c) hope you feel better really soon. 231119 ... e_o_i I hope you feel better or are feeling better now, nr! It's not fun when a virus decides to convert one's head into a snot-production factory. Well, maybe it's fun for the virus. I don't know what they do in their free time. (But yeah, I had a cold in October that seemed to go away, only to pop up again the next week. Thanks, October.) 231119 ... nr annnd another cold/flu makes its way in before the end of the year. these germs are impressive in a way. 231218 ... nr and again. at this point i feel like i've developed somewhat of a tolerance to pseudoephedrine. this drug, when it works, is the only thing that makes any of this somewhat tolerable. 240113 what's it to you? who go blather from