awkwardness raze if my middle name were this — and there have been times when i was sure it had to be, though i always lacked the paperwork to prove it — my initials would be "jaw". wouldn't that be something? 220926 ... FauxGrr I spend my days feeling uncomfortable when anyone is in the room. Even those I love. I wish I could live alone. I wish I could be alone. When I was young I told my friends that someday I would live in the middle of nowhere. A hermit. Why did I let this happen to me? I told my therapist I wished to escape my life. She said, 'oh but you'd miss your son.' I don't think I would. I've never had those feelings. But I do not leave because I know that my son would miss me. 250128 what's it to you? who go blather from