told
nonexistant girl
she
never
told
anyone
she
never
talked
about
it
it
was
something
that
had
never
happened
041109
...
same as above
actually
,
she
told
her
father
,
because
he
was
the
one
she
used
to
go
to
when
her
dolls' heads
would
pop
off
she
thought
he
could
make
her
feel
better
like
that
but
instead
he
just
got
angry
and
she
felt
like
it
was
all
her
fault
and
she
didn't
feel
any
better
for
telling
so
after
that
she
didn't
want
to
talk
her
siblings
tried
to
get
her
to
her
mother
tried
but
everytime
anyone
tried
it
only
ever
hurt
to
talk
so
she
never
told
anyone
after
that
initial telling
she
could
never
really
talk
until
one
day
who
knows
why
?
it's
crazy
really
she
started
writing
it's
only
now
she'll
admit
to
remembering
before
six
but
even
at
that
it's
only
this
or
that
because
,
even
though
there
are
some
things
she
can't
forget
,
there
is
a
lot
she
can
,
a
lot
she
has
and
that
scares
her
some
,
to
know
to
not
know
to
know
she
doesn't
know
to
feel
like
her
childhood
is
a
book
full
of
holes
050217
...
.she
and
it's
funny
how
she
has
to
write
as
'she'
like
as
if
that
puts
some
distance
between
her
and
the
words
she
is
typing
like
she's
talking
about
someone
else
050218
...
nom me she
and
how
simple
it
all
looks
in
words
simple
little
words
,
painful
words
and
how
easily
i
get
it
all
mixed
up
just
like
everything
just
like
my
mother
mistakes
the
second
for
the
first
and
me
for
my
older
sister
when
she
mentions
it
asking
me
like
it
wasn't
me
but
how
my
oldest_sister
when
she
hears
this
steps
in
to
set
the
record
straight
like
it
needs
to
be
known
that
i
was
the
one
i
was
hurt
too
it's
understandable
to
me
yet
unbelieveable
that
my
mom
would
forget
after
all
the
surgeons'
knives
it's
understandable
now
yet
unbelievable
that
my
father
reacted
the
way
he
did
back
then
when_i_was_small
i
know
him
now
more
than
i
did
then
i
know
too
much
,
i
don't
know
him
050222
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
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