started pralines&cream I started to blathe something about an elipsis on a blathe called dotdotdot, but then i thought, "what's the point? this will be a stupid" blathe, and i pulled a "nevermind, i have nothing to say" in the form of the "back" button. I guess this message could have some kind of moral, but i don't much care, now i'm really going to sleep. 020203 ... mon uow when i started school in nanaimo, they put me in the second grade, because i'd already done enough grade one correspondence work in victoria and was a quick learner. and i guess i would've done alright in grade two then, but i felt cheated, and i felt like i was cheating. i wanted to go to grade 1 like other kids had. i felt i had missed a lot. i remember sitting in that grade two class, looking around at all the other kids and thinking about how they had all done grade 1 and kindergarten and preschool and i felt stupid, and i started crying. everyone else seemed so comfortable and i just felt like the oddball, the one who wasn't supposed to be there. and for those first couple of days in school in that class that's what i did, i felt stupid and i cried. and when the teacher asked me some things, i told her i didn't know, and that i didn't know why i was in grade two when i should go through grade one first. i basically insisted i didn't know anything and that they were going to have to put me in grade one unless they wanted me to fail. and so they did. and i started grade one. 050330 ... tilt finally. one less thing to worry about. see life and great_sex 060117 what's it to you? who go blather from