missed newme i have a tendency to meet people who have already moved away from the village like that drunk girl a few weeks ago i can't believe i didn't know her before we'll probably never meet again 040715 ... newme and that actress in that little play that time i fiddled with that guy 040715 ... nom my dad just missed a step on the stairs like daughter like father 060120 ... mindpop After my stroke had stabilized, I was transferred to a rehab hospital, to mend. In the neuro ward there were all kinds of patients, evidence of calamities: car accidents, strokes, aneurysms, etc. My first roommate there was a teenage girl who had tried to shoot herself dead, but missed. She had had brain surgery and had to wear a helmet to protect her skull afterward. While I was there, she was discharged to a nursing home, stuck in a wheelchair for life. There was a pause… 120920 ... gja the past tense of miss 150303 ... raze how strange to be this. 220925 ... ovenbird The verb and the noun, both happening at the same time. I do the work of missing you, an active thing, a process of seeing you in everything and not seeing you at all. Missing: one box full of things you’ve touched which I entrusted to registered mail and is now delayed due to “severe weather” with no indication of when it will arrive. And so I miss you and a piece of you is missing. And wasn’t it a near miss, all those years ago? And we might have missed each other again but for so many strange convoluted twists of fate. And here my eyes get misty because we might have missed forever what we now hold close enough to miss. 260305 ... ovenbird Addendum: I know what the dictionary says. A verb, yes, but never a noun. An adjective. I know. And yet. It is a thing with weight. Heavy. Corporeal. Missing. Missed. An object I hold, this missing. A thing with a shape like the space between stars. A noun. A place I go. An animal panting. A presence. 260306 what's it to you? who go blather from