painful
raze
i
can't
seem
to
stop
hurting
myself
without
meaning
to
.
yesterday
i
slammed
my
shoulder
into
the
wall
while
walking
up
the
stairs
and
almost
shoved
it
right
out
of
its
socket.
today
i
tried
to
tear
a
strip
of
scotch
tape
in
two
and
bent
back
the
nail
on
the
index
finger
of
my
left
hand
. seconds
later
,
i
stubbed
a
toe
on
my
metal
bedframe
.
i
punched
the
mattress
and
swore.
i'm
half
-expecting
to
wake
up
tomorrow
having
broken
an
arm
in
my
sleep
.
240531
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from