regret pilgrim I regret being so selfish as to hide myself from the ones I love. See New, then you'll understand 010125 ... jinx A word that I try not to use-in conversatoin, writing, and feeling. 020217 ... Miffey fire in my soul that melts hope dice that I rolled that I should have put into my pocket. Courage I should have had when it was needed most. Something that I promised that I would never give to myself. Not punching that bastard when I had the chance. Losing myself so that I couldn't save us. a tattoo I wear every day I open my eyes. Being the me that I knew while you showed me the person I could have been happy as. Bringing it up, and talking like it was the only choice. Not grabbing you by the arm when I saw the fear in your eyes and running home to comfort you, and to prepare, like a man would have. Tonight. There's nothing there for me. Fire that melts hope. 020228 ... bespeckled Upon my end, within that place wherein my soul shall rest forever and forever, I will face a final test. "If there should only be one thing," shall chime the pure refrain, "that you could do, that you could change, that you could face again - "Is there one past mistake that tore your heart so greatly that, now knowing what you didn't then, you'd willingly retract? "Is there one wish, one dream unsought, one great enraptured end, which, having been denied you once, you'd now pursue again? Speak now of that peculiar thing o'er which your heart's been torn - some awful burden on your soul that gives you cause to mourn." Then my reply shall flow in haste, my words already known. My answer, same in life and death, will bear a somber tone: "There was a man with whom I shared a love that moved my earth. I bore his pain, his joys, his tears - his love bore my rebirth. "I loved him, yes, I craved him, yes - yet diction cannot say how lungs will yearn when oxygen is just a breath away." So I will give my answer then, the same forevermore: "My one regret is simply that I could not love him more." 020620 ... pilgrim Regret, like a misplaced Blathe, is all about irreversebility. And In Reality Every choice Begets other choices, So that the Changing Of a Regretable Choice, Even if Possible, Is No Guarantee That the rest of your Life Would Be Any Sweeter, Just Unpredictable again In a New Way 020621 ... pralines&cream sorry 020621 ... distorted tendencies Something I have never felt before. 020922 ... tilt always regret. it's what makes us human. never regret regretting. and never think you can stop doing stupid things. as you learn more, your past becomes a shameful embarrassment. its just the way things are. never mind. 051112 ... AfPRicochetMVP while i've done things i'm not proud of, i have no regrets about the way i live (and have lived) my life 051113 ... megan what do you regret most 051113 ... nom egrets 051114 ... birdmad listening to Orbital again "daddy, what does regret mean?" "Well, son, the funny thing about regret is that it's better to regret something you have done than to regret something you haven't... ...By the way, son, when you see your mom this weekend, be sure to tell her... SATAN! SATAN! SATAN!" 051114 ... belly fire one day I'll rue ever having complained about my mother calling me... one day I'll regret ever having taken advantage that she's on the end of the line, asking how my day was. 060621 ... nom i'll always regret 061231 ... flux one might think one is living without regrets, but one doesn't always see how one will expand over time. there's many things it took me years to regret, and its taking me more years to come to terms with that. 140828 ... nr people seem to more often regret things they didn't do than things they did. which isn't so new or such a revelation, but it is a comfort to think about to someone who is prone to fearfulness. but i've realized that even when i've said or done things i consider regrettable, i wish things had gone differently or that i'd taken a different course of action, but i always said or did what i did for a reason, so i don't usually regret the act. doing things teaches you more than not doing things does. 160125 what's it to you? who go blather from