speak DammitJanet i want to sit down and talk with you but i never get the chance. everytime we're alone i freeze. i can't seem to make a sound unless you start the conversation. so instead i study you without you knowing. but i can never tell if you'd be interested in what i have to say. i have so many questions that i'm afraid to ask. afraid of what you'd answer. or if you would even answer at all. you're filled with so much that i want to hear but i fear i'll never know any of it. 030118 ... bandersnatch speaking is over rated. besides, who needs words when eyes and hands say so much more? 030122 ... belly fire "Silence has many advantages. When you do not speak, other people presume you to be deaf or feeble-minded and promptly make a show of their own limitations. Only occasionally do I find I have to break my peace: shout out or be lost in the shuffle. But mostly I am lost in the shuffle. I write and draw in my notebook and read anything I please. It is true I do not speak as well as I can think. But that is true of most people, as nearly as I can tell." "The Poisonwood Bible" Barbara Kingsolver 030122 ... belly fire speak speak the words you have longed to say and for once do not fear rejection and confusion believe in the possibility that there might be understanding and more words than you could have hoped to hear 030423 ... oldephebe someone once said to me "i have the key to that closet you've locked yourself in and you know what?..it's made out of love.." it was true...i a formerly timid and querelous and bookish and waaaaaaay too shy delicate flower type of a guy learned to love myself and honor me first and d*** anyone else's potential or percieved responces to the honesty of my own authority for/over me .... self-love baby...here let me gently bush that curtain of flaxen hair out of your diffident eyes...they...are SO beautiful... 040128 what's it to you? who go blather from