regrettable raze they say you regret the things you didn't do more than the things you did. i'm not sure that's true in my case. it might be a photo finish. so many seemingly meaningless moments turned out to be pivot points in my life. saying yes when i should have said no. reaching out when i would have been better off amputating my own arms. buying a bong from a two-faced friend when i had no need for one. not valuing myself enough to walk_away. putting my trust in the wrong place. eating shit and convincing myself it was melted chocolate. i don't live in the past, but it follows me around like a strange smell i can't shake. i'd do a lot of things differently if i could step back into who i used to be with the scars i've got now. if all my wishes were fishes, no tank would be tall enough to hold them all. 260119 what's it to you? who go blather from