paranoid nr sometimes i worry that people i've blathered about will find my words. and sometimes i wonder if the worry isn't that paranoid after all. but i hope it is. 140819 ... flowerok hmm. yes. I could see the concern and hope for that. As I ve said my boyfriend wrote here yeeeaaars before we met or got together. some writing was between him and ex girlfriends. I wonder if he wonders if I wonder... or if any of them who seem not to write there anymore will come back or read what I've written and how that would feel for everyone or if it would be nice to talk and relate or awkward... maybe both. In the event of such a thing, I would leave rather than cause "drama" here if it were to come to that. though I like to imagine that anyone he was that close to was/is real enough to get along, that he had good character judgement and taste. 140819 ... raze every once in a while i think about my regular email address and a few links to my blog just sitting there in a few old blathes. if someone really wanted to find me here, they probably could without too much trouble. but i take comfort in knowing there's a strong chance they wouldn't understand blather even if they did find it, or else they wouldn't be interested enough to investigate much (there are a few message board threads from long ago scattered around the net where someone would post a link to blather and suggest people check it out, only to get "this is boring/gay/stupid" or some variation on the theme in response), and they'd turn around and leave before finding anything written about them. 140820 what's it to you? who go blather from