stress florescent light When I'm stressed, sometimes I will laugh real hard, uncontrollably, and then I'll start to cry. 010313 ... mikey stress is me now 010313 ... nocturnal stop it stop it stop it!!! no stress! get rid of it. unless you can think of one good thing it does for anyone. sure, it might make you get stuff done once in a while, but it is pure hell for your health, mentally and physically. thinking about how much I hate stress stresses me out. I suppose I should stop then. 010313 ... florescent light There is good stress And there is bad stress Good stress is good for your health 010313 ... johnny west What would good stress be? Nervous/giddy anticipation? Maybe that's it. Feeling alive. 010313 ... mikey this isnt good stress. its more like..worry anyway 010313 ... dB Ok, dig this. Last night I was so stressed out that I could not sleep. 3am rolls around and I try to turn my pillows over to get more comfortable. One of the pillows falls off the bed, so I reach down to get it. Suddenly there is this smash, and my arms hurts. I have a measuring jug full of water next my bed because I wake up thirsty alot. I smashed the thing by putting my wrist through it while reaching for the pillow. I didn't even notice. Just grabbed the pillow and tried to get to sleep. After a while I noticed the sheets were all wet. The bed was saturated in blood. Nasty. It took about an hour to get the bleeding to stop, and all the main cuts were only a centimeter or so away from the main artery. Not the most pleasent way to wake up. 010313 ... mikey OW! gosh are you ok? thats one wakeup call isnt it? HELLO REALITY! ouch that likely hurt alot when you realized you had done it. 010313 ... dB Well it only hurt when I first hit the jug. but that went away after a few seconds. It's all about controlling your nerves. It's easy. It's the itching when the damaged nerves start reparing themselves that I can't get rid of. But yeah, I'm ok. Lost a bit of blood though, but it'll be back. 010313 ... johnny west I forget what blood type I am, but here... :::sends dB a couple pints of blood::: Ooooooooooh...Feelin' a little woozy! 010313 ... dB Oh, dammit. Look man this stuff is corked! How am I supposed to drink this? 010313 ... pilgrim Damn Db !! can you still Play? 010314 ... chiidi dB puts his fist through a jug and i nearly chew off my own tongue while i'm dreaming, man last night must have just had one gigantic black cloud over it. that's just freaky. 010314 ... chiidi chiidi birdmad and it all happened at 3am 010314 ... dB Can I still play? Of course (if you are talking about drums). I never said I cut myself up real bad. The bleeding wouldn't stop was the only problem. And why would you chew your tongue off while sleeping? I don't get it. 010314 ... chiidi i don't quite get the "how" or "why" of it either, but apparently it happened while i was dreaming i just know that i woke up to the taste of blood and a very sore tongue something's got me wound up tight 010317 ... dB Whatever's got you wound up, man, it can't be healthy. 010317 ... distorted tendencies All this stress is causing a great amount of stomach pain. I am probably going to get an ulcer. 011013 ... silentbob woah woah woah.. i dont understand. How hard and fast were you moving your hand to grab your pillow that it broke glass enough to cut you? Confused 020204 ... guitar_freak test tomorrow. paper unwritten. shit. 051106 ... AfPRicochetMVP 10 page draft due tuesday @ 8am 4-6 page critical analysis due wednesday @ 10am lab write up due wednesday @ 3pm it's monday afternoon @ 2:15pm it's go time 051128 ... Sonya is killing me slowly and painfully. School + work + family + men + love + sex + school + work + money + expectations + deadlines + sleep + lack thereof of sleep + caffeine + worries + sex + LOVE. the insanely weary feline 051128 ... nocturnal very first law school final tomorrow, and what am I doing? well, blathering obviously, and watching spanish soap operas. seriously, I have a problem. I think I lack the capacity to experience stress when I need it, and then I stress out about stupid shit, like when someone eats the last piece of pizza I was going to have for lunch. pizza I find stressful, tests that determine my future, no worries. 051129 ... cocoon I think that after the end of next week, the relief is going to be like... I dont even have words to express how great its going to be. Until I get my results and have to stress about re-sits (which there will probably be.) 070626 ... no reason i forget sometimes how much the mind can affect the body. my body is sure being affected by the previous stress. 090613 ... unhinged everyone keeps commenting on how skinny i've gotten. too bad it's cause i can't eat. 090614 ... no reason i need to get out of myself to get rid of (or at least, distract myself from) my stresses. listening to music played by the likes miles_davis or john_coltrane or gary_burton (all of these folks need their links) definitely accomplishes this task. the fact that this music exists and that there are musicians who can play it blows my mind far enough out of myself. or something. 130526 ... * the likes of 130526 ... tender_square i can't remember my dreams, fragments of another life my fingers can't reach around. i scrunch my eyes and conjure pictures that feather-fly away from me. i lay awake in night's apex, my heart a beast that cowers and confronts. 230404 what's it to you? who go blather from