listening uow my mind is always elsewhere i pay not enough attention i need to stop and listen 040925 ... nom they were talking so loud, too loud my name grabbed me by the ear i couldn't help but hear 060120 ... nom i should've put on my headphones but i didn't want to i just wanted quietness 060120 ... nom it makes me want to move 060120 ... nom my mom is blasting music upstairs right now it's a dolly parton song she knows i used to love to sing 070101 ... just listening i am so terrified that i will always be just listening, never my turn to speak. that i am letting all the opportunities pass me by. or maybe even that there are no opportunities. i want it so much. i can see it so clearly. it's just there, right there. too scared to reach out. 070409 ... Lovers Lament Listening to Johnny West. ;) Your soul is in your voice. And your soul is beautiful. 130326 ... no reason i'm reading an advance copy of a book written by the author of my favourite book. a line from the book struck me hard: "she was both generous and receptive (this was another thing about her; she listened, her attention was dazzling — i never had the feeling that other people listened to me half as closely; i felt like a different person in her company, a better one, could say things to her i couldn't say to anyone else, certainly not [other girl], who had a... way of deflating serious comments by making a joke, or switching to another topic..." this first person is what i need and am often missing. the second person is you. if one can't have the first person, should they settle for the second, at least in the meantime? for the need for support that sometimes feels like emptiness?. 131004 ... e_o_i I've been both people. I should say all three: also the one looking for someone who would listen. 131005 ... nr jazz drums improv book promotion editing psychology listening to music and seeing shows a lot of my favourite things involve active listening. 151207 ... nr or active reading, i guess. active absorbing. 151207 ... nr it throws me a bit when people actively listen and notice and ask questions after i speak. it doesn't happen with too many people. 220522 what's it to you? who go blather from