support o n m "artists need patrons" 100124 ... unhinged i don't know how to be the artwork on a pedestal i only know how to be the pedestal 100124 ... nr i often crave it because i didn't grow up with the kind i needed from the people i needed it from 211007 ... nr "he's being grouchy," she said. "ugh! about what?" her sister asked. "i won't get into it right now, but i just asked what i thought was a simple question, and he got so emotional and reactive. he's never learned to deal with frustration healthily." "ugh, him and his defensiveness." "i dealt with it logically and we reached an agreement, and then i said thank you, and he replied with a heart emoji. what a rollercoaster. ha." "yikes. yeah, a lot of extra emotional labour involved on your end." "thanks, i mostly just roll my eyes at this point." "good for you. sometimes it still bothers me. eye-rolling seems healthier!" "it bothers me too but i try to look at it objectively. i feel like we can take pride in being more emotionally stable than him!" "haha, kind of a low benchmark to clear." she chuckled. 220318 ... nr when we interact with people on a daily basis, even if they are not people we choose to interact with, we need some element of support. of attention. of validation. of companionship. of solidarity. of noticing. of seeing. our humanity seems to matter less in these situations, these days, these lives. 260409 ... raze the first time she set foot in the bedlam of my bedroom, she sat on my mattress in one of the few places where sitting was possible. she wrapped her arms around me and held me from behind. not a word was said about the mess. and i thought, "so this is how it feels." 260409 what's it to you? who go blather from