neck from now on i have had a sore neck since about october 10th, '02 a constant pain, it cracks and crunches when i told the doctor he said there's nothing he can do 041029 ... from now on i can remember when it didn't hurt. it never used to hurt, not like this 041029 ... from now on i remember when i went to hug my oldest_sister at the airport, she asked me what was wrong, i said i didn't know, i hadn't noticed the pain before that moment i can't remember when it started, i just know i went to hug her and that's when i said ouch i figured it would improve now two years later it is only worse and i just wish i could figure it out 041029 ... n o m e e wow i'd almost forgotten about this. my neck did improve, but then this year i woke up with a seeming spasm when camping in late july and it never quite went away. . my doctor got xrays done, and then i went to a musculoskeletal pain/rehab specialist the other day.... he poked me a bunch with his fingers while holding/rotating my neck/shoulder,,asking me how much less it hurt compared to the first pokes/starting positions. he concluded that i have very unusual pain response, that pain increases in positions which should release/relieve pain in most people, he said however that he has seen this in some fibromyalgia patients. he also said that manipulation/therapy would maybe just be futile, that i have had chroinc pain for so long that it is deep/things are a little messed up inside me. and to just keeping using cesamet/cannabis/ and rest! 101119 ... n o m e e other day = yesterday 101119 ... unhinged (i wish the country i live in would recognize cannabis as a valid medication for my chronic pain...my neck is also in constant pain for a different reason, so i feel for you dear. chronic pain sucks. hard.) i need kisses and nibbles right where my neck meets my shoulder it is my favorite place to receive affection snuggles it would be nice to have a living breathing cuddle_bug in my bed now too now that the cold is starting to take hold the down blankets work better with another human heater undearneath to keep it going (i want your breath on my neck) 101120 ... raze i was sure i strained something or pinched a nerve or pulled a muscle. what happened was i was listening to "no time this time" and the end of the song felt like the end of the world, or maybe just a fissure in the fabric of now. i started dancing like i haven't danced since i don't know when. it was more of a fight between me and the space around my bed. i threw a right hook at someone i couldn't see and felt them stab me in the cervix. and then there was pain every time i turned my head. that was the_other_night. now i'm fine. i guess whatever knife kissed the nape of my neck wasn't made to maim me after all. 250517 ... raze (so, it turns out i don't have a cervix. i have ... other parts. i was thinking of the cervical spine, and then *that* happened. one for the freudian_typos collection, maybe. make of it what you will.) 250517 ... Jus Raze, this made me laugh. And as someone with a cervix, I can tell you that getting stabbed there also sucks. 250518 what's it to you? who go blather from