fight belly fire radio. he stares right. I stare slightly left. The Intimidation Game. voices raised. someone cries. it's always me. I ruin everything. 030110 ... belly fire I sat there turning my fingers over my wrist as though I had been burned there, seeing the look of anger and frustration, directed at me, at me understanding, for the first time, that we could really hurt each other for the first time there wasn't even a trace of your loving face 040105 ... jesse fight club is one of the better movies ever made. 041011 ... Cicero I know what is coming. It burdens me... like knowing your lover is being used somewhere and you are powerless to stop it. The cruelty of this is deep. The sudden... devaluation... There is no fighting it. There is no saving the purity. Her fatalism sinks its teeth into her body and shatters her aura. The delicacy... all that pure love will be dead. Raped, if you will, then murdeerd. 041012 ... nr there's a rope around your leg that is making everything hard to reach. there are people who think you belong somewhere, and that is making it hard to believe you don't. there's hope in knowing you could use those big scissors in your brain if you were brave enough to pull them out. 251001 what's it to you? who go blather from