teeth silentbob brush decay brush decay erode disgust decay erupt brush decay 030902 ... silentbob i had a dream you had bad teeth too, under your lip where no one could see. and that i would love you despite them, despite this flaw which i had imagined, as a way to make you relate to me, as a way to make you love me 040127 ... silentbob i bit your teeth 041031 ... epitome of incomprehensibility Stupid hurting tooth, too sensitive, and stupid me eating candy. I forgot about the feeding_the_poor_with_dandelion_leaves and I scheduled my dentist appointment for next Wednesday. I wonder if the hurting tooth was the one he said needed to be filled, or it's just hurting because it wants to be sensitive and give me a hard time because karma dictates I need something to irritate me. I haven't been very hurtful to anyone in a long while (I hope) but I'm afraid I've been irritating from time to time. 150214 ... epitome of incomprehensibility The back left ones were constantly paining me yesterday, and I could hardly do anything. It was my own fault for eating cinnamon hearts on Sunday (I got them for Feel Bad That You're Single Day, although the feeling bad part came two days late). I think it's one tooth in particular that needs a filling, but the nerves branch out in hurting patterns. NO, DELEUZE AND GUATTARI, ROOTLIKE STRUCTURES ARE NOT ALWAYS GOOD. (You always have to blame the literary critics. Today I'm practically pain-free. I think Roland Barthes did some heavenly intercession on my behalf after I remembered his name unexpectedly.) Prof. K is in Mexico, so I didn't have to go anywhere. I plunked in front of my computer, a pained blob in a hoodie, and read blogs listlessly until I was told to do something different, and then I actually got some writing and reading done. 150217 ... raze back when he was working at that music store (when he wasn't lying about epilepsy or siblings being in car accidents to get out of work), i told him i thought one of his coworkers was cute and asked what her name was. "who?" he said, looking at me like i was nuts. "piranha face?" he never did give me her name. and i guess he thought she wasn't attractive because her teeth were a little weird. but i liked her weird teeth. they were one of my favourite things about her. they gave her a smile that wasn't like anyone else's. 150317 ... unhinged my teeth are crooked. i gave an introductory lesson to a dentist on saturday. my monkey mind kept hoping he wasn't judging me on my crooked teeth. 150317 ... e_o_i The number of teeth in my mouth is no longer a power of 2. Yesterday I had a wisdom tooth pulled out, an odd-one-out tooth with curvy roots that never grew far enough out of my gums (not fully "erupted," the dentist said, as if it was a volcano - poor repressed un-volcanic tooth.) I was very scared at first. And my mother's friend just had heart surgery on Monday to replace a valve, so I kept telling myself to compare the two things, and then stop being such a wimp (leveraging the suffering of others for one's own benefit? very selfish, like able-to-walk people telling those in wheelchairs, "Oh, you're such an inspiration" but at least I didn't condescend to anyone except myself). The pulling-out didn't hurt at all, even when the dental surgeon blasted the tooth into three parts and put a stich in my cheek. I was quite frozen. Afterwards my mouth was aching and the rest of the afternoon/evening was made bearable by ibuprofen and YouTube. I was complaining about the prescription making me pay for more painkillers than I need (and I'm not even taking the ones with a sedative) but on the flip side, it can mean I have less pain than other people do, right? Because they had to take out weirdly-growing roots, though, it cost almost $400 and I have stitches in my cheek that are still sore. (End complaints for now.) 150711 what's it to you? who go blather from