age uow aged 040827 ... no reason getting older and becoming more aware of the numbers 080304 ... past is pondering after having a fairly extended crush on a woman 4 years older than me, you'd think that i'd not be concerned about having one develop on someone slightly less than 4 years my junior.. it seems there are some barriers that are harder to pass. i also appreciate the first woman's view point a hell of a lot more now that my own position is reversed--while accepting the stupidity of this 'agism' all the same..(i'm such a bad judge of ages, i think everyone i get along with well enough to crush on is my age) 080627 ... past i've gone from being the youngest at my place of employment to among the oldest in my cohort. the group is generally older than it would be elsewhere, so it's not that bad. 130906 ... nr someone asked me today if i feel my age. i responded that i'm not sure how my age is supposed to feel. but i think i generally feel a bit younger. 140823 ... flowerock I was thinking today about myself and realized that I was older than 25. I used to think 25 was "old" when I was... younger... now at 26 I'm not sure I really feel any age at all. I think that we age as we please and that 20 or 40 we can be much the same person, just with more stories and hopefully wisdom... do I look my age? do I feel my age? I don;t know either... how does 26 feel? I feel hurried and pressed to progress in life, to get something going. for me that means reliable truck, reliable rv trailer, debts paid, income of some kind enough to maintain these things, myself, my lover, my dog, and save some for the "future" and do things like go hike cool places and take classes in wilderness survival and maybe early childhood education or forestry. 140823 ... nr i've been thinking about it a lot lately, in part because of the looming new decade i'm about to enter. do i feel 40? do i act 40? do i look 40? my answer to those would generally be no, but does it really mean anything to feel/act/look a certain age? 220116 ... nr in the week after my mom died, my dad and i were hanging out on their beachfront patio, me smoking weed and him smoking hash. we'd never done that together before. 220116 ... nr i was hanging out with two of my best friends, a married couple, in a park a couple of weeks ago. we were drinking cans of locally brewed beer we'd picked up on the way, our own little cold-weather pandemic-friendly bar, and joking that we felt like high school kids sneaking to the park mid-winter to drink their booze. the older one of that couple, who is three years older than me, always says she doesn't feel her age. 220116 ... kerry nr, these scenes/descriptions are so vivid. a new decade, unsettling. for me anyway.i'm about to hit 35 which puts me in a new age bracket for forms and whatnot and that's causing some unexpected anxiety. 220116 ... nr 35 sounds like a pretty big one in number too (no more "early 30s"!). i feel like my late 30s were when i became braver and more comfortable with who i am. i enjoyed these years, external factors notwithstanding. i'm wondering if there's a chance we have the same birthday, kerry? i remember you're a pisces too. my big 4-0 is on march 4. 220117 ... kerry nr!! i was fiddling with "go" and this blathe popped up. we don't have the same birthday, but pretty close! mine is february 27. big numbers coming up for both of us...! 220201 what's it to you? who go blather from