kerry the swinger of birches ingenue. her writing is nice. i imagine she has been in love once or twice and her motives are genuine. 021029 ... kerry my own blathe, how wonderful. :) thank you. i like your writing very much as well. 021030 ... Scarlet Photos Your writing is like glimpses. Snapshots of your life. Little details mixed with the big. I really enjoy it. I hope everything is ok. Is broken_heart about exposure boy? 021122 ... kerry everything is alright, i suppose.... broken_heart isn't about exposure boy, it's about someone else... (see: James) exposure boy was mainly a crush and now a really good friend, a friend-crush but nothing really intense or serious. i just tend to like people a LOT if i like them at all, so it probably seems like i was obsessed. i was in love with the other one. and it's sort of a long and uninteresting story, really. so i won't bore you with that. i've just been kind of... melancholy the past few weeks. but you know, nothing i won't get over. i guess everyone goes through it. i think i might have been in love... i've never been in love before, though. everything is sort of new to me. 021123 ... Scarlet Photos I see. What do you study? Are you in school/art school? Drawing photography etc... 021123 ... kerry i'm still in high school... meh. i take a drawing class and a photography class, and another photography class second semester... i can't wait till college but whatever, high school is okay i guess. i think i should make the best of it. 021124 ... Scarlet Photos I concurr. You have drawing and photography classes at school? How lucky are you? I had art class but it was very limited... pretty much painting and drawing only. 021125 ... kerry i love photography. i hope to take painting next year, and AP art... it involves lots of sculpture and pastel work and things like that. art is great... it's such a loud form of expression. 021125 ... psychobabe heh, dude i cant thank you enuff for stickin up for me in those other stupid blath's. When all seemed lost someone comes along and says something to reassure me. Yes i may say some fucked up shit but its only cuz we change sometimes. I dunno, catch ya later dude- 021125 ... kerry it's no big deal, really... i think everyone around here just needs to lighten up. blather should be a harmonious place. heehee. 021126 ... psychobabe woo wooo *agrees* *runs around with her arms flaleing in the air screaming- COME ON PEOPLE SHOW THE LOOOOOOOVE* 021126 ... belly fire "...i just tend to like people a LOT if i like them at all..." Kerry...this is truly who I am! I've never been able to really put down what you wrote so easily but once in a while I trip over a small self-revelation in other's blathes. This is definitely one of them. Thank you for it. 021126 ... kerry welcome 021129 ... birch boy never ceases to amaze me. one of red blathers finer writers. 021230 ... the swinger of birches i liked minute letters. i like all your stuff. 030109 ... no reason so do i. i'm always left with a sort of comforting feeling after i read it. nice. 030113 ... mcdougall I tend to read blather writings more then I do write them. Mostly because I am interested more in other people's thoughts then I am in putting down my own, but also because I don't think that I am that great of a writer (Plus, what little skill I have at writing drops a bit when I type because I'm not great at typing). I came across this page though, this homage to you and your works, and it intrigued me to find some of your blather entries and read what everyone here has been praising. I enjoyed the few that I read before I wrote this. I enjoy reading other peoples tales of love, and troubles in love, mostly because I was once in love and I had my heart broken. I feel that the stories from peoples lives that are written here are more enjoyable than those in any book, fictional or not, because I know that it is true whether or not it is or not (If that makes any since at all). I know that the stuff written here comes from people’s hearts and minds, screwed up or not. Your tales, from what I have read, are that of what I enjoy, and I wanted you to know that I think they are amazing. You, in my minds eye, are a talented artist in both writing and other forms, even though I have never seen any of your works. Heck, I didn't know you even existed until an hour ago. I have just one question for you though; do you feel that you are inspired to do greater works through heart aches from your love, or obsession, for other people? Please, keep on writting. 030114 ... kerry do you ever just want to tell someone everything? today my latin teacher came up to my desk while i was reading and started reciting this sylvia plath poem that i had never heard so it took me a minute to get what she was doing. and then i looked down and remembered i was reading "the bell jar" and realized what she was saying, and it was such an experience. so, i appreciate what you have said, and i can't answer your question because i honestly don't know the answer. but thanks, a lot. 030114 ... mcdougall I have read more writings of yours since I first asked that question. Before, I imagined you as someone else, one of the certain types of persons that I have made up in my head to define someone I don't know. Now though, I see that you are completely different then what I first perceived. Yes, to answer your question, that is something I find myself longing to do countless amounts of times. I find myself at a loss of words now as I try to say what I want, so this will probably be a little confusing. You open up your world to everyone when you write. To me that is inspiring. I am envious, though I think I shouldn't be. I can never write the way I think, which is what I want to do more than anything. When I try, it only makes sense to me. Writing this is making me frustrated because I don't know how to express this feeling I have into words and relate it to the situation. arg... Oh well failed attempt to express a feeling. Maybe I should try from a different approach. 030114 ... bandersnatch i feel the exact same way about my writing mcdougall, but i figured something out: usually it makes perfect since to everyone (well, anyone who you would want to read it). i think you and i think our writing is confusing to others because we can not put all of our thoughts and feelings into the words. but trust me, enough gets through to sound wonderful. 030114 ... frAnk if i lived near you i would call you everyday and i would bring you presents like chocolate or tazo chai or zen tea. i would bring you dvds that were cool, independant films and i'd bring you my favourite cds. i would sit near you and we would talk. i would ask you questions about your life. we would go on walks in the woods and we'd have cameras. we would find a dark room to develop our pictures. they would be awesome. 030715 ... kerry thank you. (smiles) 030716 ... Anna_Began (Smiles too) 030717 ... mcdougall you are missed and will be missed everyday 031021 ... crOwl i_miss_my_beautiful_friend 060522 ... raze i know i'm not alone in saying i miss your words. i hope you come back here someday and share yourself with us again. 121224 ... cooper rasha sometimes when i go to coffee shops i sit and look at people with their laptops and wonder if they're on blather. or if they ever have been. and i drink black cherry soda and wear my thick wool cap and wish i knew someone in person who blathed. le sigh. 130209 ... cooper rasha On the average day I have enough to keep me occupied so that I don't dwell on the fact that I'm living my worst nightmare daily. Tonight things calmed down. I went out to eat with my friend and he asked what my ex is like. A thousand memories flashed through my head, too many thoughts to put into words. I said I missed him and I realized that was the first time I had told anyone that. So I've been laying in bed, trying to sleep. I can't believe this is actually how things are. He doesn't want to see me. I love him. There is no forgiveness. There is a new girlfriend. And the thought of it makes me sick. It makes me want to throw up until I die. I love him. I never want to love anyone again. Every moment now means nothing. He said he would marry me. He said he would marry alex too. I guess it's all a joke with him. I guess that's why they say to ask what happened to the last girlfriend, cause it'll probably happen to you. I have no choices. All I have is heart break. I can honestly say that losing him was the worst thing that ever happened in my life. Considering that I watched my own dad die, I hope that conveys what I knife I have through my soul. I will never be the same. I don't care if what I say sounds cheesy. It's true and it comes from the bottom of my stupid broken heart. 130209 ... cooper rasha no one buys clothes that fit. you cant recognize anyone at first because their faces are caked in makeup and their hair is highlighted. everyone! frosted hair. that used to be a suburban soccermom thing. eh, maybe it still is. fake smiles and giggly waves. AH!!! 130222 ... raze i'm so glad you're here. 210725 ... e_o_i *waves* I wasn't here when you started writing, but it's nice to read your words again. 210725 ... kerry it’s so good to be back. 210725 ... raze i think typos are just words that go missing once in a while because they can't keep up with how brilliant you are. this place is so much better for having you here. i just wanted to say that. ::: runs away ::: 210829 ... kerry i like your theory, raze! and i agree with it. screw perfection. and i feel better coming back here. glad it's reciprocal. don't stay in your little hidey-hole too long. :) (i haven't read anything more recent so i'm pretending you haven't written yet) 210830 ... raze "the trees are so tall their branches kiss to form a bottle-green cathedral, blocking the sky." i need a better word than "beautiful" for what that is, but i can't find one. i didn't want to intrude on that blathe, but i needed to say that. you have a way of painting these moments that are so vivid i feel like i can reach out and touch them and feel them move. 211015 ... kerry wow, thank you raze. writing that was cathartic. i like that it resonated with you. and also, intrude away; i know what you mean about letting some blathes be, but i also hope at least some of these blathes with their open-ended… titles? might bring unearth something unexpected for other blatherskites. 211016 ... kerry also it is surreal to revisit this blathe and read my own words as a 15-year-old. 211016 ... tender_square just wanted to stop here and say how much i appreciated "16_years." it's refreshing to read about a long-standing friendship between women that's built on mutual respect and admiration. i loved the descriptions of the halloween decorations and the children (not to mention sadie the three-legged woofer); your post motivated me to finally buy candy to make bags for all the kids in the neighborhood. 211022 ... kerry wow, thank you, tender_square. i have a hard time accepting compliments especially from people whose writing i really respect. i really like writing about relationships, any kind. to me that's a topic where you'll never run out of things to say. and make sure to get the good candy! haha. gotta get there before all the snickers and reese's are gone. :) 211022 ... tender_square girl, you *know* i got the good candy! i always get both chocolate and candy, because each bag needs a bit of both. 211022 ... raze there you go giving me the warm fuzzies again. 211103 ... kerry i'm just being honest! :) 211104 ... raze i was just working on some rough ideas for a blathe about someone named grace. i refreshed the recent page a minute ago, and the "grace" blathe appeared at the top of today's list, because you just wrote on it. i swear i'm not making this up. blather synchronicity is real. 211215 ... kerry whoa, uncanny! the cosmos is listening. 211215 what's it to you? who go blather from