longing plus the plus without a minus is a little to much to stand, without the balancing aspect, prospects of equality are nothingness. trying to weigh out a plus without a minus is for a fool to guess, as it is impossible to obtain a yin and yang when the yang is missing isnt it? or is it yin? to begin again, i would perfer nothing to the something i have without you, if ignorance is bliss and obilivion is ignorance, lets make the two halves whole and cease to exist, minus. {+/?} 010307 ... minus {-} equillibrium achieved... commence the "rest of our lives together" dream sequence... ...ready? {blowing breath into your lips} 010307 ... brown cardigan boy oh expectation is a great lily upon water. everyday i wake up knowing i'm one day closer to something i've been missing. that's what keeps a dreamer going. he puts faith in things most unreliable and to him there is nothing in the world more logical. that is the best. because even when that dream dies out, a new one takes its place. did you ever think you could put aside that thing that you call logic. give it up for that one moment, and everything you've ever wanted becomes more real. you start to visualize. but not all things end the way you want. fuck the people who will not work to make these things come true. 010307 ... silentbob And what about those people who realize that their goal is unattainable and so they settle for the next best thing? Thers a girl. shes amazing. but i dont want to ruin our friendship by asking her out or revealing my feelings to her 010309 ... mikey if your friendship is great you wouldnt ruin it. it depends how you approach the whole thing. maybe say something along the lines of what your feeling maybe scratch the surface see what reaction you get. 010309 ... nocturnal that's still sometimes dangerous. I've been there. my bestest friend in the world once tried to be all nonchalant about hinting that he wanted more than just friendship. I didn't freak out on him or anything, but I still think of him a little differently now. I think I'm a little more guarded around him than I used to be. 010309 ... mikey true. but for me i hate years down the road kicking myself for not expressing how i felt to people. its a double edge sword. 010309 ... blue star for booze. for old friends to be friends again. for love. 010309 ... birdmad for more than i can begin to describe the ache of this desire by turns sweeter than honey by turns more bitter than wormwood to be seen through her eyes as she is through mine 010309 ... nocturnal for someone to actually care enough to have waited for me to get home. if I had died on the road, they wouldn't have even noticed till tomorrow. well, okay, they probably would've gotten a phone call or something, but you get what I mean. it's just depressing, they're my parents for fuck's sake. of all the people in the world, they should be the ones who make a point of being around when you come home from college, right?! 010310 ... mikey im waiting for you to get "home" well your normal place of dwelling so youll be back on blather alot..course seems like your on like normal! 010310 ... nocturnal sad, isn't it? it's friday night, I just got home where no one has seen me in a while and yet I still have no one to talk to, so I must blather so I don't revert to talking to myself in a mirror or something. 010310 ... mikey hugs 010310 ... dB home 010311 ... mikey take a vacation dB 010311 ... no reason "i wanna have a relationship that's deep and sincere and challenging and scary." -ray on 'girls' ours is none of these things; not even as much as i have some of these things with certain friends, and he doesn't even see it, and i don't understand how he doesn't, because it's so glaring to me i can't not see it and feel it. how someone can not be missing these things when they're not there is baffling to me. 140303 ... minus I totally read everything wrong. longing to go back to the time when you wanted to run away. I would have tied your shoes for you... 170112 what's it to you? who go blather from