fucked soia "you're waiting for him and I'm waiting for you and if you're saying it's never going to change then..." "then we're all fucked." 010609 ... birdmad ...from the word "go" and irrevocably so... 010610 ... birdmad a man crashes his plane into a forest, he awakes to find himself in a pot of water with a thousand people waiting to eat him he looks to the sky and says "oh god, i'm fucked" a voice calls down to him and says "No, you're not...see the man closest to the pot, he's their king, grab that spear and run it right through his heart." he does as the voice instructs him to do, killing the king. as the rest of the village descends upon him, the voice calls down again. "okay, now you're fucked." 010627 ... kerry yesterday i woke up an hour before my alarm, i ugly-cried for maybe two minutes, then i decided i was angry and i didn't buy cigarettes instead i did burpees and listened to the_clash and kept saying to myself this is my city too, i won't be bullied, i don't want to feel small. the_guy_from_the_train was hiding in his apartment. i went over there kept thinking the weather is beautiful and none of us should be alone, and i coaxed him outside, we got juice and then breakfast sandwiches at the dutch which is where we went after his mother had a stroke and i saw him cry for the first time, we joked that this is where we go when bad shit happens, and the sun was shining in and my lower back was sweating and i sopped up golden egg yolks with my brioche roll and we hugged on the corner and i went home saying to myself over and over i think i am in shock or angry or maybe something else but it's better than all these sobbing emojis popping up on my phone and dad didn't say anything in our group text and jackie said she's not surprised and alex was sick so he didn't say anything. i saw a picture of love park online and it was completely empty. this morning i was walking to the train and looking at everyone i kept thinking so many of us opted out entirely, and half of those who didn't opt out are celebrating or hoping for the best and that's what did it, what shook me, how our city was supposed to "save" everyone and now everyone is a suspect. 241107 what's it to you? who go blather from